Slave For Lust

Lust Thirty One

I kept pacing back and forth. I just can't relax after getting discharged from the hospital. I still can't contact him. At ni hindi ko rin siya matyempuhan sa university. This is crazy! It's like he is avoiding me! He knew I would be looking for him at parang sinasadya niyang hindi ko siya maabutan sa mga lugar na alam kong naroon siya. He was able to skip the class na magkaklase kami. But my friends can see him. Everyone can see him but why can't I? Damn!

He loves me. He said he loves me! Right in my face! He confessed! He made me the happiest! I believed him! But why? Why is he doing this to me? Why is my happiness always short lived? Palagi na lang. Everytime na sumasaya ako, biglang bawi naman pagkatapos. Masamang tao ba ako sa past life ko? Bakit pinagkakaitan ako ng happiness?

I went to his condo but it is already up  for sale. Wala na rin ang mga gamit niya. I even cornered his friends but to my dismay, they won't tell me anything. The semester's gonna end soon and here I am, feeling loser and desperate. I will be gone for five months and I can't leave things like this. So messed up! Baka sa sobrang pag-iisip ko ay bigla na lang akong tumalon sa barko. Mahirap na. Sayang pa ang magandang lahi ko! Tsk!

"I think my head's gonna explode na. I'm overthinking things. Wala na rin akong maisip na paraan para makausap siya." I said, accepting defeat.
We are currently in the school cafeteria taking our lunch. Brit looked at me with pity in her eyes.

"Trekk won't say a thing. You know how loyal dog he is to Dela Cena. They are partners in crime, just so you know. He just said it is for the best. He's such a douche." Himutok ni Brit. My friends had seen me at my worst this past few days. Nakita nila gaano ako ka-desperada. I was like one cheap hoe na naghahabol sa lalaki. Ganern na ganern ang peg ko ngayon. What can I do? This is love,y'all!

"I badly miss my captain." I whined like a child.

"Grabe lang. He confessed to you pero pumayag maengage sa iba. Hmp!" Ellie scoffed. I understand kung bakit mainit ulo nila kay Race. But judging my man won't do any good. It would hurt me the same. Ellie might have noticed me being offended.

"Sorry,Miss pres. I didn't mean to offend pero di ba? Magulo eh. Tapos that bitch pa talaga? Gosh, I hate her kaya!"

"Tologo? Bakit? Na-meet mo na? Inano ka ba? Maka-judge you ha! She's hot kaya and her boobies? I would wish na sa akin na lang yun if natrulaley akong ma-girl! I can even imagine men swooning over her boobies!" Bry stated, oblivious how it added insecurity on my part. I eyed him like a hawk, ready to kill him anytime. Binatukan tuloy siya ni Ellie.

"Balahura ka talagang bakla ka. Yung totoo? Bakla ka ba talaga o ano? Para kang lalaki dyan na gigil sa babae! Yuck!"

"Arush! Sarry nomon, nacarried away lang! Kayo tologo! Mas bet ko pa rin si Hiraya! Friendship ko kaya!" Depensa niya at nagpeace sign pa.

Tinadyakan na siya ni Ellie this time.
"Tumahimik ka na nga lang bakla!"

Bry whimpered.
"Grabe kayo! I just want to lighten up the mood before I give you the good news. Huhubels. Ang harsh niyo talaga sa akin." Reklamo niya.

I resume eating like I am not interested what his good news would be. Kung di naman related sa captain ko, nevermind na lang. He is everything for me right now. I thought of asking my brother's help, for sure he can't say no to me but Idecided not to. I will do it my own for now. And if everything got worse, I know Hideo will be there for me.

Pero ngayon pa lang, suko na ako. Ginawa ko na lahat ng way pero di ko pa rin siya nakakausap. I am running out of time and ideas. Help me Lord please.

My heart is aching since the day I learned about his engagement. The party will be held next week but they made it public that soon for the sake of their business daw. Duh? If I know, monkey business lang ang inaalala nila! I made some research and true, they have legal business as a front para di mabuking ang illegal na gawain ng pamilya dela Cena at Donatello. The business world knew about it but they turn blind,deaf and mute about it. Maybe because they fear for their life as Race fear for mine.

Verscianna Donatello is indeed a hot babe. Pero mas hot ako.

She is pretty. But of course, I am way prettier than her.

She is smart. And I'm smarter.

They are rich.
But we are way richer! And our money comes in clean, not like her na mula sa drugs. Eww!

Okay, I sound bitter but men ahould be turned off, right? Dahil sa family background niya but syempre if same ground with her, no question at all. But Race? I know how he hates his father. Why did he even agreed in the first place? Hah! Because he was threatened by his cunning father. Yeah, I am sure of that. Hideo said it's for me. Trekk said it is for the best.

But I want to hear it from him. But how?

"Hoy Hiraya Guevarra! Back to earth please!" Brit nudged me and they were all looking at me.

"Gutay-gutay na po steak mo madam. Binotcha mo ng todo. Anyare sa'yo, Miss Pres?" Concern na tanong ng baklang si Bryan.

Napatingin ako sa plato. Kawawang pagkain. Sorry Lord, nanggigil lang po. I sighed. Malala na ata ako.

"Did you even heard what Bryan said?" Dagdag usisa ni Rhea.

"About what?" I answered clueless. Okay I admit. I did not listen at all!

"Race will be locked up in the locker room after their basketball practice. You'll be the one to open it up. The keys are with Bryan." Rhea explained.

I blinked and blinked. We--we-wait, what?!

Upon seeing how confused I was, they all chuckled.

"Kinuntsaba namin si Evans. Buti uto-uto ang hunk na yun. Kalurkey ka Miss pres, naging slow to the nth level ka ha. Epekto ba yan ng pangungulila sa jowa?!" Bryan's statement did not offend me at all. I smiled at them, wholeheartedly.

"You orchestratesld this set up for me? You guys really helped me? Gosh.. I'm so--I'm ecstatic! I so love you guys! Thank you!" Madamdamin kong pahayag with matching luha pa.

They all pretend to puke but hugged me eventually.

Ahh, they are true friends indeed.

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"What are you planning to do now?" Trekk asked, as we carefully looked at Hiraya and their friends inside the cafeteria. We are inside an empty room ngunit tanaw ang mga tao sa loob ng caf dahil na rin sa glass wall.

I put my hands inside my pocket.
"I'll cross the bridge when I get there."

"You cannot avoid her forever." Dagdag komento niya. I do appreciate the guys helped me to hide from her but it pains me everytime I see her cry. Many times I have been tempted to approach her pero biglang parang nage-echo ang boses ng tatay ko sa aking isipan.

She'll be dead once you break the deal, my boy. Remember I have a sniper who's always tailing your precious darling.

And then his evil laugh. Damnshit. I can't even do anything! I have money but not that powerful to strike beyond my father. He is a manipulative son of a bitch. Hideo told me to just follow my father para di mapahamak ang kapatid niya.

Which is what I'm doing right now.

"She'll understand soon. Then she'll--she'll get over me in time." Sadness filled the air. I can even feel a lump in my throat as I said those words.

"Is that what you really want? You love her. It sucks to say but you're inlove with her. Won't it be enough to fight for what it is worth?" Gone was the rude Trekk. Who I am with right now is a caring brother, who wishes nothing but our freedom from our own father.

"She'll be dead if I fight, Trekk. I can't risk her life. Mas gugustuhin kong ako ang mahirapan wag lang siya. She deserves to live. She deserves all the good things, brother." And as I speak of it, tears,out of nowhere, came rolling down my cheeks. Jeeez, love really hurts!

Lumamlam ang mga mata ni Trekk while looking at me. He walked to where I am standing. He tapped my shoulder.

"No. I won't let you suffer alone, bro. You too, deserve all the good things. You deserve all the happiness in the world."

And I cried even more at what he said.

I'm thankful I have a brother like him in this cruel world.