Desperate

Chapter 28

Apparently Wes wasn't kidding when he said he wanted me to move in with him. We've been back in Cali for about three days and he's been on this kick about moving in together since we landed. Today's the day we tell the fandom about us being married on tv so I'm just under a lot of stress right now.

"Do I look okay?" I asked Drew as we waited backstage to be called on for the interview.

"You look fine." He said for the third time.

"Where's Wes?" I asked ready to start hyperventilating.

"He's getting his mic on. Will you relax Brianna?" He laughed bumping my hip with his.

"I'm just really nervous about this, and Wes has been on me to move in together and I just don't know if I'm ready or that step." I said honestly. "My parents fought all the time when I was a kid so I've never seen a functioning relationship so I'm scared to death I'm gonna screw this up."

"Wes loves you to death so you have nothing to worry about." He said confidently.

"Emblem3!" The lady on stage called loudly welcoming us to the stage.

Drew nodded and we all walked forward. Keaton sat down on the couch and Drew sat next to him. Then I felt myself be pulled by my waist into Wes's lap as he sat under me next to Drew. The audience laughed and I blushed I'm sure.

"It's great to see you all here." She smiled. "And who's this gorgeous young lady?"

"It's great to be here!" Drew laughed. "And I'll let Wes tell you about all this." He gestured to me.

"This is Brianna, and for those of you who don't know we'd been dating awhile." He hugged me tightly around the waist in his lap. "And we actually recently took a big step together."

"Oh do I sense so co-existing?" The woman asked.

"Wes's been working on that but actually it's a little bigger than that." I said.

"We actually got married." Wes blurted.

Everyone got really quiet. A few people clapped and some chuckled like it was a joke. I just squirmed in Wes's lap and he held on to me. "Well that is defiantly a big step. So how's the married life treating you?" She asked moving on.

"I couldn't be happier." Wes said and I could hear the smile on his voice.

"Same here, Wes is amazing." I smiled.

"You aren't living together though?" She asked.

"Not yet. We need to get somethings sorted out first." I answered.

"How about the rest of you boys?" She asked moving the limelight on to Drew and Keaton.

"Mia and I are still going strong." Keaton smiled happily.

"And I'm dating my best friend Shayla." Drew answered.

"Well lets move on and talk about music! You have a new album and a new single that's topping the charts?" She looked to the boys.

The rest of the interview went in the direction of music, so I just sat in Wes's lap and nodded along smiling or laughing every now and then. After it was over we walked slowly backstage. Wes grabbed my hand and tugged me to his dressing room separate from the others.

"Why won't you move in with me?" He said looking sad.

"Wes I just don't think I'm ready." I sighed.

"Ready for what? It's just moving in together. It's not like I want you to donate a kidney." He threw his arms up. A gesture I recognize well, because its what people do when they fight. Something I'm very familiar with.

"I just don't want to screw up what we have." I said trying to control the quiver in my voice.

"Brianna, we're fucking married! I want to be with you every single minute of the day and I just don't understand why you won't take this step with me. I know we're doing this all out of order but I really want this!" He shouted.

I could've cried just because he was yelling at me. I just want to make him happy but I don't want to fight. If we're fighting now how would it work if we lived together? "I can't do this." I sighed turning for the door.

Wes grabbed my wrist and pulled me to a stop. "You're not going to walk away from me." He snapped. "What can't you do?"

"This!" I yelled jerking my arm from him. "I won't stand here and let you yell at me Wes. I won't be told what to do and I sure as hell won't be pulled around."

"Brianna I'm not yelling!" He yelled.

"Then what do you call this!" I shouted.

He looked at me and his eyes filled with regret. "I'm so sorry."

"Yeah, me too." I shook my head still pissed off. "I'm going home so just leave me alone for awhile."

"Baby please don't walk away." He said pleading with me.

"I just don't know what you want from me." I said standing half in the door and out the door.

"I just want you to do what's going to make you happy." He said.

I stared at him and smiled when my heart melted at the look in his eyes. "You make me happy Wesley."

"I'm sorry I pushed you and I'm sorry I yelled." He said coming and taking me into a tight hug.

"I can't fight with you, because it just breaks my heart." I said.

"Then lets not fight. I love you."

"I love you too." I sighed.