I was standing in front of the men, which I was carrying a child from. He didn’t say a word. I put up a hand to his cheek and whipped it softly. “Say something, please”, I pleaded. He looked over my head and than back to me. “Ähm ... That’s f-fine ... I guess.” I was unsure of what to say to that. He was running his hand through his hair nervously.
“Bell, I just told you that I am pregnant with your child! And you’re not going to say anything, but that you thing it’s fine?!” I almost started yelling at him. How could he dare to say that? The anger was starting to consume my body. “Clarke, look, I’m there for you. I will be there for our child. But it’s much for me to take right now.” That made me even angrier. “It’s much to take for me, too.” Bellamy nodded, staying quiet until Miller called for him to look at a hole in the wall. I stayed quiet, too. Looking at the men, I loved, I suddenly wasn’t so sure if we could be parents for this little beanie growing inside of me. “I have to go. I’ll see you later.” He kissed me gently on the forehead and then turned to leave.
I stood there and the tears started welling up in my eyes. I couldn’t move. I saw people walking by, looking at me. Some seemed worried, other seemed like they didn’t even care. After some time, I finally had gathered enough strength to move. I walked slowly, not knowing where to go.
I couldn’t go to my mother. She would be happy, but I didn’t need a happy person right now. I could go to Jackson to do another test. Just to be sure. But that wouldn't change anything about Bellamy and his reaction. I felt so tired now, as if him being so distant, had taken away all my energy.
Than all of a sudden, Octavia showed up in front of me, hugging me tightly and smiling the widest. “I am so happy, just heard from Jackson.” I was confused. “I told him not to tell anyone.” Octavia looked at me and smirked. “Your mother saw your file, asked him why you were at med bay and then he told her. I was in med bay to get the check up of the wound, I got yesterday”, she was holding her arm up, which was bandaged. “I heard what he said and decided to look for the happy parents to be.” Then she realised that I wasn’t happy at all. “Why are you not glowing and smiling? And where is my brother? Did you tell him yet?” I nodded slowly. “Yeah, I told him”, I muttered. “And how did he take it?” Octavia was leading me to a table with two chairs. “Sit down and tell me everything.” She was so happy, but now she seemed to worry, too. I told her everything that had happened, from me knowing that I was pregnant to Bellamy being a jerk.
In response, Octavia hugged me tightly and said that I shouldn’t be worried. “I know my brother, give him some time and everything will be fine. This is just not how he planed having a child. He always wanted to have a home big enough, be married and than to plan a pregnancy, that's all.” I wasn’t convinced, but nodded and tried to smile. I would be having a child. Who would have imagined this happening anytime soon?
