101 letters for you, Lou (Larry Stylinson) (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 1 - It Is What It Is

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This time i decieded to write a Larry Fanfic. I hpe that you will like it, I've really put so much time and effort in this story. Hope you'll like it :)

“It is what it is” Louis said to himself while looking in the mirror. He knew what he had meant with his tattoo. The half-naked boy started singing the lyrics of the song.

I was only looking for a shortcut home
But it's complicated, so complicated
Somewhere in this city is a road I know
Where we could make it but maybe there's no making it now

Too long we've been denying, now we're both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can't get over it
Nothing to relive, it's water under the bridge
You said it, I get it, I guess it is what it is

Without realizing it Louis’ tears started falling on his face. The boy’s heart was broken. The pain grew every day, it never left Louis at ease. It was quite in his apartment. The only thing you could hear was Louis’ sobbing as he broke down in tears.

Sometime later

Louis had to go to the studio to record the new album’s songs with the lads. He was sure that he would be the last one to arrive but luckily Zayn wasn’t there yet. Everything went okay and the songs were amazing, everyone went out of the recording room while smiling, chatting and joking around, you could hear Niall’s laughter from far away. Louis started smiling because of the younger boy’s laughter. They said goodbye to each other and everyone went to their cars going home after a long day. It was 8 o’clock when Louis was back in his apartment. He took a shower and went to sleep not bothering about eating anything. Well he actually lost his appetite weeks ago, he barley ate anything and his body started getting thinner, but he cared less about it now. He only thought about one thing “Harry”. He couldn’t think about anything else for 2 weeks, every time he thought about the curly haired boy he couldn’t hold his tears.

Louis’ POV:

I looked at the empty side in the bed and remembered Harry. He once sat here next to me and we would cuddle while watching movies and exchange kisses. The pain grew every time I thought about it, it was unbearable. I got up of my bed and went to the cupboard with all my alcohol. I took a Vodka bottle and started drinking. Without even realizing it, I finished the whole bottle yet the pain inside my heart didn’t vanish. I went to the bathroom and took a similar object. It was the real pain killer for me and my best friend in such times, my razor. I went to my bedroom and lied on the bed while cutting my wrist. Every time going even deeper inside, I could see the red liquid dropping on my sheets and clothes but I didn’t care, since the ache in my heart hadn’t disappeared at the moment. I looked next to me to see a picture of me and Harry on the nightstand. I stared crying again, I cried my heart out till I fell asleep.

I woke up to realize that it was 3 pm, I took my phone to see that I have 10 missed calls, 4 from Liam, 3 from Zayn and 3 from Niall. What the hell did they want. Suddenly my phone rang it was Liam again but since I was awake this time picked it up. “Holly shit Lou, where the hell were you?” Liam said with a bit of anger yet relieve in his voice. “Sorry Li, I was sleeping just woke up. What did you want by the way?” I asked while feeling a massive headache. “Well I and the lads wanted to go out so we wanted to know if you’d like to come along?”. “No Liam, I’m not in the mood at all. I have a massive headache, I feel like throwing up and my head will burst”. “Louis, did you drink again ?” he asked with worry in his voice. “Well I guess you know the answer pretty well yourself. It just hurts too much Li, I can’t take it anymore!”. I said as I cried out. “I know Lou but drinking won’t solve it too. I know that you’re hurting but you can’t go on like this! If you don’t feel well just call me anytime you know that I’ll always be there for you Lou, right?” he said. “Yeah, I know Liam. Thank you. I’m really sorry Li but I’m really tired I’d call you another time” I told him with a sigh. “Sure, take care of yourself and don’t drink too much, if it gets really bad just call me, okay?” he said with concern filled in his voice. “I will don’t worry. Have fun with the lad and say hi to them form me, bye”. “Sure, bye” and we hung up. I closed my eyes while seeing a blurry picture of Harry and me in mind.

Harry’s POV:

I looked around but didn’t find Louis even Zayn was here but there was still no Louis. I went to ask Liam if he knew something since he was the last one to try and call him. “Where is Louis ?” I asked Liam “He’s got a massive hangover and won’t be coming” he said looking at me with sad eyes as he realized how sad I looked at him as I knew that Louis won’t be coming. He pated my shoulder and we went to Zayn and Niall, who was laughing hysterical. I joined the boys while thinking about what Louis might be doing now and how he really is. It was a really nice day with the boys yet something was missing, Louis. I missed his jokes and his smile and how he would hold my hand and look into my eyes. But all this was gone, it was over. Management tore my heart up, it broke in pieces and they were the cause that I and Louis had to break up and they forbid our love and broke our hearts. They gave Louis this girl called “Eleanor” to be his so called girlfriend in front of the public. She was his “beard”, so that the fans and the people won’t think that I and Louis were in a relationship. As for me I wanted to tell the whole world that Louis Tomlinson is my boyfriend, or should I better say he was my boyfriend. I wish I could tell everyone how I’m feeling but no one would understand, it’s already too late. Tears started building in my eyes, I turned my head away from the boys and wiped them away and put a fake smile on my face.

Hope you've liked the first chapter i have so many ideas that i want to write yet not so much time but I'll do my best. If you liked it don't forget to vote. Love all of you :)