Danganronpa 2 x reader (pre-despair)

Chapter 24: the missing peice

Oh my god the power in Lacey's voice ughhhh I canttttttttt.
Song- missing by flyleaf <3
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To be honest, I can't remember the last time I got *that* pissed at everything. I remember throwing things around, breaking things, ripping things, causing my destruction filled mind to become a reality.
It got so bad, that I even ran up to a certain room I haven't been over in easily a decade. I remember opening the door, yelling at the things around me about my problems as If they were listening, and started shredding that place as well. Hell, I even smashed a lamp into the mirror, causing it to break and crack.

That not so perfect now room was, or used to be my parents.

I then sat down on the bed, curled up into a ball, and started crying even more. I was so utterly disappointed in myself, and what I did to have everyone leave me like that. I hated feeling this low, but I had no control over it. These were just my stupid fucking emotions being...well...emotions. I didn't know how to control them, or even calm myself down. Usually someone helps me, but no ones here...they all left.

I sunk deeper into the mattress in an attempt to escape reality and hopefully drift off into the unknown, but I only just cried myself to sleep.
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I woke up about two hours later once I heard my doorbell bring rung multiple times. I swear, whenever I have something important someone just has to be ringing me.
I sighed, and I curled myself. I looked around the room only to remember what had just happened. The room was chaotic, and just fucked. I slowly got off the bed, and walked out the door, closing it behind me.
I walked downstairs lightly, and passed by the mirror to which I looked in to see how decent I looked.
'Wow shocker, who would have guessed after freaking the fuck out my hair would be matted and my markup would be ruined...' I thought sarcastically. I sloppily fixed myself, letting the doorbell ring a few more times. I then finally answered it to see some of my classmates, again.
"See, I told ya something was up! C'mon, give Ibuki a pat on the head! Do it!" Ibuki cheered. Around her was Hiyoko, Mahiru, Nekomaru, Akane, and "Ryota". I sighed while Akane shrugged and patted Ibuki's head.
"What do you guys want..?" I said in an exhaustive tone. I was just so drained from what had just happened.
Ryota spoke up, "Well, Ibuki called us and said she had an off feeling about you. We all asked why and she said that something was happening. Akane agreed and said that her gut was speaking to her, whatever that means.."
I tilted my head while letting them continue.
Nekomaru lead on, "yeah so we all came by to see how you were Chi. We don't wanna intrude or anything though." He put his hands up in defence.
I looked at all of them blankly, as if this didn't even phase me. I didn't wanna do anything at this point in time.

Everyone looked at me eagerly waiting for my response, but I just kept staring. It was a sudden staring contest between the seven of us. I eventually gave up and said, "I'm fine, don't worry about me. Just go home." I started to close the door, but a foot stopped it.
Akane yelled from the other side, "oh hell no Chi! I know you're lying. Now let us in or I'll break the door down!"
I let out a deep exhale of breath and opened the door. "The door was never shut Akane..." I said in an annoyed tone. I could tell they all looked somewhat guilty, but I also knew they wouldn't give up liek that.
"*sigh* why did it have to come to this Chi.." Mahiru said.
I looked at them puzzled.
In an instant, she yelled "Nekomaru, go!" And I was lifted over his shoulders, as he brought me to my living room. Everyone piled inside and sat down beside me. Nekomaru put me down, but Akane yelled that I wasn't gonna stay so she ended up sitting on me.
Now I was squished under the one and only ultimate Gymnast.
"Akane...get the fuck off of me.." I muddled under her. She just sat on me and shook her head like a child.
"Not until you tell us what's wrong!"
I rolled my eyes. "I can't tell you if my lungs aren't being filled with air you dunce.."
"Oh Uhm...sorry heh!" She scurried off of me, while I caught my breath.
Hiyoko yelled at Akane. "Wow good job you camel toe! Seriously, which has more air? Your head or your boobs?!" Mahiru tugged at Hiyoko's sleeve, which sent Hiyoko a warning. Mahiru just smiled as Hiyoko shut up.

Everyone looked at me with intense eyes.
"I don't understand why you're all here, like I said before, I'm fin-"
"Oh shut up and tell us already Chi!" Ibuki yelled. They were obviously eager to know what was happening.
I just stared again, dumbfounded.
"Why don't you tell me why you felt this way Ibuki?" I said in a puzzled tone.
" well Ibuki has something like a sixth sense. Akane has it too! Oo maybe we can tell the future!" Ibuki put her index fingers to her temples while closing her eyes and humming.
"I predict..." she started.
"Nekomaru will take up the art of meditation and become a more peaceful individual!" She put out softly. Everyone around the room, without the acception of Nekomaru and Ibuki, sweatdropped.
"Well now that you say that, I've been feeling like I've needed to find myself recently, maybe meditation will be the answer!" Nekomaru roared. I just face palmed and sighed.
Mahiru cleared her throat. "Chi, if you don't wanna tell us that's fine, but please just don't lie to us. You can trust us with anything, okay?"
I furrowed my brows and stared intently into her eyes. She just smiled.
"...I'm fucked.." I whispered, still staring into her eyes. Everyone shot their heads towards me and Mahiru's eyes opened in realization of what I just said.
I could feel the sting of tears start to well up again in my eyes.
'Don't you fucking cry Chi, you're becoming soft..'
She sat closer to me and put her hand on mine. Everyone gathered around as well. The room was silent as I tried to fight off the tears welling up.

Ryota stood up and started to walk to the kitchen. "I'm going to make you some tea, okay? We can all just sit and chat, while you calm down. What you need right now are shoulders to cry on and friends to laugh with."
Ibuki joined in, "yeah, and if we need to beat someone's ass we can! For you Chi!"
Akane cracked her knuckles and smiled mischievously. "Hell, I'll rip 'em to shreds, just give me five minutes to stretch!"
Nekomaru chuckled. "Don't leave me out of this!"

Hiyoko threw her hands up in the air and said, "yay someone's gonna get beat up! Big sis Chi's gonna be so happy after!"

Finally, Mahiru whispered to me while slipping her hands into mine.
"Don't feel like you have to hide your emotions because your supposedly "cold hearted". We know the real Chi, and she is lovely in every way. Never be ashamed of yourself, okay?"
I looked down at our hands and felt one escaped tear trickle down my face.

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"Chi?"
"..thank you Mahiru, I needed that. But don't feel as if you need to make me feel better. I'm a nuisance-"
Mahiru cut me off. "Woah there! You are not in any way, shape or form a "nuisance". You are our friend, and we are so proud to call you that, so just stop. Seriously, who hurt you Chi..?"

"..one day you'll find out...friend.."