Summer Journal #2(COMPLETE)

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Danny! You're a really brave kid, well teen now. You're thirteen! Wow, thirteen years ago, I became a big brother to a little boy like you. I remember, being in the room with our mom breathing with her. She was on the bed in the hospital, and she was breathing heavy like they do before birth, and I grabbed her hand and joined her. I remember slightly when we brought you home and you were welcomed home. Sure, we may have not gotten along too well, but we had our ups and downs like brothers do. I love you a lot, and you're probably the bravest ki-teen I know. Our mom and dad have always been fighting. And it has gotten worse the past few years, and you, sis and I have different ways with dealing with it. Kristina goes in her room and goes on her phone, or she takes her car out for a ride. I go and fight both mom and dad, or cry in my bedroom. But you, you don't really show signs of hurt. You are either really brave and stick it out like a champ, or you're really good at hiding you're pain. I'm sorry mom and dad couldn't get along, just for today. You deserve better than that, you truly do. Kristina got a whole family on her 21st, I got a whole family on my 16th, and you got a broken family on your thirteenth. It breaks my heart that you couldn't get that whole family. I'm sorry, I wish I could've fought better, I wish I could've won this war between our parents, I'm sorry I lost. I don't know what you wished for when you blew out those candles, but I'll tell you what I wished for on my 16th, my 15th, my 14th, my 13th, my 12th, and my 11th. I wished for our family to be put back together. I wished for a whole family, so we could have a family, so we didn't have to suffer through our parents fight. I may not have won the war, but I will keep on fighting for you. You matter so much to me, I may not act like it, but I couldn't stand to lose you, because I love you a lot Danny. I've known you for 13 years, I've been with you in your life for your whole life. I had your back every time you got in trouble for something stupid, I taught you stuff so you could do stuff. And I care for you. I promise to you one day, we won't have to stress about our parents, because one day, they won't be in a war. I love you Danny, a lot. I wish you the best birthday, despite having it gone down hill already. I love you, happy birthday!

5:54 pm, 7/30/17