Summer In The City. CSI MIAMI FIC part 4

a brand new day

With the toiletries he took some of the files to read. When they entered the flat the heat stroke them.
"Wow...I forgot how nice the sun is... I"ll seat at the balcony"
"Yeah...want some tea? I'll bring you a cup"
"Sure. Thank you.coffee is in the blue tin."
"Thanks" . he made some tea for her and coffee for himself. When he brought it, she was sleeping in the hammock. "Court?"
"Yes... I'm getting up.. It's so nice here. Warm."
"Yeah. I know. Here's your tea."
They were drinking in silence.
"What now"?
"Now...I'm staying here and you visit me from time to time??" She asked with pleading eyes.
"Yeah...I've got a lot of work as I'm starting tomorrow. On an early shift. How often do you want me to drop by?" And at the very same moment he realized his words were hurting her.
"You can drop by whenever you want. I won't be bothering you too often."
"No...it"s not that kind of question...I'm gonna pop in everyday to help you. I'm asking if you need me more often- I need to look at my schedule then".
"No... Once a day is far too much I've expected..."
"I promised to take care of you, remember? In NY. "
"Yeah. I remember. I'm gonna look for a doctor tomorrow morning and make an appointment".
"Good. Let me know if you find someone. I'd like to go for a visit sometimes if you don"t mind."
"I don't. You're the baby's father, that's your right."
"Good. Need anything else? "
"No."
He turned around and went to study the files. She came few minutes later and sat next to him.
"Tim.. "
"Hm?" He put his head up from over his work.
"You know....I've been thinking about you and me... As a couple. I know that broken things can't be put together without a scratch, but...can"t we try? Once again? Anew?"
He frowned. "What do you want me to tell you, Courtney? That I'm ready? I'm not. Not yet. Sorry".
"Will you ever be?"
"I don't know. I know what you want to hear but I'm not gonna say it cause this time we need bitter truth, not sweet lies. Yes- I missed you. Yes- I"m gonna be the father for this child. Yes- I will be supporting you and care for you. Yes- I feel guilty. And finally - yes -deep inside me I still love you. Proposal was a great step for me. I really wanted to marry you. But then you turned me down, played with me, Courtney. No- I'm not sure, listen carefully- I'm not sure - if I still want this to happen. I've been failed by many people , many times.That's why it's so complicated. If you want to wait- the next months  will surely tell if we can truly be with each other- as a married couple. Forgive me, but I can't. I don't want to hurt you then."
"Ok. Fair enough. I'm going to sleep. The room is ready and the linen is inside the wardrobe".
"Thanks. I will check on you in a while."
"Goodnight." She kissed him in the cheek and left.
Watching her go broke his heart. He knew he was too harsh. He saw that on her face. But giving her a word and then breaking it would be cruel. When he finished, he realized it was already 3 am.' Shit'  he thought I need to get up at 6.30... Went to take a shower and popped into her bedroom. She was sleeping without a cover, just the shorts and his old Grateful Death Tshirt. She looked... lovely. Like a girl with a baby bump ;) He realized that being almost 30 she still looked like 22. God, he missed her. In EVERY aspect. But had to put everything aside and focus on things most important now. He left and went to sleep.
At 6.30 he entered the kitchen slowly just to see her there, making coffee. "Go ouside, I'll bring you some " she said knowing that he needs time on his own just after he wakes up.
He sat in the hammock and was trying to stay awake.
"Here's your coffee" she sat with her tea next to him. "How d'you feel?"
"Not bad. Just need to get used to it. You?"
"Ok. I like the warm breeze."
"Court, apart from what I said yesterday... I'd like to throw out a party. "
"A party?? What for?"
"I thought that we could invite some friends and tell them that you're expecting".
"Why?"
"Cause you're nervous about that. Child isn"t so bad news after all , right?" He smiled. "It would be all done at once- your comeback and the news. What say you?"
"Hmm...maybe. When?"
"Saturday?"
"Yeah.. I need to clean this place."
"I'll help you in the afternoon ok? I'm going to a party tomorrow evening,  all the CSIs will be there.. I don't like parties like that but H said I should be there."
"Sure. Whom do you want to invite?"
"Eric, H, Cal, Alexx, Harry, Ryan, Natalia... That's all."
"I need some shopping to prepare sth... "
"I'll buy everything on my way home. I'll tell everyone- Saturday, 6pm?"
"Yeah fine."
"Ok. Better be going ".
"Have a nice day".
"Thanks."
The very moment he stepped in as a CSI, he got so many papers to fill in he didn't even have time to talk to people. In a break room he found Ryan Cal and Natalia and told them of the party." Come on guys, just a welcome back party tomorrow...she wanted to greet all of you". Calleigh looked suspiciously, but he shook his head fast. She nodded and said that she and Harry are happy to come.
After inviting H and Eric, Speed went to the morgue to ask Alexx. "A party???"
"Just to talk and get to know each other again."
"Are you... a couple again?"
"....No. But who knows, one day maybe..."
"Isn"t she going to work in NY? "
"She's on a sick leave. For a long while. That's why I took her to Miami. She needs care."
"She has a brother in NY. "
"I know Alexx. I know. But she needs ME now. Will you come?"
"Sure. At 6? "
"Yeah. Kinda."
"Ok. And... Timmy?"
"Yeah?"
"Shall I bring anything?"
"No. Just yourself. Thanks anyway."
He popped to Courtney's house just after 8 pm. " I'm sorry. I couldn't do it earlier "
"It's fine. Everything's done. It only needs food and drink. But that"s tomorrow. Hungry?"
"Not really".
"I've got spaghetti, want some?"
"Yeah. Sure. Thanx".
He was eating quietly.