Love Isn't The Way.

Chapter 26

I thought of doing a lot of things in my life out of most I have accomplished but never did I thought that Alec and I would be working on mission like this. Okay not a mission but whatever this is, it's just so amazing. It did bring us closer together. But man I gotta give it o him. He is fucking smart. I guess years of Mafia does pay. 

And as usual I can't sleep and I am looking out the window of his apartment and somehow the view eases my anxious state of mind. Today I saw that photograph of us in Vegas years ago when he supposedly kidnapped me. I still haven't forgiven him for that. That photo forced me back into that time for a while. We have come so far from there and we still have miles to go. This new Alec is so everything I never expected him to be. Loving, caring and obviously possessive as hell. I love him more than I ever loved anyone. I hate being in love but I love loving him no matter what happened between us. What kind of a person does that make? I don't even remember the last time I forgave anyone but somehow I forgive Alec. It's not like I had any choice but anyway. 

That darkness that consumes him is still there and I see it everyday but I also see him fighting it. For me. He gave me a part of myself that I never even knew that I needed. He is the biggest asshole, no doubt about that but-but he is my asshole. 

And then there is our second asshole of the century. Jared fucking Holster. All day we tried to make plans despite discussing that I'll meet him tomorrow. Alec said that he doesn't believe him when he said that he wanted to explain why he lied. He thinks Jared is upto something. I agree with him. Thinking that we had shared so many fun times together just tears me apart. Like seriously, the one time I decide to trust someone and this happens . I don't want it to hurt but it does. It fucking hurt me.

We decided that we will meet Jared or more like I will and Alec would stay in the other room of my office so that if I need him he will be right with me. If he is telling the truth which I hope he does but if he lies tomorrow he has no idea what's or who is he facing. That fucking prick. 

I hear someone moving behind me and obviously it's Alec. I am so attuned to him that I even know that he walks like a ghost. You never know when he is going to just show up.

'What are you doing up so late?' he snakes his arms around me and kisses my neck from behind. 

'Just thinking I guess' I sigh as I melt into his embrace. Anyone who sees us won't ever believe our history together. 

'Come back to bed, it feels empty without you' 

'Keep saying stuff like that and I am going to combust' I turn and kiss him on the cheek. 

'Maybe that is my plan, to love you so much that heart burst out' and says and picks me up bridal style and I squeal like a little child. 

'What are you doing, you are aware that I can walk right?' I say as we reach the bedroom. Our bedroom. 

'I am but making you laugh makes me feel ............ human' And just like that he wins my heart every fucking time. 

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We reach my building and separate as soon as we can . Today is just a half day so most of the people took off to enjoy the whole day. Which by the way I advised them to do. 

Alec enters the building first so that no one suspects us. 10 minutes after he goes in I enter the building too. I can feel my heart beating like a machine. I text Alec as soon as I enter the lift. No reply but ok. Here I go. 

I expect to see Sarah at her desk but she isn't. She probably is in the washroom or something as all her stuff including her bag in on her desk. It's not a big deal right ?. Nothing to freak out about. 

It's 9:27 am that means Jared would probably come by 11 at most considering how 'busy' he is. The entire floor is almost empty and it is creeping me out. Really bad 

I enter my house and see Jared sitting at the couch sipping coffee and by sitting I mean completely leaning on it without a care in the world. 

'What the hell Jared? Are you out of your mind? What are you doing here?' I keep my bag at the desk and sit in my chair. Not because I wanted to intimidate him but because I was so nervous I thought I might fall. Thank god, years of spending time with Alec taught me how to control my emotions well. 

'Well ,we were supposed to meet or did you forget ?' I am sorry what? 

'Yes, meet not barge in my office without me even knowing about it? And anyway how did you get past Sarah?' I am going to kill her. 

'Well, a person can do anything if they have charm and who knows better about charm than me' 

'Okay charm master can we stop beating around the bush and get down to business? Why didn't you come to the signing yesterday ?' I am fuming with anger now. 

'You know that's one of the things I love about you , you don't entertain nonsense, Alec is a lucky guy' He said Alec's name as though he hated him. Ok now i am completely freaked out. 

'But before we come down to business can I ask you a question ?' he says and moves towards the chair around the desk from me. 

'Sure, why stop now ?' I say with a heavy sarcasm. 

' Why are you with Alec after everything that he did to you ?' WHAT THE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

I literally feel the air leave my body. How did he know about our relationship. I press the button Alec gave me if I needed him. It was something his mafia business had invented, he stick it us my sleeve button and all I had to do was press it. 

' What are you talking about? We only met a few months ago' I try to feign innocent even though I have a feeling that it might now work. 

'Okay, let's skip the part where we pretend that your and his relationship is a fucking lie and that he is in the mafia world, can we do that please?' 

'Sure, let's. But what are you going to do with that information. If you really want to blackmail me or coerce something then you need to work  better than that Asshole' I spit words at his god forsaken perfect face. He laughs so hard at that and I have a deep urge to punch him in the face. 

'Wow, I really did underestimate you. Now I know why he digs you. Anyway did he mention all the latest attacks happening in his warehouses, i am guessing that he did.' 

'Who are you?' That was the only sane thing that could come out of my mouth. Where the fuck was Alec. Shit, he wasn't in any trouble is he. Jared leaned across the table and smirked. 

'Someone your boyfriend never should have messed with'.