Love Isn't The Way.

Chapter 14

'Zenda, I have bad news for you' Sarah came in when Joy and I were discussing Jared Holster,that pathetic son of a bitch, he wrote Joy an E-mail, or more like his assistant did saying how awfully offended he was when we had abruptly called off the meeting, as if I sent him back from my room after promising him chocolates and candies. Idiot. I can't even say anything harsh to him as his company can mean a great success story for mine, so we simply sent them another vague apology like we did before. 

'What is it,sarah?' I ask annoyed,I was already having a shitty day because of that bastard and for the first time I do not mean Alec.

'Before that,tell me what is going on with you and that sexy Alec Anderson?' she took a seat beside Joy who now was gleaming with excitement too,if anyone else even tried to do that,they would be fired by now.

'What do you want to know? ' I ask clearly annoyed at both of them 

'Oh, C'mon, we're not fools,he came here on Friday like he owned the building and he talked with you for at least 20 min without any appointment, something is going on' Joy says after closing her file.

'Fine,I'll just say it,we're dating,we've known each other for quite few years but hadn't actually met because of workload,but I saw him at a party lately and we just kind of connected and started going out on dates but I decided to just end it and he didn't want to so he just came barging in like a King and sort of demanded I go on a date with him and now we are trying to work something out' I told them while trying to blush a little to make it convincing.

'Oh, that is soooo good for you, you really need to relax Zen, and I've heard he is a master in beds' Sarah was so excited I could feel her thoughts about Alec, but Joy kept giving me suspicious glances meaning she didn't believe me, oh what a mess.

'Anyway,what were you saying the problem was?' That brought back both of them fortunately.

'Well,there is huge swarm of Media outside wanting to know about your and Alec's relationship, We tried to move them but It's not possible, you're gonna have to make a statement' 

'SHIT!!' I knew this would happen,thank god I am not wearing my wedding ring. 

'Can't you guys at least tell them that I am coming,just try to tame them but don't say anything about my relationship just say that I am busy in a meeting and I will be down there in a while.' They both quickly nod and leave. 

I quickly call Alec and am relieved when he picks up at the second ring,

'Hey,what happened?' he asked me.

'Hey,no time to talk, there are some press and media outside my building demanding to know about our relationship and I am pretty sure they would come to your building too so please don't say anything apart from what I told you ok ? I am going downstairs and talking to them but I don't know if I should, I am actually planning to just go home so can you too please come there?'I said everything in a hurry.

'Ok,Zenda calm down, I am leaving right now,don't worry, you just reach home carefully,bye.'  He sounded a little weird but I was too tensed to ask him about it.

I take my coat and rush out the building and am met my cameras flashing at face and everyone speaking at once, James rushes towards me and forms a wall with other guards around me. I hear so many questions thrown at me.

'WHAT IS THE NATURE OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH ALEC ANDERSON?'

'HAVE YOU GUYS KNOWN EACH OTHER LONG?'

' ARE YOU...' 

I sit in my car before any of those questions hit me with full force. But, I keep thinking,how can I be with a man who hurt me so much but I know I don't have any answer to that so I just sit in my car, put my earplugs in and turn the volume up and let the songs take over my thoughts.

I reach home in record time thanks to James, but as soon as I am inside the apartment, I hear someone playing my piano in a very wrong way. Oh,did I mention I have a Piano which I love to play. Actually I have a passion for music which means I can play any instrument. I know, multitalented. I approach the piano and see Alec sitting on the bench and just playing some random notes. He moves away from it as soon as he sees me approaching. 

'Hey' 

'Hey'His voice was a little hoarse and I noticed that he was crying. Shit! He never cries.

'Oh my god, what happened?Why are you crying?'  I ask frantically.

'This piano, it reminded me of someone. can you play it for me?' As if I could deny those eyes. I nodded and sat at the bench,took at deep breath and started playing it.Soon the whole apartment felt in rhythm with the piano and I too felt myself moved with it. Music was the one and only thing which always gave me peace. I ended the song after 5 min and opened my eyes feeling satisfied with myself.

'Thank you' That's when I noticed that Alec had puffy eyes and came to sit down beside me. 

'Can I ask you comething?' he said so softly

'Yes' I whispered.

'And can I trust you to be honest with me ?' I nodded.

'Did you ever forgive me for all the cruel things I did to you in the past?' 

I stared at him for a really long time before I answered, I didn't where was all of this coming from,all of a sudden, why was he so hurt. 

'No,Alec, I never could.' I said softly and held his hand tightly.

'Then how can you even bear to live with me, my love' A single tear escaped my eyes while I answered. 

'Because I tried to hate you and I did and I realised that love and hate aren't really that different from each other,somehow,somewhere that hate turned into love and try as I much I couldn't ever stop loving you, I can try to forgive you but i WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE THINGS, and I don't even want to I used to hate myself for even feeling an ounce of love towards you but I couldn't stop my emotions,could I ?' 

We just sat in silence after that,it seemed like hours before he spoke something I never thought he would.

'I am sorry,Zen.For everything.' I couldn't say anything to that instead I just simply kissed him softly binding us together in that moment.