You're The Reason Why. (Nash and Hayes Grier FF)

Chapter 14

[WARNING: You might cry, not gonna lie it was hard writing this, comment what you think. I wrote this while listening to Breathe Me by Sia, clearly I listen to that song alot so yeah. Listen to it while reading and it will make you cry. Also listen to Cry by Rihanna and These Four Walls by Little Mix! Love you guys.]

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HAYES P.O.V.

"Lauren!" I said while catching up to her. "What do you want? Katherine deserves to know the shit you've put her through Hayes! Clearly you were going to keep this from her and I can't do that to her. You really screwed up this time. At one point in our relationship I did really care about you and thats why I came back, but after this? After this Hayes, know that you screwed up. You're not the reason why Katherine feels better, you're the one thing thats tearing here down. The longer you wait the harder it'll become to tell her and I swear to God if you waste another moment, I will go to her house right now and tell her. With that my dear friend I leave you, you're already stuck in between a rock and a hard place so you decide what you do now." Lauren yelled and then turned and left. She left for good that time and I was so confused. I literally knew that what I was doing to Katherine was hurting her, but I just don't know anymore.

She's gonna cry, I didn't mean to, I just I don't know. I ran home and went to my room and cried. I didn't even cry, I died. For in life there will be people who you love, but sometimes you hurt them so much that they cannot forgive you. What I did to Katherine was unexplainable and she will probably think I have decieved her in so many ways. I didn't mean to though, it just slipped out I guess. Yes I took the pictures. I sent them to Brad to prove to him I was better, but I'm not. Am I a bad person? Is this wait it feels like to be heartbroken again, to be guilty, to be cheated on, to be used, to feel worthless? If this is reality, then what does death feel like? What does it feel like dying, because right now I am just existing.

I have to tell Katherine because believe it or not, Lauren is right. Katherine always did deserve so much better than me. Maybe I was just holding her back, she needs to be happy. My mind is swirling and my emotions are mixed. I'll tell her tomorrow, for tomorrow will be the day my world collapse's. Goodbye Katherine, thank you for making sure I held on so long. You're the reason why I'm still here. Katherine please don't take this out on yourself, you're beautiful, amazing, flawless, and at one point - mine. I will lose you in this sick game called life, if I haven't already. I've messed up and this is what fear tastes like, and this is what loneliness feels like. I fell myself drifting, I'm sorry.

NASH'S P.O.V.

I texted Leslie to meet me at the park in half an hour. I got dressed I had to look extra nice because, I mean I gotta dress to impress am I right or nahhh? Leslie and me were literally hitting it off the other day and I hope she is as amazing and true to herself as she seems the first time I met her. "Hayes!" I yelled, but no answer. He probably went to Katherine's, awh those to lovebirds. Nobody could tear them apart. What if they got married one day? AWHHHH, I ship it! What would their ship name be though? Kayes, Kates, Hatherine? I don't know, I suck at ship names to be honest. Me and Leslie's ship name could be Lash though, Oh my God. 

"Hey Nash!" Leslie said as she pulled me in for a hug. She smelt good, like warm fuzzy peaches. I don't even know why I'm comparing her to 'fuzzy peaches' haha. "Leslieee, how ya been?" I asked while we sat down on the bench. "I've been good, haha. What about you Nash?" She replied. "I'm better now that I'm with you." I mumbled and smirked. She let out a giggle, and I looked over and saw her blushing. I guess she heard me. I really hope she likes me, because I think I like her even though it makes no sense. 

"OHH Nash! Look!" Leslie got up and shouted while pointing to an ice cream truck. I didn't even know there was ice cream trucks in North Carolina. I grabbed Leslie's hand and we dashed to the ice cream truck. "For you mah lady." I said as I gave Leslie her ice cream. She gave me a warm smile and we walked along the sidewalk for several hours.

A/N; Sorry if I made you cry or if you hate me now, whoops. Who ships 'Lash'? Lol Idk their ship name and Hayes & Kat's. I hope everyone is doing well and I hope you enjoyed this update [: Comment, Vote, and Share Please! Thank you all so much for all the reads & Support, love you guys byeee. Also know that Hayes is still alive, I thought someone would comment about that so I wanted to clear that up.