Love Isn't The Way.

Chapter 16

Alec.....

I couldn't sleep that night, I just couldn't.What happened today was a mistake. I shed a tear,I've never did that before.It was a weird feeling,my throat felt so tight and my eyes were just filled with water making my vision blurry. I couldn't understand the feeling.I haven't thought about my mother since I was 8 or 9 years old. She used to play Piano as well which is the only memory I have of her,was I missing her ? No, it can't be. Maybe I was feeling regret or was that guilt. I don't fucking know.

I was so lost in thought that I didn't see Zenda stirring in sleep.I thought she was having a nightmare but her face looked so sated,maybe she was finally dreaming.My cold heart was filled with happiness that I was the reason Zenda was finally getting a good night sleep and on top of that she was dreaming. I felt her wake up and I pretended to be asleep. I could feel her stares on my face and suddenly I felt something gentle touch my lips.

 SHE KISSED ME?? why ?. Actually I don't care,all I care about was the kiss. I was so close to open my eyes and see her blush. I love it when she blushes,it's not that often but when it happens' Tis a sight to behold' especially when it's because of me. But, I know it might make her uncomfortable so I decide not to be an ass for tonight. I finally fall asleep because her kiss erased half of my worries.But, I need to get my shit together,I can't let my guard down like that, true I might left the mafia world but that doesn't mean my enemies have disappeared. This is not going to happen. I can't grow soft,that's only for Zenda but not every day. I make a silent promise to myself that I am not letting my guard down like that again.

'I love you Zenda Mellark. You were mine and always will be Mine.' I Vow in her ear as I do every night.

.....Flashback.....

6 Years ago 

I wait for Zenda in one of the Restaurants that I own.' Fiasco' That's the name of this one, it's one of the best in town. I take a sip of my wine when she comes in the private lounge I reserved for us. My jaw falls open just like every time I see her. She is wearing a Royal blue dress which ends at her knees. It's not like the tight ones that expose all her curves, this one hugs her curves but doesn't expose too much, she doesn't have make up on as a matter of fact she never does, just her red lipstick, my favourite. Her hair falls in perfect waves around her shoulders.She is the definition of pure beauty and she is Mine. She enters with an angry and frustrated expression  as though I forced her to be here, actually I kind of did.I smirk at that thought. She'll get used to me. She has to be.

'Good evening, Zenda, Welcome'

'Hi' she says with a hint of irritation in her voice.

'May I ask, what took you so long ?' she sits in front of me in the booth and I am almost tempted to tell her to sit beside me, but I know I have to take it slow with her. It's a miracle that she agreed to come. It's our 5th date and so far all the dates have been kind of interesting. She is one amazing  lady.

'I was having a problem choosing a dress for tonight' She lied, I knew she was lying because she is not like other girls that I have been with. She doesn't care about dresses or her looks and I am sure didn't even spent 5 minutes on choosing this dress, the blue dress might have been the first and last one to catch her eye. 

'As far as I know you, you're lying' I say confidently and lean back admiring the view in front of me . 

'You know nothing about me, even if you do I am sure whatever you think you know is false' she says as she picks up the bottle to pour herself some wine. 

'Really? Ask me anything about yourself ?' I say and take the bottle from her hand and pour the wine. She shoots daggers at me, probably thinking of hurting me in some way. She hates my guts and I love it.

'Ok, what's my favourite color ?' 

'Nothing, you like all the colors, it all depends on your moods except yellow, you hate yellow or any shade of yellow.' her jaw dropped opened just as I expected. 

'By the way I have already ordered, I hope you like Chicken' I say nonchalantly. 

'Ha, for a man who knows everything about me, you're not sure about my favourite cuisine' she smirked.

'Oh, I know but I have to at least pretend to be a gentleman to woo you ' I expect a blush from her but she just crosses her hands and looks at me trying to hide her smile. 

'What do I like more, books or novels ?' she challenges.

'Books, they make you feel like you're in a different world and offer you an escape' I know I am right which is frustrating her.Clearly. 

'Well, then Which is my favourite novel?' 

'Any you last read, you're choices change and also you like to read a novel at least twice which makes you remember them perfectly' Just then the waiter comes with my order and asks us for a drink, before I can say anything Zenda cuts me off.

'Three cosmos' the waiter nods and leaves while I order another bottle of wine. 

'Three? Are you trying to get drunk ?' I start eating. 

'No, I work better when I have alcohol in my system' I smirked at that.

'But,you're not working Zenda' 

'It certainly does feel like a job' she says as if its obvious.

'And why is that ?' I ask confused.

'Because I have to face you every day constantly and deal with you just like my job whereas I love my job but not you' she says and starts eating. I grimace at her and she just smirks at me knowing she made a point but I am not the one to back down. 

'You must  love your job whereas me, you'll just have to get used to me' I smirk and lean towards her, she nearly chokes on her food.

'What?' she asks with a fierce expression. 

'I am planning on keeping you sweetheart' I smirk and jusr as she is about to say something, the waiter brings her 3 Cosmos.

'What do mean by'planning on keeping me ' I am not a possession or an object that you like and will keep in your penthouse, you don't even know me and just knowing my favourite color or novel doesn't tell a thing about my personality or my emotions' she picks up her spoon and eats. 

'Oh,darling I know you, everything about you' I stand up and sit beside her ' I know that when you were 14 you lost both your parents, you took business studies in school, you never have been in a relationship,just one-timers, you don't like shopping but love clothes,you promote subtleness and purity, you are a rational person who thinks from her heart but puts her brain in charge of her emotions and I also know that you have sleeping problems, you're not quite insomniac but you get nightmares almost every night and the one thing you never told anyone that you had a best friend whom you loved dearly who died of cancer when you were 16.' I compose myself and try not think about how amazing she smells and how beautiful she looks up close.

'How do you know all that?' she whispers clearly shocked. 

'I like to pay attention to people who belong to me' she grimaces at that. She picks up her first cosmo and gulps it down in one go.

'You know you shouldn't drink that much' she looks sharply at me.She picked up another glass and gulped it down again.I try to give her my don't- mess- with -me look, which resulted me with her don't-mess-with-me look.Oh, she so needs a lesson. I held her face in my hands and crashed my lips with her, she tried to resist at first but then I held her waist and pulled her even close to me. 

'Come on ,I'll take you home'  I smirk and drink her third cosmo while she was breathless.She looked at me as If looks could kill I'd be dead right now as the way she was looking at me was just enough to make me want her. Maybe even more. She must be thinking that she's just a fling,little does she know that I would have to be dead for her to leave me and that's unlikely.