numb | fillie

the bathroom floor

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in which ~ we discover some secrets are meant to be hidden
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*one week later*

millie's p.o.v.

i stand in the kitchen next to caleb.

i'm fixing myself some cereal and caleb's making coffee. for the past few weeks that i've lived with finn, i've come to realize that caleb and i are the only early risers. i'm still confused as to whether or not grace and maddie live here or in the appartment next door, since they're over everyday anyways. and although maddie said we could be friends, she always seems to be in a bad mood when i'm around.

caleb and i sometimes go up to the roof and watch the sunrise together. i've become quite close with caleb. he's always in such a great mood that i think the happiness is growing on me. watching the sunrise with caleb is now a daily routine for me. i've realized that finn's an extremely heavy and late sleeper so i no longer worry about waking him up when i get up in the morning. caleb usually meets me in the hallway at dawn. sometimes he'll bring coffee. i don't think i've ever seen that boy when he's not hyper.

i think i've kind of figured out by now the relationships of this friend group. and i've come to realize that it's complicated shit. i know that caleb and sadie are great together and same with gaten and grace. noah's been kind of a mystery to me, he's out of the appartment a lot. i think he's dating that boy jack. and that leaves maddie whom always seems pissed at me for some reason.
i've met their other friends a few times and i still don't think they're worth all the hype they get. they may be the it crowd but popularity's not everything.

caleb jolts me from my thoughts.

"careful mills, your bowls about to overflow." he laughs.

"shit." i look down at the milk i'm pouring a split second too late, as it pours all over the counter top.

"fuck. i guess today's just not my day." i sigh grabbing a rag.

"lies, you know what i always say, the secret to-"

i finish his sentence that i've heard a billion times if i have once.

"-to happiness is that every morning you must decide that you're in a good mood."

he chuckles. "i've said that one already, haven't i?"

i grin back at him. "no shit sherlock."

he laughs and stirs his coffee.

i clean up the counter and grab my cereal bowl heading straight for the couch to watch t.v.

i slump down on it bending my knees to use them as a table for my bowl. grabbing the remote i flick through the channels, eventually settling on some morning show that's on daily.

i'm stuffing my face with spoonfuls of soggy captain crunch when i feel some arms wrap around my neck. curly hair tickles my forehead and i look up. finn kisses my forehead, making me smile.

i stuff some more cereal into my mouth and he goes in for another kiss. i stick my tounge out showing him my mouth full of food. he backs off from kissing me, pouting.

he slides onto the couch beside me tickling the small of my back with his hand. i giggle, swatting it away.

"shush i'm trying to watch t.v." i scold.

"of course you are." he chuckles kissing my cheek and grabbing my spoon.

"hey!" i lunge for the spoon but i'm too slow, he's already dug into my cereal.

i frown at him and he gives me thouse big brown puppy dog eyes that i can't resist. i give in, letting him finish my cereal.

"i can't stay mad at you." i snuggle into him chest, listening to his soft heartbeat.

"good morning pretty girl." he smiles kissing the top of my head and resting his chin on it.

"morning wolfhard." i beam.

about an hour passes and the entire couch is now full. sadie's beside me and caleb's beside her. gaten's next to finn and grace is on the end. noah's next to caleb and maddie's next to him.

everyone's arguing over what to watch on t.v. yet it's wasting our time yelling about stupid shit.

"i wanna watch the ellen show!"

"but spiderman's on!"

"fuck you guys, i'm putting on the news."

(that last one was sadie.)

sadie flicks the chanel to the news and everybody quiets down.

"-and in other news, an amber alert has been issued by social services. they are looking for 17 year old, millie bobby brown. last scene in-"

"shut it off." i groan.

"-she has short brown hair and-"

"i said shut it off!" i scream.

everyone looks at me, startled.

"is that her?" i hear one of them whisper.

fuck i've got to get out of here.

i hurriedly leave the couch, tears of embarrassment rolling down my cheeks. i run to the bathroom, closing the door behind myself.

i slide down the wall, tears falling fast. i bury my head in my hands.

fuck all of them. fuck fuck fuck.

my head spins and my heart pounds out of my chest.

then the door clicks open.

i squeeze my eyes shut, not wanting to look at whoever just walked in.

they slide down sitting next to me and wrap one arm around my shaking shoulders.

my heart melts with gratitude when i look up and see the worry in finn's eyes.

"hey....hey it's alright mills. no one'll turn you in." he uses his thumbs to wipe away the tears dotting my cheeks.

he brushes back my hair kissing my forehead.

"we won't let 'em get you, pretty girl. not on my watch." he whispers.

god i love him. -shut the fuck up millie, too fast.

i bury my head in his chest, letting his soft brething calm me.

"why me?" i breath.

"huh?" finn asks, lifting his head.

"why'd you chose me? there's tons of girls who'd love you and who are so much prettier than me. so why me?" i look down at my knees.

he takes a second to think before answering.

"plenty of people are good looking but that doesn't make them interesting or intriguing or cool. but you, you're good looking, all of those things and more. " finn smiles at me. "i like you a lot millie, probably a little too much but hey, you're worth the risk."

i feel my cheeks get redder then they already are.
finn smiles and ugh, it's annoying how handsome he is.

"you're so sweet you're giving me a toothache." i smile. "i like you a lot too." i look up kissing him.

my face is still stiff from the dry tears.

finn and i sit there on the bathroom floor, our backs against the cold wall. an hour or maybe more goes by but neither of us dare to move. it's as if we're scared that if we move the perfection of this moment will melt away like snow in summer. so we sit the in sweet, sweet silence. smiles permanently plastered on our faces.

and for now, right here in this very moment, i feel absolute earthly bliss.

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a/n:

2 updates in one day!

wow ok so now there's 4 chapters left of numb. :)

thanks for reading,
-georgia