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XL-The Morning After

After a mania attack, there's usually a time when you become really depressed. You don't even have to be depressed, but you realize what you did and most of the time you regret it.
You can't get high without getting really low after it.
And the moment I realized this was in the worst place possible. The school's main entrance. I still couldn't believe what I had done a day earlier. I stood there and remembered as I waited for someone to save me from the anxiety of walking down the main ramp on my own.

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I walked up the stairs to find my mom sitting on her toilet, with her pants dropped around her ankles.
"Oh, sorry." I said, covering my eyes from that sight.
"What is it, honey?"
"Never mind, I can come here when you're done."
I walked down the stairs again, and I had to use a lot of willpower not to turn my phone on.
My mom took almost half an hour to finish her business, and I had to make her get back up the stairs when she was going to help my brother with something.
"Come here." I said as I walked towards my room.
"So, what do you want?" She asked as she followed me.
"Ok, I..." I shut up. I had no idea what to say. "Damn, this seems much more easier than it actually is."
"What is that?"
"Ok, I'm going to ask you something. For you to have liked dad, you must like..." I waited for her to complete the sentence.
"I don't like your dad anymore." She said as she got ready to go out the door.
"No! That's not what I'm asking!" I grabbed her by her wrist before she got out. "It's not about who you like, it's about what you like."
"I don't get it."
"If a woman wants to have children with a guy she must like..."
"Guys?" I pointed a finger to myself as she said that. "So what?"
"My god! Well, I'm just going to say this once and for all. I like..."
"Guys?" I laughed when she finally got it right.
"Yes! And girls too."
"Okay, was that it?"
"I guess." I said as I gave her the typical "after coming out" awkward hug.
She walked towards the stairs, but she stopped halfway. "Daniel?"
"Yes?" I asked.
"Be careful with homophobic parents." And with that, she was gone. I grabbed my phone, making the decision of turning it on.
It was time to know how everyone had reacted about all of it.
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I looked at the main entrance, as a familiar blonde girl got inside the school. Cathy.
"How did they react?" I asked, while pulling her in for a hug.
"Well, my mom is disappointed. She tries to hide it, but it's a little bit obvious."
"How about your dad?"
"He completely ignores what I told him."
"That can't be good."
"And it isn't." She turned to the main ramp and I grabbed her arm to stop her to walk away.
"Please, don't."
"Why, what happened?
"Well, yesterday I came out to my parents. And...to the whole class."
"That's great! But why don't you go down there?"
"Because I want to wait for Brian. He also came out."
"Okay, then-" I stopped listening to her for a moment, as I saw Donovan get through the gates. Cathy was in front of me, so he thankfully didn't see me.

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The first thing I noticed as I turned on my phone was Brian's text asking me if that text was really an accident. It looked like everyone had ignored the text. I asked Brian to say something in the group chat, and he did.
B-Daniel, have you came out to your parents yet?
D-Yeah, like, right now.
B-Wow, it's funny, it looks like now that I came out everyone's doing it.
D-Yeah, It almost looks like I wasn't the one who advised you on doing it.
T-What are you two talking about?
B-Tiffany, I'm bisexual. Do you know what it means?
T-I do. But what's up with Daniel?
B-He's pansexual.
T-Which means?
B-That he likes every gender.
D-That I can like someone no matter what their gender is.
T-Ok, then.
I turned my phone off. I was getting a little bit worried. My dad hadn't answered my text yet. I got up and walked towards the bathroom.
I needed a shower.
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Cathy suddenly started walking away from me, towards a motorcycle that had just gotten inside the school.
"Hey, where are you going?"
"My friend just arrived! I'm going to say hi. You can come if you want."
That wasn't as bad as going down the main ramp, I would just have to walk to the other side of the main entrance.
Well, as I did it, I saw another very familiar person getting inside the school. Oliver. And I'm not lying when I say that he was looking at me from when he walked in to when he went down the main ramp.
It was great that our eyes didn't meet. And Alfred arrived soon after Oliver passed.
"Hi! How are you?" He asked as he got inside the school.
"Super anxious for going down that ramp."
"Why?"
"Because I came out yesterday. I need to get down those stairs with Brian so they won't focus their attention on me."
"Dude, he better hurry, the bell is almost ringing." Cathy said.
"I already texted him, he'll be here in five."
"He better be."
I kept waiting for Brian, as I remembered how the former day had ended.
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FF Cast
D-I just came out to my mom, to my dad and to the whole class. And I don't even care.
H-How do you feel?
D-I can't stop laughing. I think I'm having a mania attack.
J-How did they react? And we'll have a double therapy session tomorrow to discuss other mental illnesses.
D-They reacted pretty well. Supportive. And Ross surprised me the most.
J-I meant your parents, but that's great!
D-I tried to make my mom get it for three minutes, but then I just told her I liked guys. And my dad hasn't answered yet, I think he's working. I'm going to die tomorrow.
A-Only if you're suffocated in hugs. This was the best coming out day ever.
And when I was talking to the gang, my dad finally answered. He told me that he wasn't mad and that we would talk better on Friday, which would be in two days.
I felt great, but I knew that the next day I would regret everything.
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"He's not here, Daniel." Cathy said. "It's been almost ten minutes, we should go."
"I guess...Well, at least you're with me, guys. He's the one who'll walk down this ramp on his own."
"Yeah, let's-" He was cut off by Brian, as he said hi to everyone.
"Dude, I've been here for twenty minutes. I'm having an anxiety attack!"
"Me too. I can't believe I came out."
"Well, I just have one question. Are you ready to do this?"
"I am."
I let out a sigh as I started walking down the ramp. "Then let's go."
It was not as I expected it would be. There were people looking at us, that was normal, but nobody mocked us, or talked about it.
The only one who did was Jack, that happened to be next to our class the whole time.
The closet was cozy and warm and I really miss it. But life out of it sounds interesting, and I think that in time I'll get used to it.
And here's what happened after Daniel came out. Well, it looks like no one had a bad reaction. They just looked, and that's completely normal.
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