Constellations - |reylo|

Chapter 2

Reys p.o.v.

Why in makers name would she say that? of all people in the galaxy. How are we supposed to single handedly save the galaxy?

Hasn't this been tried before, no matter who it is the galaxy is incapable of being saved, brought to redemption if you will. There will always be light and dark, someone to question whether what they believe in is right or wrong.

And i love leia but giving me the task of tracking down her grown son and dragging him home is ridiculous, preposterous even. I did not sign up to babysit. I can't do this, i dont want to do this. what am I supposed to do march up to him and drag him by the ear back home, I don't think so...

"I know it sounds crazy rey, but he won't come home if I try to do it. He'll be more likely to come back if someone um similar came and convinced him" she flashed me a half smile and shrugged.

Why should I though, what will I get out of this, he honestly doesn't deserve this he should stay and rot alone on whatever forsaken planet he's stuck on. Come on rey your almost a Jedi you can't be thinking like that. right right because now that i am in training im officially a jedi yeah sure ok

I look over at the boys, I just came back to them I can't leave them now, they need me i need them.

but do they really need you ?

i shake my head trying to get rid of that still small voice,

im getting aggravated this isnt what i was made for, i admit i do feel a pull to him, but thats beside the point, i will not be the one to go to him. If he wants to return then he will do what he pleases. i should be back at the base helping to protect them not going to convince ben to come back, but how could I, kylo said it himself he killed ben solo. but something in me doesn't quite believe that.

i heave a sigh and like a child i give in anger hinting in my voice, being too dramatic than the situation required.

" leia, I will go back to the base with you but I can't possibly make a decision right away, there's just so many things that could wrong." I look her in the eyes, guilt flooding through me at my decision.

she stood tall and gave me a sincere smile "of course rey, I would never pressure you into something if you felt doubt in yourself"

I took a step back a bit taken back by that, i didn't doubt myself i just, well maybe i did doubt myself but that doesn't matter right now.

She let go and turned to the boys" alright everyone let's get rey home"
She turned to me smiling ear to ear.

I cant believe shes asking me to do this

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The ride on the ship lasted for about 5 hours, I hadn't even realized the base was so close to ach-to. I flew most of the way so it let the others get some rest,

i couldn't stop thinking about all the things that could go wrong, all the emotions that wouldn't stop blaring in my ears, how much trust leia is putting in me, but how i could let her down, i couldn't bare to come back if i knew she would be disappointed in me.

The thoughts were blaring and i thought at this point it wouldn't be safe to be flying the ship, I looked to finn and asked him to be the pilot so i could take a break, bad mistake.

The ship shook and hit everything in its path, it earned groans and questions, and awakened a few still very asleep passengers

"Sorry guys I'm not really used to this kind of ship" Finn whispered sheepishly.

"Yeah well you're not used to any kind of ship " Poe grumbled mid yawn

I had to stifle a chuckle, to try to help Finn keep some of his pride.

"Well everyone it seems we've arrived" luke grumbled rubbing his eyes from just waking up.

the base was just how i remembered it, except for the eerie silence in the air, fog gripping to the ground and trees on the horizon and as we step off the ship we are the only ones outside making the lack of living presence even more noticeable.

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The walk to our rooms was quiet and awkward, once we all settled in to our separate rooms Leia followed me into my own, she flicked the light on looking around at my room, she sat carefully onto my bed, and smiled as she took in my room

she turned to me with a sigh "I'm so glad you're home rey, I hope you get rest and think about, please. you dont know how much this truly means to me, how much it would have meant to han. " she ended her plead with a whisper, tears brimming her eyes.

i sigh and grab her hand, giving her a tight smile showing i would do my best, she smiled and stood looking around once more only to turn towards the door closing it softly,leaving me to my own thoughts.

I put my head in my hands and sighed what was I going to do? how long can i hold onto this, making everything around me better, helping others, hiding what i feel only for them.

what is the outcome im searching for, what kind of satisfaction am i hoping to find? when am i ever going to find peace in this chaotic galaxy of mine.

So before I start I just want to say the chapters will be longer and more interesting after this one, the first 2 were just to start it off so I can get straight to all the reylo action
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Thanks for reading may dudes
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