How to love Noel (A plus size novel)

Chapter.18. The Past

Noels POV 

Recap: I look up to see him glaring at me playfully.

"What i do?" i said, innocently.

"You always trying to not cuddle with me" he said pouting.

"Aww come here babe" i said opening my arms, he climbed on top of me and we cuddle like that for a little, just enjoying each others company.

"Baby....." Marcus said.

"Yes babe?" i asked.

"We gotta talk about why you know so much about gangs" he said.

"Okay" i said.

"So, my father was in a gang before i was born, he got out of the gang cause his best friends father was the gang leader and he had a lot of respect for my father everyone back in Atlanta loved him. i grew up around the gang cause my dads friends were still in it. My moms best friend was married to my dads best friend and naturally when there son was my best friend, we became more then that in middle school, about half way through grade 7 we started dating, i have always been a big girl and that was a little less common in Atlanta then it is here so i was one of the two big girls at my school the other girl Sasha was super confident in it though she was a bit of a hoe, anyway he liked big girls he was what most people call a "chubby chaser", because we were best friends we ended up dating, he was in his fathers gang and got hurt a lot he would always come to my house after a gang fight and my dad taught me how to treat his wounds, he would tell me a lot of stuff i wasn't suppose to know because we were that close, like how gangs worked and the difference between gangs and mafias and how my dad got lucky because no one is really ever allowed to leave the gangs. a little while into our 10th grade year right before we found out about my moms cancer,he found out he would take over the "family business" after he turned 18 a week after that, i found him kissing Sasha in the girls bathroom, he tried to talk to me and make up for it but then he found out Sasha was pregnant and the baby might be he's, So he started to make fun of me while him and Sasha prepared for there baby, they spread rumors around the school that i was pregnant and when my mom found out she pulled me out of school, so yeah that's really the background of how i know about gangs". i said 

"I'm sorry babygirl, you shouldn't have had to go through all of this, but i think all your struggles, and losing your mom made you the strong and beautiful person you are today" Marcus said kissing my head. 

"thank you babe" i said giving him a sad smile.

"Do you wanna tell me more about your mom?" he asked

i smiled at him and nodded my head then began,

"She was amazing she thought me how to be a lady and love myself she was truly loyal to my father and i, her family use to invite her to family events but told her she could bring me or my father, she never went refusing to leave her child and husband out of her family. as i got older i could tell she wanted them around but she was very stubborn when it came to them respecting her family and others in her life, she was my rock when things in life got hard, even though she was suffering she never let it show, After the problems at school were dealt with and i was approved for online schooling, we spent almost all our time together i went to work with her and did school work online in her office, until....the cancer got worse and she had to quit her job most of the nights after that were spent at her bed side, while the cancer slowly took her away from me and dad, it was some of the hardest days of my life but she made me promise her i would keep my grades up and eventual go back to school, but i had already finished most of my 10th grade year waiting at her bed side for the few minutes every hour she would wake up to spend as much time with her as i could, she past away in June and the hatred i had for myself grew, i hated myself because i felt so helpless saying things like i could've prayed more or attended church more like i didn't do enough to help her, but dad reminded me she was tired of fighting and was content and ready to go, he became my rock and i don't think i could ever thank him enough".

"She sounds like a wonderful woman, i wish i could've met her " Marcus said smiling at me.

"She was, and me too she would've giving you way less hell then my dad she was always so sweet to everyone". 

after telling him a little bit more about my childhood with my mom we laid in the sofa cuddled up and fell asleep.

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