oneshots → grethan

5 am

new writing format.

"when you were broken and he left you, do not question whether you were good enough. the problem was you were so enough he was not able to carry you"

grayson stared up into his brothers eyes through his eyelashes that were clumped together due to his rapid tears.

he always seemed to go back to square one, thinking he just wasn't good enough. it was a daily struggle for him, and his brother, ethan, who was left to fix his younger twin.

he would do anything for grayson. anything.

a small nod let ethan know his words got to the taller twin who seemed so small in that moment.

"oka- okay" grayson's voice was dry, causing it to break in between, a common effect of crying too much.

the eldest of the two peppered small kisses over the tanned skin that covered his favorite boy, his brother.

their unusual bond did not make them feel uncomfortable like it should. it only made them more comfortable.

the ethan being the youngest's rock. his safety.

"why don't i make you some hot chocolate and we lay down. rest."

it was 2 am when grayson had burst into tears, remembering his past lover who he did love. the feelings just weren't mutual.

the older had immediately woke up and began to cradle his brother.. for 2 whole hours.

making it currently 5 am.

so yes, ethan was tired. he wanted to sleep, but when grayson needed him, he was there, not sleeping.

the older twin began to boil water as grayson made his way to the couch, constantly stealing glances at ethan who he loved dearly.

they were something special. more than brothers, but not quite lovers.

"here you go" ethans raspy voice poked at the silence that grayson was pretty content with. he didn't mind it, it was safe. the silence.

the younger could only nod. his throat was sore and raw, the tears drained him.

the warm liquid calmed the burning though.

he was thankful ethan thought he was good enough. he should focus on that, not his past. not irrelevant things, but he couldn't help it, it was in his nature.

and he hated it.

he hated the over thinking, he hated the abuse, the memories, himself.

but he loved his brother, ethan. every part of him. he was so thankful for his older twin.

"i- i love you, ethan, okay? don't forget it, don't you dare. it might seem like you're the only loving here, but i am too, so don't forget it" his voice was suddenly back and his throat suddenly didn't hurt.

"i won't. i promise you i won't, but you have to promise me to love yourself. that's very important gray, self love. you need it. hell, you deserve it" and the ethan begged his brother. he needed to hear grayson promise.

"i can't. i want to, but if i did i'd be lying. i'll try, ethan. i will, for you"

ethan knew grayson shouldn't love himself for him, but only for himself, but he was tired and had to energy to argue so settled on a smile and a nod.

both boys felt good and decided they could finally sleep peacefully knowing they had each other, knowing that's all they needed. each other.

not edited. so don't attack me if this makes no sense.