Chloe's POV
I'm here at my room. Nakahiga ako at nakatulala ako sa kisame. Ramdam na ramdam ko kung paano nag-uunahan ang mga luha ko.
Why am I fooling myself? Why do I have this feeling? Why can't I let go of him? Why do I love him so much.
Tama nga sila, sa una lang masaya. I saw Hans cheating on me. Dati ko na siya nahuhuling may katext lagi pero hindi ko pinapansin. Pero ang nakita ko kahapon ay ang dahilan ng pagguho ng mundo. I saw him with his ex. Sobrang saya nila together, don ko lang ulit nakita ang ngiti niya. Ever since na lumipat ang ex niya sa Hearst ay nag bago na lahat. He's not that sweet guy anymore. He's so cold at laging kung anu-ano ang pinapagawa sa akin. I know I'm a masochist pero what can I do? I love him so much. He's always taking me for granted. Pinapahirapan niya ako, ilang buwan na akong nagtitiis dahil mahal na mahal ko siya at I'm willing to do everything just to make him happy. Hindi ko pinapakinggan ang mga kaibigan ko dahil pinaninindigan kong mahal mo ako, na nagmamahalan tayo pero hindi pala.
I heard a knock on the door kaya I wiped all my tears at umupo. "Come in po." sigaw ko.
Agad na nagsipasukan ang mga kaibigan ko. Teka gabi na ah? Bakit andito mga to. Si Margaux nakapantulog na, yung dalawa naka shorts at sando lang. "What's sup Chloe!" masiglang masigla lumapit sa akin si Zoe. Kahit kailan talaga to.
"Your Mommy called us. She asked us to come over here and talked to you." nag aalalang sabi ni Celine.
"And hindi ka pa daw kumakain!" sabi sa akin ni Margaux tapos ay piningot ako.
"Ouch you don't have to do that!" reklamo ko.
Natawa silang tatlo pero maya maya ay nagseryoso na sila. "Look Chloe tell us what's your problem." aniya ni Zoe
Napayuko ako, siguro i have to let this out. "What are friends for Chloe?" tanong naman ni Margaux.
Huminga ako ng malalim bago mag simulang mag kwento. Parepareho silang nagulat. At ilang beses din nilang pinagmumura si Hans. Lalo na si Celine na halos isumpa si Hans at si Ana—Hans ex.
"Guys will you stop cursing them?" i asked dahil wala akong ibang naririnig sakanila kundi iba't ibang klaseng mura.
"No that son of a bitch should die! Together with his motherfucker ex!" bwelta ni Celine.
"Yes I agree. Hindi nababagay sayo ang mga putangina Chloe." dagdag naman ni Zoe.
"Hindi worthy yung gagong yun Chloe so break up with him. He deserves to die right now!" gigil na sabi ni Margaux
"Guys tama na please." pakiusap ko.
Umayos naman sila ng upo at nagseryoso ulit. "Chloe, avoid that kind of attitude kasi. I mean don't be so kind all the time. Just because your attracted to that person or you loved him doesn't mean you'll do everything just to please them and make them happy. It's not like that Chloe. It's give and take kumbaga." panimula ni Celine.
Napayuko nalang ako sana pala hindi ko na sila pinatigil mag mura, sesermonan lang ako ng mga to or di kaya pangagaralan nila ako.
"Hindi mo ba napapansin Chloe? Hans is talking advantage of you and he's trying to push you over. But you're okay with that because his in your life, you loved him and that's all you ever wanted." aniya ni Zoe.
Walang tigil namang tumulo ang luha ko. Humagulgol na ako, halos di na ako makahinga sa sobrang pag-iyak ko.
"Even if he screw you over and over again, you'll still be there for him because that's what you've become Chloe. From now on, do things for yourself. Don't fall for someone quickly unless they've proven themselves to be capable of committing." sermon ni Margaux.
Hindi ako makasagot. I feel guilty dapat pala una palang nakinig na ako sakanila. "It hurts guys." sabi ko habang umiiyak. Agad naman akong niyakap ni Zoe at pinatahan. "Ang sakit eh. I-i love h-him so much" pumipiyok na ako.
"Chloe it's about time to do things for yourself. Prioritize your happiness muna before others Chloe and I'll guarantee you'll be a lot more happy. " Zoe said habang pinapatahan ako.
I'm so broken. I feek so down, pero I'm thankful that I have my friends. Without them siguro ay naisipan ko ng mag suicide.
"Chloe tahan na." narinig kong sabi ni Celine. Naramdaman kong lumapit si Celine at Margaux sa akin at tinulungan si Zoe patahanin ako. "Don't be afraid to give up and let go rather than to endure the pain Chloe. You don't have to be miserable. You're too pretty to be miserable." biro ni Celine.
Patuloy pa rin ako sa pag iyak. Patuloy din nila akong pinapatahan. Natigil lang ako ng marinig ko ang mga katagang sinabi ni Margaux;
"You know what guys, there is a big difference between giving up and knowing you've had enough. We should never tolerate pain just to make someone stay in our life. If they're not treating us right anymore, we should be willing to walk away and leave them." makahulugang sabi ni Margaux. Nginitian niya ako, with that I stopped crying.
"Thank you guys. Thank you for being here with me guys." i sincerely said.
"We are all friends here Chloe." nakangiting sabi ni Zoe.
"Yes and tama na ang drama. From now on no more drama's na!" sigaw ni Celine.
Uh-oh parang alam ko na to.
"Let's goooooooo!" sigaw pa ni Celine.
"No" parehong angal namin ni Margaux.
"Why tara na! Maaga pa let's go the club guys." dagdag pa ni Zoe.
"Both of you are crazy. Do you think I'm going in a club with my pajamas?" mataray na sabi ni Margaux.
"Just borrow Chloe's clothes." walang ganang sabi ni Celine.
Napapikit nalang ako ng hinila nila kami ni Margaux at pinagbihis. Oh crap! I thought I was going to cry all night mukhang magbubuhat nanaman kami ng lasing mamaya. Tss!
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