Rey's P.O.V.
We sat in leias office patiently while she was getting off the phone, I noticed the few pictures she had of ben and Han at younger ages framed neatly across her desk, close by were cluttered papers, probably for work, everywhere all over her desk chairs, her office was a mess.
She turned to us and took a seat placing a hand on her forehead and huffed.
"Sorry about this i just was so busy this Morning and I completely forgot to clean in here" She half smiled
"It's fine leia, so what is it you wanted to talk about?" I asked out of genuine curiosity
"Well rey I actually wanted to inform you that there might have been a spotting of your parents back on jakku-"
" well mother thats not possible her parents are-"
I squealed, my parents is this real?!
I looked at ben and grabbed his arm smiling like a mad woman
"Did you hear that Benny my parents there could still be hope I could be with my family again"
He gave me a sad smile " that's great rey" he whispered
I frowned " what what is it?" I let out a nervous chuckle
He shook his head and turned back to leia" ahem anyway mother please continue"
"Well um ben your uncle would like you to start training with him resuming where you left off"
Ben lifted an eyebrow in confusion letting a small hum out to make her continue
" well just to be on the safe side ben, were just trying to make sure you don't fall back to the dark side, it's not that we don't trust you ben we just want to be on the safe side" she said sheepishly
"What so i don't have a say in this" he said raising his voice " what if I don't what to be on the light why would I be somewhere where I'm not appreciated?" He spoke through gritted teeth starting to stand
I pulled on his arm to sit him back down " ben stop" I hissed
He yanked away from me and glowered at me, I noticed his eyes starting turning black and he slammed his hands on the desk,
" now your turn to listen mother" he spat venom laced in his voice " I will do as I please even if it means hurting others to keep the order" he screamed
This isn't him h-how do I stop this, I grab his face and look him in the eyes
"Ben please stop this isn't you "
He jerked his face away
"Don't Touch me scavenger" he spit
My vision started to go blurry as I recalled the night of the interrogation room, the day Han Solo was killed, the day I met Kylo ren. My anxiety was rising and I couldn't breathe. I began going in autopilot,I looked back at the ben with blurry eyes while leia held my arms trying to calm me down, I shook my head
"I have to go please i can't stay here I need to go" I sobbed I tried to shake her off
Leia grabbed my shoulders and held me tight to her my vision blurring black spots dotting the room
I opened my eyes to find I was no longer in the office a feeling of hollowness flowed through me and my anxiety washed away,
I dug my feet into the shaggy grey carpet and looked around trying to remember this place.
The walls were picture perfect the room was lined with pictures of the solos and treasures decked the walls on wooden shelves
A young ben ran into the room dismissing my presence only caring for the two adults running behind him
He giggled wildly and pointed a toy blaster at Leia and Han
"Pew pew, you're dead daddy" he giggled pointing the gun at Han
Han chuckled and fell to the floor dramatically "oh no Benny I'm dead"
Leia chuckled and stalked towards ben
I smile but feel a deep sadness rise in me distracting me from the scene unfolding in front of me
She grasps ben up off the floor and snatches the toy from his hand
"Hands up scavenger" Leia chuckled pointing the gun at Ben
A confused look took over his face and his mood changed to complete fear
a single tear fell down his cheek and he tried to laugh it off
Leia threw the toy down and wiped his cheek
"What's wrong Benny" she whispers to him sitting him on the pleather sofa
Han gets up from the ground and hovers over them ready to take charge
"Mommy would you ever hurt me " he whispered
Leia sat next to him and held him close Han close by her an arm slung over her shoulder
"Of course not ben, would you ever hurt me?"
He giggled as if she had asked the most preposterous thing
"No mommy I would never hurt you"
I blink my eyes and looked into Leia's sad eyes, I shook my head at her
I looked at ben once more and noticed him shaking his head as he opened his eyes groggily the darkness fading from his eyes, turning them back to the dark brown eyes I remembered.
"Please please let me go" I whispered to leia
Ben took a wary step towards reaching out to me
Monster my brain cried out
"Rey please I'm so sorry" he stuttered
He's a monster rey run, run! My mind screamed
I tore away from leia and ran away, away from him, my problems, everything. All while I heard his sweet sad voice call out for me, but I didn't listen I just couldn't, I couldn't bare it any longer.
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I sat against my old at-at looking up at the clear jakku sky. I sighed, how could I let it get this far, how did I end up back here on this forsaken planet? All I remember was the screaming that's all I remember, no trace of how I got here. I don't regret it but I wish I was back at the base laying in bens arms, a promise no harm would come to me. But not that monster kylo ren, all he brought was pain to me to everyone.
I don't think it was entirely his fault there must be an explanation to why this happened but how, why him why now?
I knew my parents were gone I could feel the emptiness in my heart, the spot they were supposed to fill, but it's empty, bare of their love. I don't think leia lied I just think it might have been a mistake a misunderstanding. We all make mistakes don't we, huh, all my life has been a mistake, I was so caught up in being happy I denied with all my might that they were gone, of course they're gone.
I don't blame them for my mistake of staying on this planet for as long as I have, I'm just ashamed I haven't realized that I already had a family waiting for me back at the base, but a little bit of me is still hoping that someone will come back for me.
I lean my head back and look up at the stars in the clear sky, trying to distract myself by finding different constellations, all those constellations in the sky and I can't seem to keep my mind on them.
"I wish you were here mom" I whispered to the stars hoping someone somewhere would hear me.
A.N.
A bit of a short chapter I hope it explains a little more of the last chapter, I hope you enjoyed it😊
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