numb | fillie

the roof's edge

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in which ~ we discover someone's feelings
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millie's p.o.v.

i'm walking down the hallway slowly, dragging my feet. i turn around to see if finn's following me and i find myself disappointed to see he's not.

as i walk down the hall my mind wanders. my eyes land on a soft looking welcome mat in front of a door.

--finn's hair is soft.-- shut up millie.

i spot an apartment door that's painted brown instead of grey, like the others.

--finn's eyes are brown.-- seriously millie, stop it. you don't have time for guys right now. you can't keep making false promises.

--i can still feel the soft texture of finn's curly hair on my fingers; his hot breath on my neck.--

i could see myself falling in love with him and i'm not making a mistake like that again.
for once i thought maybe, just maybe i'd be good enough for one guy. but now that i've seen finn's friends and his apartment, i know that it was a mistake going with him today.

finally, i reach the door out of the apartment, i push it open and step outside.
my first realization is that it stopped raining, the sun is now beating down on my face, making me feel warm.
my second realization is that i can see him. finn. he's sitting in his van with his head in his hands; his leg shaking heavily.

shit. what do i do? think millie, think.

what i chose to do next, changed my live forever.

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finn's p.o.v.

after millie left, i had to go somewhere to think. her presence made my heart race and i needed to calm down and clear my head, so i went to the one place i could think of; my van.

i hurried out the back exit of the apartment, out into the hot outdoors.
i quickly hop in the van shutting the door, not even bothering to lock it.

i place my head in my hands, closing my eyes, and start to think.

i think of millie. meeting her this morning, the gun, the deal, her eyes filled with wonder, the car ride to the apartment, her arm, her ability to make me weak to my-- stop it finn.

i try and think of anything but her, yet my mind always seems to wander back.

--the way she listens to someone, as if she's truly interested and the way her short hair bounces as she walks. the way she looked in my hoodie and sweatpants or the way she looks at the sky.-- stop finn, seriously.

millie, millie, millie, is all my brain wants to think about. dammit finn, you're whipped for a girl you've only met .

my leg begins to shake, as it usually does when i'm anxious.
i run my fingers through my hair.
what do i do now?

i hear the door to the apartment complex open and close so i glance up.

what happened next, changed my life forever.

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caleb's p.o.v.

"-and then jaeden told me that jack was having a party tonight, you in?"

"hellooo, earth to caleb?"

gaten's voice jerks me awake. he doubles over laughing.

"we're you asleep?" he says between laughs.

"sorry, i sorta dozed off." i reply, rubbing my eyes.

"too many late nights with sadie?" gaten asks, proceeding to roll over in his laughing fit.

"ha-ha. very funny. you and i both know sadie wants to wait till marriage."

"oh yeah, right." gaten says, taking a puff of his joint.
he turns over to me and blows it in my face.

"h-hey!" i say between coughs. "i don't know how you can do that." i point at the joint in his shaking hand.

he looks up at the sky. then back over at me.

"bad habits are the hardest to quit." he replies, looking back up at the sky.

we're sitting on the roof of the apartment complex in a couple of beat up lawn chairs we found. at night, this is the best view of the sunset but even still, during the day it's a beautiful sight.

"so how are things with you and grace?" i ask, looking over at him.

"good, i guess." he answers not facing me. "how are you and sadie?"

my pulse quickens at the sound of her name.
"i-i think i love her." i blurt out, so quiet you can barely hear. stupid word vomit.

gaten turns to me; eyes wide.

"what?" he questions.

"i think i'm in love with sadie sink." i answer, more confidently.

gaten pats my on the back.

"wow man, that's great, what does love feel like?" he asks.

"i-it's like, i wake up every day and feel overjoyed to see her next to me. i want to shout out that i love her to the whole world, so that they know she's mine-"

he cuts me off, "-then do it."

i must've heard him wrong, "what?"

"do it, right now, stand up on that ledge and shout out to the world that you love her."

hesitantly i stand up and walk over to the ledge of the roof.
carefully i step onto it.
i look down.
the ground and the cars and the people below, all going on with their own lives. then i look up at the sky and shout.

"i-i caleb mclaughlin, am i-in love with the amazing sadie sink."

"louder!" gaten shouts back at me.
"say it like you mean it."

"i'm in love with sadie sink!" i shout, so loudly that some birds fly off the roof.

as soon as those words leave my mouth i feel two arms wrap around my waist, pulling me back from the ledge. the arms spin me around.
sadie presses her lips to mine and my body sparks with warmth. she removes her arms from my waist and places them around my neck.
i slide my arms around her waist pulling her closer to me and engulfing myself in her scent.
she stands on her tippy toes and whispers with her hot breath, into my ear, "i love you too. "
i bend down and kiss her roughly. i feel her smile into the kiss which makes me grin from ear to ear.

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a/n:
i don't really like this chapter but i had writers block so... i wonder what millie chose to do..?
thanks for reading :)
- georgia