When Past Becomes Present (an Alex Turner fan fic)

Chapter 27

AN: Okay guys here's the new chapter as promised! Please keep commenting and voting, and I'll keep making these chapters as perfect as I can! I love you all x Laurel

*Lillia's POV*

I woke up the next morning thinking of Alex with an overwhelming feeling of disappointment. He was no longer the dependable Alex I knew and trusted. He was in relationships with more than one girl at once, and he never even made it clear when he was doing it. I knew it really wasn't his fault because he may have assumed I had known, but it still hurt; how could it not? Alex was everything to me, but now I'd have to make room for one more. Daniel. He was so sweet, and I really did like him. Despite trying to tell myself this, and despite it being the truth, I still felt terrible. Sure, I knew this was an open relationship, but would Daniel? Well, he could figure it out on his own just like I had to. I picked out my outfit for the morning with the coffee date to come and headed off to school with the bitter thoughts still rushing through my head. 

*Alex's POV*

Lillia. Lillia. Lillia. I damned my mind for not being able to think of anything else. Matt and Jamie damned me for not being able to think of anything else. Even Nick, who usually wasn't to involved in my romantic pursuits, damned me for not being able to think of anything else. I was gone. The beats drowned into her, the lyrics drowned into her, the melodies drowned into her. It was all her. She had texted me in the morning to let me know that she couldn't do anything today, which normally wouldn't bother me, but I worried. She just hadn't seemed herself last night and then she told me she had been at an office party, and now she couldn't hang out? I knew something wasn't right, but it was beyond me. Did I do something? I tried to think back to anything misspoken, to any flinch she might have given at any of my words. There was nothing. And now it was almost 4:00, and I'd thought of nothing but her. 

"Hey, mate, give moping around a break, and lets go get some coffee." I let out a sigh. I knew he was right, and maybe I just needed a little talking and laughing with a friend to get me out of my doubts. "Alright, let's go." We walked out the door. "Now, tell me about it." he said. "What exactly is going on now?" 

*Lillia's POV*

As I waited outside the school in the cold air I thought about Alex. Was he with the other girl now? Had he jumped at another chance to see her when I told him I would be busy today after school? Did he know I was with someone else now? My brain was jumbled and confused, but I pushed it all back as I saw a car pull up into the parking lot of the school. Daniel stepped out of the grey Audi after a smooth parking job which was executed perfectly in the first try. He walked up to me in his crisp suit and tie so different from Alex's laid back leather jacket and jeans combo.

"Hey, Lillia, are you ready?" I nodded and we walked to his car.

"Bye Ms. Roberts! Have a nice weekend!" I looked behind me to see the same girls who had ogled at Alex just a few days earlier giggling over Daniel.

"Roberts? So, that's your last name?" I snapped my head back to look at Daniel;

"Yeah, did I not mention that before?" I giggled. How could I have forgotten to mention my last name? I never had to tell Alex. He knew it all.

"No, you didn't, but that's okay. I don't think I even told you mine: Williams." It was just a normal name, but it sounded sleek and professional coming out of his mouth. After all, that's exactly how he was. But he wasn't boring; he held your interest. Everything he said you wanted to pay attention to; you didn't want to miss a thing. 

We got into his car, and he started the engine up. Alex's voice came through the speakers softly. 

"You like the Arctic Monkeys?" He looked at me, obviously confused. 

"Who's that?" 

"The band…on the radio. Right now…. I guess I just assumed you were listening to them." 

"Oh, nah. I just listen to whatever comes on. They sound good though."

I nodded. I wasn't planning on telling him about Alex anytime soon. He didn't need to know, and he probably wouldn't care anyways. He probably liked to be in open relationships too. 

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We arrived at a large coffee shop, but it had very few people in it, and most of them were old. "I've got to show Alex this place." I thought. It was just what he liked, and needed: low key and away from too many fans. We went inside and ordered before returning back outside to sit at a small table in the sun. He was staring at me, and I turned to face him. "What is it?" I chuckled.

"You're just very beautiful." Heat shot to my cheeks, and I giggled. 

"You didn't tell me you were this cliché." He laughed, and I told myself to quit being so nervous. 

"I'm not usually this cliché, but I couldn't help it. It just came to me." He looked into my eyes, and leaned in. 

Alex. No, Daniel. This was Daniel; he was great. "You want this Lillia." I told myself as I started to lean in. He has a stable job. He's not a spontaneous rockstar. He doesn't tour. He's predictable; he's dependable. You want this. I felt his soft lips on mine. As predictable and dependable he was, everything with him felt like a risk, but I didn't mind. The highs just kept coming; there was nothing to fear. I could let go. I didn't have to worry about him leaving on a tour or getting mobbed by fans. But Alex was still there in the back of my mind. His voice pulsed in my brain, "Lillia?!" Was this my conscience? No, his voice was getting closer. It wasn't in my mind; it was in my ears. "Lillia?" It came in softer, hurt. I let go of Daniel's arm and turned. 

*Alex's POV* 

I had just talked everything out with Jamie. My doubts weren't killing me anymore, but then I saw her. Who was that guy? He looked like an okay guy, but an okay guy wouldn't be doing this. Or had she not told him? I was angry. I was unbelievably angry, and I was hurt. All my worries were right; every doubt in my mind had come true. She turned to me with her green eyes so wide and confused. She looked like she didn't understand why I was hurt, but how could she not? "What the hell, Lillia!" My eyes were getting red, and I could see her eyes filling with tears. I couldn't see her cry. Not now, not when I was mad. If she cried I would break down; I needed to get away. I grabbed Jamie's arm and turned from her sight. "Mate…" Jamie tried to start in. "No, Jamie, just leave it." As we walked away I heard Lillia's voice, "Alex, wait a second! Come back, please!" I could hear the strain in her voice, and I knew she was crying. "I wish I could, Lillia." I whispered to myself, the tears filling my eyes. "I really wish I could."

AN: Okay guys here's the new chapter as promised! Please keep commenting and voting, and I'll keep making these chapters as perfect as I can! I love you all x Laurel