Refusing Love

24. Not holding back

Julian's POV

I saw everyone. My family, friends, not that I was complaining or anything. It was nice to see them but the only person that I really did want to see never came to see me.

The first day I woke up, my head was achin immensly. I fell asleep after two or so hours. I tried to stay awake as much as I could but I just couldn't. My body was too tired.

The fourth night I couldn't sleep. I took the time to think about Charlie. Now I knew everything. Going back, I understood why was Charlie always so carefull around me. Why she was always so mean and angry all the time. I knew now why she had so many walls up.

In a way I was like Jonathan. A bad boy with lots of girls chassing us but none of them meaning anything. They were all just fun and not to keep me bored. Yes, I liked the attention but I always knew it wasn't who I really was. I just went with the flow and never bothered saying no to none of them.

But then along came Charlie. I never saw her coming. Now I can't stop thinking about her. I had to see her at any cost. I wanted to know why she never came?

She works here so it's not much of a trouble. I was convinced she would never not want to see me. We have a connection whether she liked it or not. Why didn't she come to see me?

Unless she was stopped by someone. Or maybe she blamed herself about what happened to me.

It must be the second.

Before sleep finally caught up to me, I had decided to tell Charlie about my feelings.

The next day both Caroline and Brad came to visit me. This was my chance to find out something about Charlie.

"Why are you only two? You're supposed to be three!" I sulked leaning backwards with my arms folded like a little kid. I couldn't help my dissapointment.

"Nice to see you too, dear friend!" Brad smiled widely as they neared my bed.

"Aw, missing someone?"Caroline made a pair of puppy eyes. I rolled my eyes then sighed.

"Seriously, where is she?" I asked.

They both exchanged looks. None of them spoke which made me mad. What the hell was going on?

"What's wrong?" I asked grabbing a fistfull of my blanket.

"She just doesn't want to see you!" Brad shrugged his shoulders. I couldn't believe something like that. My brain couldn't process it.

"What do you mean by that?"

"We got into an argument yesterday because she refused to come and see you. Ever since then, she hasn't been talking to us properly!" Caroline explained obviosuly feeling hurt.

"I don't understand!"

"Neither do we. You know how stubborn she is when she sets her mind at something. She's ignoring me so I can't talk much sense to her. Caroline tried to talk but she changed the subject!" Brad was too very hurt by Charlie's actions. There was something wrong. I could feel it in my gut.

"Well, I am even more stubborn. If she doesn't want to see me then she won't. I'm gonna need my phone." I told them. They both chuckled.

"Mason has got it on lock. You know that!" Brad shrugged.

I knew it very well but I had to try asking them. I needed my phone more then ever.

"Damn it!" I cursed rubbing my chin and taking a minute to think. I wanted a rational explanation for Charlie's behavior. If I wasn't going to see her soon then I at least had to hear her voice.