Love Isn't The Way.

Chapter 22

Zenda.... ( After 1 month)

'I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing 

I'm still breathing.......' 

Sia's song Alive was blasting in my ears while I went for my morning run. I had my stamina back since the past month i came to run everyday.  Speaking of past weeks, my life for once is actually on track. I can't even remember the last time i felt so at peace. Alec has been phenomenally kind and polite and loving and funny and of course dangerous and hot and sexy as fuck. But, i don't care as long as he stays this way. I mean he still sometimes gets his snaps of anger but he i can see him working on it. I still don't like the fact that I am engaged to him or he still exerts his will over me. But, I can relate to him now, just the way i need control in my life, he needs it too. 

After all the media fiasco had died down, we both cancelled our schedules, sat down and discussed the things that we want specifically from each other. It was not just about what I expect and want or what he wants and expects, it should be mutual. 

The discussion or should I say argument was that I wanted control of my life and how he wanted control of me.  The argument lasted for hours until we came to a final decision that we'll both have control of our lives but this time we both will have  an equal say whatsoever. I was surprised that he made so many changes for me while this time i've literally just promised me flowers and chocolates. I just hope it lasts. 

But, Alec's not the only asshole gone good in my life. Jared Holster. The one I am merging my companies sales with. The deal is amazing and so is Jared. But, I don't know what I feel towards him. Yeah, I know it's not love. I know what being in love feels like. This is something else. I don't feel intimidated or nervous around him.Even though he is gorgeously handsome with all the features on point. Obviously he is nothing compared to a certain Greek God that I know. I actually feel comfortable and enjoyable with him. He's not one of those boring asshole CEO's who have the lamest jokes possible to which I always have to give a fake laugh. I like laughing with him.

Over the past few days our meetings have increased and I used to hate it when he used to come in the office all confident like he owns the place but now I actually kind of like it. What I feel isn't certain but I think I have a guess. Maybe just maybe this is what friendship feels like. How could I know? I never really had friends or even if I did I don't remember. I've not really given him a place in my life or anything but what I feel when I am with him is something I don't want to lose at any cost. Today, we would be signing off the final agreement. I just hope it goes well. This is kind of a big step for his company more than mine as if it fails or is not successful, the loss would affect his company on such a big scale that he might lose 50% of his companies resources. Whereas me, well let's just say that I don't make friends in the fields of business.

I enter Alec's building as it's Friday and we're still kind of using those laws because I still don't trust him completely. 

Entering the apartment, the first thing that hits me is a strong smell of chicken and waffles and a big fruit pizza. Hmm, someone's been cooking. 

'Hey, you're up early' I say as I snake my hands around Alec and kissed his neck, he hasn't taken a shower and still smells good. 

'I could say the same about you' he replies, turns around and envelops me in a passionate kiss. Now that's refreshing.

'It's normal for me to wake up early and go for a run, it's like 6 right now, you should've slept in, you barely get any as your 'personal business' from the past is troubling you too much' I break apart from him and dug into the waffles. They are delicious just as I expected. 

'I know, it's just that you are more important to me than some old douche bag seeking revenge of some kind and I'd rather cook you something delicious on your day of signing an agreement' he winked at me and took a bite of his chicken pieces and I swear I felt something melt inside me. 

'Speaking of this guy, is he the same person with whom you had to go on that business brunch with?' 

'Yup, he is one hell of a asshole, let me tell you but his company has some real good juicy stuff for mine.' I said and headed for some coffee. 

'Ohh, come to think of it I too have heard about him but never really seen his face, is he good looking?' he asked narrowing his eyes.

'Yes, but not as sexy as you my love' I say with a sheepish grin at which he chuckles' and if you want to see him, pick up that magazine with my face at the cover and open to page 5' 

As soon as he sees the picture his whole face gets drained of emotion and I mentally prepare myself for another argument.  But, that's not necessary as he quickly recovers and is just a little tensed. 

'Are you sure he is an ok person like genuinely?' he asks frowning.

'Yeah absolutely, why?' 

'Nothing exactly wrong just that his eyes, I've seen him somewhere, I just can't put my finger on it , he doesn't give me good vibes,zen and If I love you then I need to say this that I'd rather you didn't sign this agreement with him, trust me when I say this, this guy is trouble' 

'Look, are you sure this not your prejudice or pride or your paranoia speaking ? Because I did run a background check on him like I always do and there's literally not even a single ounce of dirt on him, Alec, C'mon, if anything goes wrong I will come back to you and we can solve this. Although I am sure you are just being paranoid because of everything that is happening.' I get up and hug him.

'I hope so' he whispers as he tightens his hold on me.