numb | fillie

headlights

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in which ~ we discover living contradictions
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millie's p.o.v.

i had to leave, i truly couldn't stay.

about an hour after finn fell asleep, i made my escape.

quietly i move finn's arm from around me. before i leave i have to have one last look at this boy. the boy who somehow made me feel again.

i turn towards finn and check that he's still asleep.

he looks so peaceful.

i crouch down and softly plant a kiss on his lips.

"goodbye finnie." i whisper to no one.

i quickly leave the van, not looking back.

i feel my eyes well up as i run. i wipe away the tears with my sleeve.

the crisp night air makes me long for the warmth of finn's arms but i know that i can't go back. it would just hurt him even more.

i run for a while until i'm far enough from the van.

i come to a stop and as i bend over panting a car slows to a stop, next to me.

"need a ride?" i hear a raspy voice ask.

turning around i see a curly haired boy, about my age in a beat up car.

"yes please." i reply, opening up the passenger door.

"i'm wyatt." the stranger says, shaking my hand.

"millie." i smile.

"where ya headed millie?"

"anywhere but here." i sigh.

"well i'm heading to a party at my buddy's place. i could drop you off somewhere in town if you'd like?" wyatt shoots me a toothy grin.

"that'd be great." i reply, returning his smile.

wyatt drives fast and recklessly into town. i hold my breath the whole way. we finally come to a stop infront of some grocery store.

"is this far enough?" he asks.

"it'll do."

wyatt laughs a nice wholesome laugh then reaches into his pocket pulling out a pen and paper. he scribbles something onto it and hands it over to me.

i take it, shoving it into my pocket and give him a confused look.

"call me if you ever need to escape, millie." he smiles.

"thanks wyatt." i reply, unsure of what he means.

i lean over and plant a kiss on his lips, feeling them get hot under mine. then i quickly get out of the car closing the door behind me.

finn's a better kisser. -stop thinking about finn.

i lean over the window; looking at wyatt who's smirking.

"have fun at your party wyatt." i say, blowing him a kiss and turning on my heels, walking away

i hear wyatt leave so i go and sit on a bench.

i decide to sleep on the bench until the sun rises, even though it's in plain view and if finn wakes up, he wouldn't have trouble finding me. secretly my heart hopes finn'll find me.

i close my eyes, wrapping my arms around myself. it's just like old times, sleeping on a bench. i try to imagine i'm somewhere safe but i just keep imagining myself in finn's arms. eventually i feel myself slip into sleep.