One shots? {Jamilton}

Delirium {Jamilton}

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT (thats what im talking abooout)

i swear im working on other chapters and one shots bUT I HAAAAD TO WRITE THIS

This one shot was inspired by the book, Delirium by Lauren Oliver (I SUGGEST READING IT CAUSE IT IS AMAZIIIIING)

btw if anything is in bold, its a quote from the book.

(AMAZING animatic is by Mush Roomie i think)
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~Alex POV~

As my hands were forced behind my back, I stared directly at the man in front of me. His face was blank and his posture was straight. His blank, emotionless eyes that once held my entire world bore into mine.

The man in front of me couldnt be the Thomas that I had fallen in love with a few months ago. It couldnt be. This was not the same person I had shared all those memories with.

It couldnt be. There was no way.

There was no hint of recognition in his eyes, no glimmer of mischief, no spark of happiness. Not even a flicker of feeling behind those eyes.

It had all been swept away, along with all of the moments we had spent together and the feelings that we had shared. All gone. Gone with the procedure, gone with the "cure."

That stupid cure. That stupid procedure.

Despite all of the chaos happening around me, a memory resurfaced in my mind.

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The sun blazed above as we laid there, my head on Thomas' arm. We had been in that position for hours, just talking together about...everything.

"Why do we need that stupid cure?!" I asked outloud.

"Amor deliria nervosa: Also known as "love." A disease that has been around since the age of man; the deadliest disease known to the human race," Thomas cockily said, quoting the handbook that all students were required to read and study. Basically a book teaching students of the history of love and its deadly effects.

"That's not what I meant!" I whined. "You know what I'm talking about! Why cant we just be free?!"

We let the question hang in the air between us for a few minutes, savoring each other's presence.

"...I-I dont know, but it's for our own good right?" Thomas whispered.

"But...dont you want this? Dont you want to be together in public? Not just in secret? A place where we dont have to hide?" I said, turning to him. "We could run to the Wilds! Cross the border! Live our lives together!"

"It's dangerous, and I dont want to put you in danger," he said, cautiously.

I wanted to argue some more and convince him to run away with me but it was useless. I didnt want to start a fight when Thomas' procedure date was only two weeks away. I wanted to spend every second I could with him but it never seemed to be enough.

"I love you," he whispered to me and only me, making me smile.

"I love you."

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Tears welled up in my eyes as I pulled myself out of the memory. That had been two weeks ago. I had promised myself that I would stay away from him after he had been "cured" of love.

I had known the dangers of coming close to him. I had known that this is how it would end. Me, being taken away and struggling like an animal to get to him. To Thomas.

But being away from him was too much. It was unbearable. Even though he couldnt reciprocate any feelings that I had for him anymore, I knew that the true Thomas was still there, somewhere.

I had to see him one last time.

I struggled against the pull of the guards who were taking me further away from him, from Thomas. I screamed and kicked. I bit the guard next to me, causing them to scream out in pain.

There was only one reason why I had turned into...this...this animal. All because of love.

If only I could travel back in time to 6 months ago, before all of this. Back to when I had been eagerly anticipating the procedure. Hoping for it, counting the days until it would come.

I wanted to laugh right there. I was dumb, young and dumb. I had been brainwashed, forced to believe that it was deadly. I had feared it. I had feared getting infected by it. All this time, they had been teaching us to frown upon the most beautiful and wondrous thing. Love.

Now everything has changed. Now, I'd rather be infected with love for the tiniest sliver of a second than live a hundred years smothered by a lie.

I cried out in pain as they twisted my arms behind my back. Tears pricked at the edges of my eyes. My breathing was shallow and quick. I felt them tug me back, forcing my feet to move.

I stared right back at the man who I loved.

"I love you! Remember! They cannot take it!" I sobbed out, willing my last words to be true. But I knew that he wouldnt remember and after my procedire, neither would I.

Slowly, Thomas turned around to go on with his life. A life that would keep on going without me.

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its kinda short but im proud...

as i said this one shot was inspired by the book Delirium!!

ITS SOOOO GOOD

READ IT OF YOU CANT FIND ANYTHING ELSE TO READ (and ur a hopeless romantic like me)

have a good day and tanks for reading this!

~❤