Love Isn't The Way.

Chapter 29

I have no idea if this is bad or very bad or worse. I just saw two Police cabs leave from the building. Were they looking for Alec or me?. What is happening? Why can't my life be normal for once. I need a really long vacation in The Maldives or Hawaii or Australia or Bali or Milan or honestly anywhere far from this mess. 

I go inside the building once I am sure that the path is clear. What if they actually were in our apartment. Oh would you look at that. I just called his apartment ours. Again. UGHGGHGHGHGHGHGHHGH. 

I need some normal in my life. I thought Jared would be that one normal thing in my life. Someone who convinces me everyday that there is some normal in this world. But no, how could something positive ever happen in my life. It really hurts. I don't ever tell anyone about it but how can I. I don't have anyone to tell all this stuff too. I used to write poems in my young twenties but after Alec I couldn't write. I always watch in movies or read in novels about these girl protagonist having best friends with whom they share everything and I really envy that. It's not like I can go up to some Cafe, meet new people and tell them the story of my life. 

They would probably freak out and call some Mental Asylum for me. I've never mind being alone but being lonely sucks. It just sucks. Sometimes I think what if I had jumped from that bridge when I was 18 and ended it all or when I had almost overdosed myself purposefully when I was 16 and who can forget the wrist incident at 15. What if my life had ended long ago?.  What would happen to Alec ? . Would he ever torture someone and love them at the same time? Would she too face everything and everyone because of Alec. 

I enter the apartment and much to my surprise the whole place is wrecked. The furniture, the glasses everything is chaotic. Alec would probably kill the cops who dared touch his stuff. Or whoever was here. Numerous things run in my mind when I feel something really hard hit my head. 

I don't even recognize the pain for the first 2 seconds and then it felt like my brain was on fire. I shout out. No screamed out in pain. I try look around who did it but my vision is blurry so here are the things I gather. There is a man who did this. Obviously not Alec because he, I don't know. He's just not Alec. Though he is wearing a suit and there are blood patches on his shoulder. So, certainly not Jared because I shot him in his Thigh.  

I can't concentrate anymore. The pain is too much. Suddenly I feel someone sticking something in my neck and after a little while every thing goes black. The last thing I think is that I hope I die. 

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I try to open my eyes but it's too hard to look over the stupid blindfold. My whole body hurts. Everything feels like it's about to burst out.  I am in some vehicle, probably in the back of some van and we're going somewhere. 

The pain is the proof that I am not dead. I moan out loud as I can't speak because of the gag in my mouth which is too tight.  I don't know why I moan out in pain. I can't decide whether it was because of the pain in my body or the internal pain in my head. 

I just wish it was all over. Someone agains sticks something in my neck and this time I am grateful for the darkness.