Honey (Book 1)

Chapter 7

 It's finally Friday and I am terrified. 

I keep noticing really strange things the Cullen's do and as much as I know I shouldn't, I just ignore the things the best I can. 

For example, before class yesterday we were standing by their cars, Alice and I were leaning sideways on the Jeep talking and Jasper was an arms length from her. I was watching Emmett, Rose and Edward subtly from the corner of my eye, like Jasper but he wasn't subtle. Emmett and Edward were arguing and Emmett was getting angry at his brother for upsetting Rosalie- I couldn't hear them but just seeing Rose upset got to me, I wanted to rip his head off. 

Edward said one word and had Rose launching herself at Edward but before she could do any damage Emmett and Jasper were in between them, lightning fast. Emmett's arms around Rose and Jasper shoved Edweirdo a little roughly and he bumped the car.

The weird thing?

There was a nice sized dent in his Volvo that hadn't been there before, even if Jasper pushed Edward hard it shouldn't have dented the car. Noticing what happened, they seemed to panic not so subtly but I pretended to not notice any of it and turned to pretend rummage in my bag. For some reason I thought it was for the best, seeing the way they reacted at what happened and me being right here. 

The rest of the day was strange. It was just Alice and Jasper since the other group ditched school, needing to 'sort something out'. They seemed to be trying to distract me all day from what happened before class. Alice made sure to remind me about our plans over and over. 

Jasper told her to chill numerous times and she'd give him her best death glare and it was the cutest little thing, Jasper thought so too. Alice didn't agree.

Anyhoo, I haven't seen the rest of the Cullen's today except for Rose in art. She told me her family had something to do but to still come over tonight. If it was anyone else I would have made up an excuse to stay home but it was Rosalie. The swirl of color in her eyes and her brilliantly white teeth that were showed off in her smile hypnotized me so I could only nod my head dumbly. 

Her smirk made me turn bright red as I realized she knew what she was doing to me. Now though, it was lunch and I felt lost. 

My friends aren't here and I don't know if I could sit all through lunch at the same table as Lauren. Before I could just give up and take my chips to my truck, Eric caught my elbow by the door. "Where are you going?" he chuckled. 

"Just-"

"Sit with us." He cut me off and dragged me toward his table. 

"Arizona!" Mike shouted happily, bringing all eyes on me. 

"Hey," I waved, clearly he ignored what I said about my name. Lauren leaned over and whispered something in Jessica's ear. I just rolled my eyes. 

"It's good to see you again." Angela said- the only genuine person like ever- leaned in for a short hug as I sat next to her. "You too. How's life going?" I respond. "Good, yours?" she smiled.  I just nodded with a smile. 

"So Bella," Jessica started and just the way she said my name made me cringe, knowing what she was gonna say next. "The Cullen's aren't here?" I just gave her blank look.

"I think they just got sick of her." Lauren 'whispered' again, this time to Tyler who shook his head. 

"Maybe." I shrugged, throwing her off. I smiled as her smile wavered. After that things kind of got awkward and no one spoke for a moment. 

I'd much rather be with the Cullen's. I kinda missed them. Without meaning to, I glanced over at the empty table. 

Why do I feel like this? I feel like my stomach is twisting in knots and my heart pounds in my chest. I didn't like it, I know it was wrong to feel this for someone who isn't single and for someone I just met but it's strong and overwhelming. 

I'm dizzy with emotion for a minute.

"You okay?" Angela nudged me lightly. Nodding, I stood then and the bell rang, saving me. Two more classes. All should be well by then.

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Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.

I'm a horrible human being. I am a disgrace. Someone needs to lock me away in a tower. Or slap me around for a few minutes. 

As I drove down the long, narrow drive towards the Cullen home the feeling in my stomach worsened but this time it was different.  It twist and turned and I couldn't hold back my excitement to see my new found friends. Mostly one. 

I felt so guilty.

I feel awful being away from her but now I had butterflies, waiting to see her. It made me feel bad and then a painful churn would roll around with the butterflies- it's torture. I don't want to admit it but all I want to do is barrel through their front door and hug the life out of Rose and talk to all of them all night.

It's almost like I need to. It hurts.

I don't understand why because I've never been the friend to go to other peoples houses, mostly they'd come over to mine. Even so, I never really had friends that I wanted to spend so much time with. It's even weirder because I met them not even a week ago.  And now all of a sudden, all I want to do is spend as much time with all the Cullen's, including the parents.

Maybe I'm sick. I should ask Carlisle.

Jumping out of the truck, I walk towards the front door with my overnight bag over my shoulder.  I lift my fist knock, but someone opens the door before.

The bright blonde hair and warm smile knocked my breath away for a moment as I was greeted by the doctor. "Isabella, it's so nice to see you." Carlisle extended a hand for me to shake and after I did, he moved away from the door and let me. 

The feeling of pain melting away.

"To you as well, Dr. Cullen and you can just call me Bella." I said smiling. 

"As long as you call me Carlisle." He bargained and I nodded, both of us chuckling. 

Emmett was walking past casually, then saw me and sprung. 

"Bella-Bear!" He spun me around in the tightest hug. "Em.." I choked out.

"Oh, sorry." He put me down quickly, after almost squeezing the life out of me, but it was almost to quick and I would have fallen if Dr. Cullen hadn't caught me. 

"Emmett." He said sternly but wasn't angry.

"Let's go see Rose." Barely acknowledging his father, he grabbed my bag in one hand and in the other he grabbed my wrist, almost actually dragging me up the stairs. Coming to a door, he opened it after dropping my bag my the door and strolled in. I stand there as I finally see her.