Holding On For Him ~ GD

Chapter 17~ You Make Me Feel Better

"You okay?" He asks gently.

He knows I don't like talking about my problems. But he asks anyway, I know that it will make me feel better but I just hate talking about it.

"Mm.. It's just about the day at the peer, it's oka-I'm fine."

He pulls the car over outside my house. He walks around and picks me up, I wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He holds my hips tightly then walks to the front door. I look into his eyes admiring the hazel, the glimpse of happiness, love and hope. I begin to feel a deep burning for those things, the sweet taste of his happiness. I remember when I didn't know what this sadness felt like, what it was like to not feel lonely whenever I was alone. But everytime Grayson leaves or Ethan leaves I feel like I don't need to hide my sadness. When they're with me I don't remember I'm sad, the bad thoughts leave and I smile and laugh but the second they leave I feel the bad thoughts come back. It happens every time, it's like they draw the sadness out of me.

Grayson stands me up beside the front door before he opens the door quietly, incase anyone's in bed, all the lights are out except the lounge room and silence fills the house except the quiet snores we can here from dad upstairs. it seems as though they all are alseep.

"Can I kiss you Goodnight?" He whispers.

"But don't go." I sigh.

"Why not? It's like nearly midnight."

"I lied.."

"About what?" He smiles weakly, a worried look plastered onto his face.

He grabs my hands gently as I begin to look down at the ground. "I'm not fine.." I whisper quietly really not wanting him to hear me.

I feel a tear fall slowly down my cheek and onto my hoodie.

Grayson lifts my chin up slowly. "I know.."

"What do you mean?"

"I knew you weren't okay from the day I bought you home from the beach. Sure you said you were fine but I saw it in those beautiful eyes of yours, I waited for you to tell me but then you wouldn't talk to me for a week so when I was told you were in pain at the beach I naturally freaked out."

Damn.

"But Amber, I'm always here. I don't care if I'm sleeping, or if I'm angry at you or I'm on the other side of the world. It doesn't matter what time it is, I'm always here for you.."

I think I'm definitely in love.

He smiles again, making my insides melt. The familiar feeling of butterflies swarming my stomach.

"Thanks Gray.."

"Maybe.. I have an idea!"

"Yeah what is it?" I ask eagerly.

"Well do you trust me?"

"Of course I do Gray!"

"Okay so just put your pyjamas on, find as many blankets and pillows as you can and I will go home get myself some pyjamas and be right back. How's that sound?"

"Gre..at.. but what are we doing?"

"It's a surprise just trust me!"

Grayson leans in and kisses my forehead before running to his car.

*****
I hear a faint knock on the door, get off the couch and walk to open it, I smile when I see Grayson in his pyjamas, holding his pillow and sleeping bag. He walks in and smirks at me.

"Ready for the second best night of your life?"

"Yeah why my second?"

"Because the first best is for another time!" He smirks even more. "Okay lets go!"

"Where?" I ask but he's already walking out the back door.

He puts his stuff on the trampoline then comes inside and carries the big pile of blankets and pillows I put on the lounge room floor. I have no shoes on so he carries me out also. I'm only in a tank top and long fluffy pants so my arms are freezing.

"You wanna sleep out here and watch the stars all night with me?"

"Second best night ever!" I laugh and wrap my fluffy, snuggle blanket around my shoulders.

"Goodo!"

I sit towards the side of the oval trampoline, leaning against the safety net as Grayson lays the blankets and pillows out. When he's done we lay down, my head on his stomach as I lay the opposite way than Grayson. He begins playing with my hair.

"The stars are so pretty.."

** GRAYSON'S POV **

She sighs calmly. I love the stars. They make me so calm, it helps when I can't sleep because I can just go outside and think and admire the beauty of the stars. But tonight the stars aren't the most beautiful thing. I run my fingertips through Amber's silky, brown hair. Damn she's so beautiful.

"You better now?" I smile in the dark.

"Getting there.." She says with a sigh.

I hate seeing her sad, she doesn't deserve to be down like this. I know she hates telling me about what's making her sad, mainly because I worry about her. I know what it's like to feel down and lonely so I really don't want her to have to feel that. Not ever.

"You wanna talk about it?" I whisper.

She sighs and then sits up slowly, her back facing me before she turns around. I sit up slowly.

"I don't know Gray.. It just-it just hurts. All the time and it used to go away but now it lingers in the back of my mind.."

My poor best friend.

"What used to make it go away?"

"Um that's another story!" She laughs quietly, looking to her right a little.

"Nah tell me!"

"It's okay."

"I'll go home.." I smirk. But I wouldn't really.

She sits there thinking for a split second before lunging herself at me, making me fall onto my back. She wraps her arms around my neck and snuggles her head into me neck. I can feel a smile form slowly on her face as I hold her waist tightly.

"Don't leave me! You make me feel better.."

a/n
I want to meet Grayson so bad!