A Different Ending

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Remus walked away from James and Harry trying to remember his way through the maze of hallways in the house. He saw the familiar room with his name on it and walked in; he meant to go see Sirius but he was lost in memories. He looked around and saw an unmade bed that had just been sitting, he had Gryffindor posters and flags all over the walls. There was an entire wall that was dedicated to pictures and random notes to each other about everything and anything. There were picture of the four of them, arms around each other in front of the school. There was a picture of James and Sirius in those ridiculous capes bouncing around the dorm. There was a picture of his and Sirius snogging and James Sirius and Peter drunkenly singing.

He moved onto the notes, there were letter sent to each other over the summer, little pieces of parchment that had been tacked up with notes to each other and themselves. 'Moony has a nice arse- <3 Sirius' and below that,

'Get a room!- James and Peter'

'We share one with you, appreciate Moony's arse- Sirius'

'No you bloody wanker!-James' and it went on all over his wall. They had covered a whole wall of their dorm at school but they removed the sticking charm and had relocated them into Remus room in James' house. They brought back the best memories from school, he would look at them after a full moon to remind himself that he had amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend who all loved him just as Remus. He would have to take some of these down and take them with him, because he refused to live off of James forever.

His eyes continued to travel around the room, all the clothes on the floor, Sirius' mixed in, and the peaceful little corner he had surrounded by books and under and window. Hie eyes finally landed on the door that didn't quite belong. He had the door to his bathroom and the exit but this third one lead right to Sirius. He took a deep breath and pushed open the door.

"Sirius... Sirius are you here?" his voice was a whisper and he didn't know why, he looked around the room and saw him, lying in bed twitching as if having a nightmare. He walked over and knelt down next to the other man's face. "Sirius. Sirius darling wake up." He put his hands on his shoulders and gently shook him until he woke.

"Rem... Rem is that you?" His eyes were squinting and searching Remus' face.

"Sirius are you ok?"

"Yeah im fine of course i am. Why wouldn't i be." His voice sounded fake and his bedding was drenched in sweat. So he peeled back to duvet to dry it and saw Sirius in just his boxers. He looked nothing like he did ten years before, then he had eaten decent meals and had a very muscular body. Now you could see his ribs and there was almost no muscle left.

He quickly dried the bedding, walked to the other side of the bed, and stripped to just his boxers and lay facing Sirius. He could feel his lover's eyes traveling his body taking in every new scar that had been given in the last ten years. Yes he had wolfsbane but sometimes, mainly in the beginning, he would be so upset with life that it would reflect into the wolf and it would half-heartedly scratch and it left faint scars.

"Sirius... what's wrong?" He started to deny but he was interrupted. "Sirius something's wrong, please let me help you." He was have dejavu from school when Sirius would have a nightmare about his parents and Remus would lay down just like this and they would just talk.

"Remus... Rem i cant... i dont want to remember. Rem it was so horrible... i can't remember... i don't want to remember."

"Siri... i will be ok. We will get through this, but you have to talk about it. Give me some of your burden. Let me help."

"You have enough burdens, i don't want to be a burden." His steely gray eyes usually filled with mischief and joy were now cracked and broken. He wanted to get those stormy, wonderful, joyful eyes back.