One shots? {Jamilton}

Hibiscus {Jamilton} |Part 2|

"Just shut up and kiss me already!"

this is for snowy_macaroni_hoe cause we decided that she would give me a fluffy prompt and i would have to make it hella angsty (this isnt that angsty btw) and i would give her an angsty prompt and she would have to make it fluffy so go check her oneshot out!

enjoy!

animatic by mush roomie
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~Alex POV~

I was bored out of my mind. I hated this. Alot.

I slumped against my gravestone in frustration. I had tried to walk away from my grave site again and was unsuccessful. Again.

I could go as far as 5 feet away from the grave. Any step further and I would be stopped. It felt like walking into an invisible brick wall. I hated being dead.

I huffed in annoyance and checked my watch again.

10:26 am

Spending almost two years here was absolute torture. There was nothing to do except wait for Thomas or someone else to talk to me. I was bored out of my mind.

If only I hadnt crossed that street. Then I wouldnt have been hit. Then I would be alive. With Thomas. Probably cuddling him.

I sighed and smiled to myself as I remembered my husband. Thomas. I fiddled around with my ring as I watched the lake. I smiled softly, remembering the day that Thomas had kneeled down to ask me the question. It was one of the happiest moments fo my life. My heart ached at the thought of him.

As I sat there, memories of Thomas and me (or is it thomas and I?) flashed before my eyes. Laughing, singing, dancing, kissing, smiling. I wiped away a few tears.

Suddenly, I heard footsteps behind me. I spun around to see Thomas walking towards me, a bouquet of flowers in his hands. My heart soared. Today must have been Anniversary day. He only brought flowers on Anniversary day.

I checked my watch again.

10:36 am

He was late. Again.

As he came closer, I noticed that the flowers were hibiscuses, my favorite. Once, Thomas came within the five feet of my grave, I tackled him with a hug. He didnt flinch, blink, or even move. He just kept walking. It was as if I hadnt even hugged him in the first place.

I was used to this by now. Thomas would come and talk to me while I played with his hair and respond to whatever he was saying. He couldnt hear me, see me, or feel me, but it was comforting to be able to see him and spend sometime with him.

As he placed the bouquet in front of my gravestone and sat down, as knelt next to him.

"Hey Alex," he whispered softly. "How are you today?"

"I'm doing swell, Thomas. Considering that I'm six feet under right now," I said in a mocking tone and laughed. I knew he couldnt hear me but I just couldnt keep my mouth shut.

I could see that a small smile formed on Thomas' lips. Sometimes, I liked to think that he could hear what I said.

"The view is beautiful from here," he said in a soft tone and stared over at the lake nearby. I leaned on his shoulder and stared too.

"Heh, I know I'm late by..." he began to say said and lifted his arm to check his watch.

"Seven minutes," I said and rolled my eyes. That was the one thing I hated about him. He was always late.

"Seven minutes," He said and quietly laughed. He but his lip to prevent himself from crying but was unsuccessful. I could feel my eyes beginning to water too. Thomas cleared his throat and continued to talk.

"Everyone is doing good. Laf and Herc are still eating each other's faces constantly," he said, making both of us chuckle. "Peggy says 'Hi.' And- oh!" he started to wave his hands around excitedly. I loved it when he did that. He looked like a kid in a candy store.

"Peggy and John are expecting a baby! They're so cute together." Thomas said. "Oh! Maria and Liza are engaged now! I-It reminded me of the time I proposed to you," He continued.

At this point, tears were flowing freely down his cheeks, making my heart ache. This happened everytime he came here. And everytime, my heart would break. I hated seeing him like this...broken.

"Oh Thomas," I murmered and tried to wipe of the tears without any success. They still kept flowing down. "You know what happens when you come here. I wish you could just shut up and kiss me already!" I sobbed and began to cry too. For a few seconds, the sobs of me and Thomas were the only sounds in the graveyard. I put my forehead against his as he continued to talk.

"E-Everyone misses you...especially m-me."

"Thomas, I miss you even more," I whispered. I was taking deep, shuddering breaths to try and calm myself down.

"I-I know t-that you w-would want me to m-move on, but I c-cant! Everyday I think of y-you and I f-feel an ache i-in my heart," He sobs, his voice shaking. He hugged himself and dug his nails into his arms.

In an attempt to comfort him, I wrapped my arms around him and tried to pull him close. When he didnt react, i was reminded of how we were so close yet so far.

There wasnt even an inch between us, yet we were worlds apart.

His sobs faded down into sniffles and I heard him speak again.

"If i could kiss you right now..." He said, his voice shaky. He shook his head and smiled to himself. "I would be the happiest man in the world."

All of a sudden, without a thought, I leaned in and pressed my lips against his. I could feel the warmth of his lips, but I knew that he couldnt feel mine. But right now, that didnt matter to me.

I felt him close his eyes and smile into the kiss. I smiled and then pulled away, looking at his face. Hoping that he would magically be able to see me. His eyes fluttered open but he still wasnt able to see me. I sighed as he murmered words that made my heart soar.

"I love you," He whispered and sighed. As he got up, he stared at the gravestone again. I stood next to him and tip toed to reach his face.

"I love you too," I whispered sadly and then, he bagan to walk away.

I tried to follow him but once I had reached my five foot limit, I was instantly stopped. I could feel myself being yanked from Thomas as he kept walking. Without Thomas beside me, I felt bare and vulnerable. As I stared at him helplessly for a few minutes, I yelled his name.

"Thomas!"

The name echoed across the graveyard. I knew he wouldnt hear me but it was comforting to try. Unexpectedly, he stopped in his tracks and turned around. I felt a spark of hope ignite in me, hoping that Thomas would notice me. Hoping that he would see me.

After a few more seconds, he turned around and began to walk again.

I felt my hopes shatter as I dropped to my knees and hugged myself. I could feel hot tears rolling down my cheeks but I didnt bother to wipe them away. There was no one here to see me or hear me.

Soon, the graveyard was filled with the sound of broken sobs.
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hoped you liked this Jenna! hope your satisfied with this...

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