Love Isn't The Way.

Chapter 10

Alec......

There's nothing more beautiful in this fucking world than the girl sleeping next to me.Zenda Mellark,she's my own personal miracle. I have no idea how God created her not that I believe in God but how someone like her could belong in this world. So beautiful.She has brown wild hair which falls on her face when she's sleeping and chocolate brown eyes with skin as soft as feathers and her curves, god she could kill a man like me with those. If there ever was perfection in this world, it's her and as much as I know that she doesn't belong with a beast like me I can't part with her.She is the light that I have been trying to find my entire life.I still remember the day I first saw her 

......Flashback.....

10 Years ago

Shitty day. Just a perfect shitty day. I can't believe that motherfucker had the nerve to lie to my face and expect me to forgive him. I punched in the gut again.

'Liar' I snarled at his face.'You've already made me lose my money and then you have the nerve to lie to my face.' I take out my gun and point it at his filthy head.

'Please.... don't kill me,Vicious please, I didn't mean it please just....' Before he could finish I shot his brains out. 

'Clean this mess up, Boris. I'd like to go home now' I told my right hand Boris as I made my way out of that filthy warehouse. 

I went to my car and rushed out of the warehouse before someone sees me. I am Alec Anderson, businessman and Head of the Mafia community in Seattle aka Vicious. I am cold,ruthless,arrogant,easily annoyed,expert killer and any other thing your parents tell you to stay away from. It's almost morning and I need to go home,change and do my job as a CEO of the corporate business. I have two roles to play in life Alec Anderson by morning the perfect man for business and by night Vicious the perfect man for killing. No one has ever seen my face as a Mafia or if they have they certainly aren't alive to tell the tale.I love who I am and what I do.But today I am annoyed as fuck because today I am feeling something I am never supposed to feel.Guilt. 

Last night I saw an angel sent from above for my redemption. Zenda Mellark. She is the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my entire life and soon as I saw her I knew she was mine to do with. She belongs to me now and I could've taken her from that stupid cafe and forced her to live with me for the rest of our lives, but I couldn't because that would hurt her and I can't bear that thought. I want her willingly to live with me and be mine and also when she is a little older. 

I could've at least talked to her but If she ever knew who I was she would never accept me and for the first time in my life I feel guilty for who I am and what I have done. Jeez, I haven't once talked with the girl and I already feel guilty. I should stay away from her because she is ruining me but I can't because my once cold heart feels warm with even the sight of her because now my heart is like a compass which will always lead me to her. 

.....Present......

She made me want to be a better person but I need the mafia world and she understands it which only makes me love her more. When I had first told her I thought she would never accept me but she did, I thought she was drunk or crazy when I had heard her say those words:

'It's okay, I Understand that this is what you need to survive and you can't change it but you just need to promise me that you will never let it touch me'

She was so naive and innocent back then and I ruined her by touching her,I've hurt her more than anyone has in this entire world but she needs to know that a life with me means everything. Both the bad and good. She's scared for our future when she fails to understand that there is a part of her which loves this, this rush of adrenaline every time she is with me. I hold her hand make a silent vow that I will never let her go and anyone who tries to take her from me will die from my bare hands. 

For she is mine and I am hers. Forever.