Constellations - |reylo|

chapter 17

The atmosphere on the ship is stuffy and quiet, the dim lights flicker on and off while the pilots try their best to stay awake long enough to get into the bases atmosphere. The monster, he stands guard at the foot of his scavengers bed mumbling silent curses to himself.

All is quiet except for the loud voices blaring through each of their minds, different stances yet still fearful of the same thing. Fearful of what is to come of what they will have to do what she will have to do, the pilot hardly knowing the scavenger but still worried, he has no idea what happened to her but he knows the worry of the traitor and his mind drifts to him and how is he is dealing with this, how everyone will deal with this how the traitor only seems to care for the scavenger, never caring for the resistance, or the people around or even himself.

She isnt weak, but she isn't strong, she will not stand for pity, people walking on eggshells around her treating her like a fragile child that could shatter in  pieces at any moment, but she can hardly think, she is lost in a loophole of thoughts a blank mind that screams at her because of her defeat. She wants to help, she doesn't want the attention, maker knows how long it will take for her to recover, probably never, the pain will always reside with her no matter how hard she tries to make it go away. Memories flood her mind leaving her to never have peace, to feel and relive every moment in the past she has tried to push down

But she will try her best to stay strong and rekindle relationships with others she has lost trust in because of the actions of one man.

The traitor is lost his mind so anxious he has shut down, forgotten everything he stands for, everything but her. He ridicules himself for his late timing, he should have intervened before she left, he should have forced her to stay and leave the monster to die. He should have never left the first order, never had been born. He shakes his head clearing it of dangerous thoughts as he continues to stare into the depths of space.

And finally the protector, the monster, all the demons he deals with have silenced in shock of a new powerful entity that has taken over his mind. Her fate, her safety. They need to fix her and ensure no one will ever harm her like this again. There shouldn't have been a first time, he dwindles in his insecurities he wishes kylo ren would have never been born, that his master would have not given up on him, that the galaxy was at peace that the first order had never existed, that his parents would have loved him as much as he loved them

He wished he could have taken all her pain away, lock it in himself to keep her safe, pure, and happy. But he couldn't it would destroy him, his pain would destroy others, planets galaxies, peace groups, violence groups would quiver under his reign, but he couldn't do that to her. so he will hold her hand through it all and try his best to keep her  away from the rest of the evil in the galaxy, including himself.

The general felt the two lovers pain and all her pain, her brothers pain, it weighed on her, everyone counted on her and she had no strength left for any of it, she wanted to release it all, the pain of failure of her husband gone, the disappointment  her son had for her, the love she had for him, they needed her but she wanted them to survive without her and that's what she did, she breathed in deep, craned her neck and saw the face of her husband on her night stand, she layed down and with a sad smile released herself of her pain...

A.N

heyyo, this was a filler kind of but i hoped you liked it, will everyone let themselves go and die or will the story continue on? muahahahah, yeah no ill post on saturday a nice lengthy chapter and all will become better (hopefully)

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