in the heights prompts

3| suicide

*trigger warning*

benny/nina

dear benny,

i loved you.

i love you.

and i'm so, so sorry.

i just couldn't take it anymore. stanford was so much work and stress. i was constantly breaking down and crying myself to sleep.

whenever you called i pretended to be happy because i couldn't disappoint you. although, to be honest, i've disappointed you by doing this. i've let down you, my parents, usnavi, vanessa, dani, carla, sonny, pete, and everyone else in el barrio.

you all changed my life for the better- it was college that changed me for the worse.

i would also like to apologize, again, for doing this. i can't fathom how it must've felt to get a call, whether in the middle of the night or day, saying that your girlfriend has died. she took a bottle of pills.

please don't stop your life for this. please keep going.

don't doubt for a second that i'm not watching over you.

it's okay to cry- i know from experience.

you don't have to stay strong for everyone.

siempre,

nina

a/n:

this was really sad sorry

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