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This is a Modern!Thranduil AU that is also a songfic ig, also, I'm horrible with the third person soooo, yeah...
Warning: Mentions of suicide, self-harm, and depression
Disclaimer: I am in no way trying to romanticize suicide or self-harm, I simply am writing this based off a song. As this is a touchy subject, this will most likely be the only one shot of this kind I write as I do not want to make many uncomfortable, on multiple occasions. If many people have an issue with this, please PM me and kindly ask for it to be taken down. I will gladly oblige if a large majority tell me.
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I was done. Thranduil had walked out on me for the fourth time this week, yelling and knocking stuff down in his path. He had left me in a crying mess, begging for him to come back, that we could work it out, but he hadn't listened. By now, I had completely forgotten what we had even fought about
Loving and fighting
Accusing, uniting
I can't imagine a world with you gone
The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of
I'd be so lost if you left me alone
I felt empty, the one I loved didn't appreciate me. I always let him back after he had apologized, only to have myself hurt over and over. I was too gullible and I was ready for it to end.
I now sat in the bathroom, my body shaking as I eyed the pill bottle on the sink. Was all of this fighting worth ending my life over? I would leave the fighting Thranduil and I shared behind, but I would also be leaving my son behind. But, the thought of dealing with Thranduil breaking my heart once more seemed to overtake me as I reached for the bottle.
1, 2, 3 pills went down my throat. I was crying now, swallowing more and more at a time. I had finished the bottle moments ago, I was just sobbing, sitting on the ground, my knees hugged up to my chest. I quickly quieted myself as I heard the front door unlock, the familiar voice of Thranduil filling the empty space. I heard frantic yells for me as I remained quiet, my field of vision getting smaller and smaller until I fell into what seemed to be a dreamless sleep.
You locked yourself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor when I breakthrough
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"
Thranduil ran frantically around the apartment you two shared, trying to find you. As he ran past the bathroom, he heard a thud and his breath hitched in his throat, his hand reaching for the doorknob, trying to twist it, but it was locked. Swearing under his breath, he begins to pound at the door, trying to knock it down, eventually bursting through the door. He could feel tears welling up in his eyes as he saw you lying on the ground, an empty bottle of pills in your hand. He fell to his knees, pulling your body towards him, putting his hand on your wrist trying to find a pulse. There wasn't one.
"Please don't leave me." He cries, pulling your body close to him.
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
"I still want you love... Please come back. I promise I'll fix this. I'll love you forever. Just please hold on for me." He pleads, picking you up and running you to his car, driving off to the hospital,
A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Drivin' a nightmare I can't escape from
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fadin'
Hiding in the shock and the chill in my bones
As he drove down the road, he continued to take quick glances towards you, praying you weren't going towards the light, praying you would be okay. As he neared the hospital, the shock of what had happened hit him hard, tears streaming down his face as sobs escaped his lips. When he reached the hospital, he hastily ran you in, pleading to the nurses to help you, to save you.
They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming, "please don't leave me"
They soon rolled you away, leaving Thranduil in the waiting room, a nervous pace being the only thing keeping him from breaking down. He quickly sent a text to his son, informing him of what had happened. Minutes later, Legolas bursts through the doors of the hospital, his wife Tauriel behind him, worried looks on both of their faces. As Legolas reached his father, a nurse walked in,
"We've done all we can. The drug is out of her system, she's weak and we're not sure if she'll make it, but, you can come to see her." The woman says, leading the three worried people to your room. When Thranduil saw you laying in the hospital bed, your face looking slightly pained, the grief overtook him and he collapsed by your bedside, trying to find a pulse in your wrist,
"Please don't leave me Y/N! Please!" He whimpers, his face now soaked in his own tears.
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
Legolas sits near his father, his hand resting on your own, he felt a large wave of grief, but he knew it wasn't as bad as his dad would be feeling,
"Mother, please wake up. I need you, we all need you. Please come back. We can make it better. We promise." Legolas whispers, tears now streaming from his eyes.
I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong
I just wanna hear you
Saying baby, let's go home
Let's go home
Yeah, I just wanna take you home
I woke up to bright lights, a hand in mine, and the sound of sobs surrounding me. I attempt to sit up and feel the hand around mine loosen, the person it belonged to letting out a slight yelp,
"Y/N." They whisper, "look at me, please."
I slowly look up to see a crying Thranduil, causing me to tear up, "I'm sorry."
"No, no, shhh. It's okay." He says, cupping my face in his hands and kissing my face in multiple places, "I should be the one saying sorry..."
"But I-" I start, only to be cut off by Thranduil's lips on mine,
"I said shush." He whispers, "why don't we go home and fix this, fix us?"
I sniff slightly, look at Legolas who seems to plead with his eyes, sighing I turn back to Thranduil, "this is your last chance."
"Oh thank you Y/N. I couldn't have lived with myself knowing I was the reason you were gone." He sobs, hugging me tighter,
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
"I love you Y/N. I love you so much."
