Wishing

Chapter 10 - Broken

Calum's P.O.V.

I was dozing off when my phone went off, making me jump. I looked to the clock to see it was 1pm. I rubbed my eyes and answered my phone.

"Yeah?" I said in a groggy voice. 

"Hey." Luke replied.

"Oh hey Luke, what's up?" I asked, getting up off my bed.

"I can't make it to band practice today, I have to go to my Aunt's birthday party or something like that." 

"Oh yeah that's alright, don't worry mate." I said, I was kinda disappointed though, practice was never really the same without Luke. 

"Thanks. Hey can I tell you something?" Luke asked.

"Anything, mate." I replied. 

"So Maia and I, last night we- um" He began. 

"You what?" I asked, furrowing my brow and my heart pumping. 

"We had sex." He said, happily. My heart dropped.

"You- you did?" I said.

"Yeah, and I'm honestly so happy. I love her, bro." He said, I could tell he was smiling behind the phone.

"That's uh- that's great. I'm happy for you." I said, my eyes closing. 

"Thanks Calum. Anyways I gotta go now, I'll talk to you soon. Love you mate!" 

"Yeah, love you too, bye." I hung up the phone. I put my face in my hands. 

"She's taken Calum." I said to myself.

I just wish I could be the one to be with her. If you couldn't tell, I'm pretty in love with Alannah. Ever since the first day she came here, I thought she was the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen. With her cute little converse and band tees. But, she liked Luke from the start so I'd never have a chance with her. The fact that Luke and her now had taken the next step, crushed me. All I want is to be with her. I can't ever tell anyone this, it could ruin my friendship with Luke. I guess I just need to forget about her.

All of the sudden the doorbell rang.

"Must be the lads." I whispered to myself. I went down the stairs and opened the door. It was Michael and Ashton.

"Hey guys." I smiled, they let themselves in. 

"Hi Cal." Michael said, patting my back. We headed downstairs, we kept our instruments down in my basement most of the time. Once we got to the basement the boys began to look around.

"Where's Luke?" Ashton questioned.

"He was busy today." I replied, "and yesterday..." I said under my breath.

"What do you mean and yesterday? Did something happen?" Michael asked. 

"Nothing." I shot back, a little too harshly.

"Dude." Michael said, taken aback a bit.

"Sorry, I just found something out." I said, shifting my feet. 

"You're scaring me mate, what is it?" Ashton said, his eyebrows furrowed.

"Alannah and Luke they- um- they had sex last night." I said, adjusting my snapback. Michael's jaw dropped and Ashtons eyes widened.

"Already?" Michael called out. I nodded.

"Well I mean, they do love each other." Ashton added. 

"Yeah true, well I'm happy for Luke, he found a great girl." Michael said, sitting on the couch.

"Better than fucking Rachel." Ashton laughed and Michael joined in. I looked down at my feet. 

"Calum?" Ashton said. I looked up slowly.

"Mhmm?" I asked.

"What's up with you today? Ever since we started talking about Luke and Alannah you-" Ashton cut himself off. 

"Oh no." He said. He looked to Michael who had the same look on his face.

"What?" I said. Shit, I'm being way too obvious, dammit. 

"You like Alannah don't you?!" Michael accused. I didn't say anything. Should I tell them? I looked at them back and forth before nodding, and placing my face in my hands. I looked back up.

"Please don't tell Luke. Please just keep it a secret." I pleaded. 

"Don't worry bro okay? You can trust us." Michael said, sending me a reassuring smile.

"I'm so dumb for liking her, but I just do." I shook my head.

"It's not your fault, you can't control your feelings." Ashton chimed in. I nodded.

"Do you wanna invite her over? You can see where she's at with the whole Luke thing?" Michael asked me. 

"Yeah, I do." I pulled out my phone and dialed her number.