Drive

Chapter 18

Songs for the chapter are:

Mr Loverboy- Little Mix

Fireflies- Owl City

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Nialls P.O.V

The events from yesterday are still heavy on my chest. I can only hope the steaming hot water could lift some of the weight, bu to no avail, I step out the shower and feel no different. I can't wrap my mind around the thought.

Dead.

I remember when we first met. He was sweet, genuine, while the other boys were rowdy and pervs. Liam was the one to always bring us back to reality. He held the band together. When he started rebelling is when we started to fall apart, and it hurts like hell. I remember we would always talk about our weddings, at the time he dreamed of marrying Danielle. I told him I wanted him to be my best man, I had no doubts. Liam was honestly my best friend, even after he rebelled he held secrets I never told anyone, not even Alex.

I dress in only boxers and plain grey sweats for now, walking into the room me and Alex share to find her still asleep. Her small, fragile arms are held around a pillow in my place and I can see the crease in her forehead. As much as I want to kiss it away, hold her and let her cry in my arms, I know I can't. She's hurting too. The little time she knew Liam, even though she wasn't fond of him, he was still Liam. My bestfriend.

I crawl into bed beside her, removing the pillow from her tight grip and replacing it with my body. Her dark hair is spread out on the pillow and her hand fist for the sheets. I push them away, wrapping my arms around her tiny waist as she shivers. She scoots close to me and lay her head on my chest. I press a light kiss to her forehead and smile to myself.

"I love you," I whisper against her hair. I hear the door creak open and see Kaylee's small figure in the frame. She peeks in and her cheeks blush when she recognizes I see her.

"Uhm.. Daddy?" It still warms my heart when she calls me daddy. I can't describle how much I love this little girl, and her mommy.

"Yes, princess?" She walks in a little more, her cheeks still red. She's embaressed to say whatever it is. "What is it baby?" She keeps her eyes on the floor.

"I..I had an accident." Her cheeks flush an even darker red. She wet the bed. I recall Alex trying to potty train her, but I thought she wore pullups at night.

I cover Alex up with the sheets and wiggle out of her grasp. When my feet hit the floor I catch sight of the time and curse under my breath.

"Shit! I'm gonna be late." I hurry to the closet and pull out a pair of jeans and a plain black t shirt. "Kaylee.. go wait in your room and i'll be in there in a minute." She obliges and hurries out.

I manage to get dressed, wake Alex, and change Kaylees sheets in the fifteen minutes I had to spare.

On my way out I see Alex and Carmen sitting in the livingroom, both watching tv. Carmen has a bowl of cereal i'm sure Alex made for her, and she's taking slow bites. I recognize she is still in the same longsleeve she wore yesterday, and if i'm not mistaken Alex gave her a shirt last night. I shurg it off and catch Kaylee as she runs down the hallway to me.

"Bye, Kay." I lightly kiss her nose and she giggles as I set her down.

"I don't get a kiss?" Alex teases and walks over to me. I shake my head and pretend to walk out the door, but I can't hide the smirk on my face. She grabs my shirt and pulls me back and I hear her laugh. I lay my hands on her waist and lightly press a kiss to her lips, before kissing her cheek.

"I love you" she smiles and I can feel the butterflies in my stomach.

"I love you" I retaliate and send her a wink as I walk down the hall, the last thing I hear being her giggle.