101 letters for you, Lou (Larry Stylinson) (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 2 - Suicide Attempt !

Some hours later
Louis’ POV:

I woke up, it was already morning, I heard my phone ring it was Paul. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone right now but I had to since Paul would kill me if I didn’t answer. “Hi Paul” I frowned. “Louis, I want you to be in the studio within an hour. I’ve already told the boys, we’re going to finish recording our new album today. Don’t be late !” he said warning. “Okay, see you”. After I hung up, something came up into my mind, something that I’ve been thinking about since long yet I couldn’t do it. But now was just the perfect timing. This will be the last album for me; it will end all the pain I’m feeling. As I went to the studio everyone was shocked by me because I wasn’t late and I looked terrible I had huge black bags under my eyes. Liam asked me if I slept at all last night. I nodded and gave him a don’t-worry smile. We finished unexpectedly early and I turned to the boys before leaving and hugged them all and told them that I love them very much. “See you tomorrow !” I said while smiling at them. “Liam smiled back “See you tomorrow Lou, I’m happy that you’re feeling better”.

I was home after a 20-minute ride with my car. When I walked in the house I imminently put everything I would need on the table in front of the couch, the razor, a Vodka bottles and 3 bottles of painkiller. I started with taking a handful of painkillers and swallowed them as I drank from the Vodka bottle. After about 5 minutes the Vodka and 2 pain killer bottles where empty. I took the razor and started cutting my wrist. I saw the thick red liquid dropping from my wrist to the floor. Suddenly something took my attention it was a picture of us in our last holiday together in Hawaii, we were happy both smiling while holding hands. I wanted him, I wanted Harry but I couldn’t have him, suddenly I wanted to hear Harry’s voice for the last time telling me that he loved me. I was drunk and took my mobile phone and called him. “H-Hi Lou” he said with sadness in his voice. “Harry” I said with a smile on my face. “Harry, I-I want you to know that I love you. I never wanted to leave you but I-I was forced to.” I said as my tears started falling. “I never thought that I’ll do this but I had to, I knew that it wasn’t the solution yet I did it.” I got no answer from Harry but I could hear him whimper quietly. “Harry please, say something let me hear your voice for the last time, tell me that you love me just as you did back then. I-I already feel dizzy an…..” the phone fell as suddenly everything turned black

 

Harry’s POV:

“Louis, LOUIS !” I scream but nobody answered. What could he have done to himself? And Why the last time? Maybe he’s trying to kill himself. No, no no Harry don’t expect the worst. I didn’t know what exactly was in his mind but I decided to call Liam. “Liam, help me! Louis he-“ I panicked. “Harry, calm down what happened?” he said. “Louis I guess he’s trying to kill himself. He called me and told me that he wanted to hear my voice for that last time Liam!!” I said while feeling tears leaving my eyes. Okay calm down. Let’s meet at Louis house, I’ll tell the boys to come. Hopefully you’ll be wrong” He said while I could hear him tense up. “Okay, bye” I hung up, took my keys and rushed to my car. Please, Lou be alright I thought wishfully. Never would I have thought how right I was at the moment. Lou was gone.

 

 

The boys were now in front of Louis’ house. They rang the doorbell countless times but no one opened the door. Yet they knew that someone was at home since the lights were on. Luckily Harry had the key of Louis’ house. They went inside and searched everywhere as they heard a scream from the living room. It was Harry, he found Louis. The boy was stunned and didn’t move an inch from his place as he saw the older boy’s lifeless body covered with blood. As the other boys saw the horrific sight of their friend, they immediately called an ambulance.

Harry’s POV:

“Lou, no don’t go. Talk to me, I will tell you how much I love you but don’t leave me I-I can’t m-make it without you.” Suddenly I heard the siren of the ambulance. Two men burst in the house to take Louis but I didn’t want to let go. I had the feeling that if I let go of him now I will be betraying him again. Zayn and Liam came to me and tried to pull me away from Lou. “N-No, let me go. He’s my Boo, he he needs me I can’t leave him.” I broke down in tears as they managed to take Louis away from me. Liam drove us all with his car to the hospital. As we arrived Liam called Jay and Anne, they both were shocked and broke down in tears. I could see Liam’s sad expression after hanging up with them. Although the boys tried to comfort me, I couldn’t stop crying. It was my fault I wasn’t there for him. I couldn’t help him and now I can only watch him dying. It’s my fault, all my fault that Lou was gone!