Howell (danxreader)

A/n

THIS IS NOT AN UPDATE!!
You can skip this if you want but it's basically about the a/n of the last chapter, I'll update the story either later tonight or tomorrow.
I want to start by thanking you for sticking with this book and even reading it in the first place, because honestly I think it shit but I guess I just judge what I do more than anyone else, and thank you for your comments, I love reading them and honestly a lot of the time they make me smile and laugh which is nice because I don't really do that much irl.
I had a comment on my a/n last chapter that actually made me cry because I'm that moment I felt alone and then seeing someone, who I don't know and who doesn't know me, tell me that's it's okay made me feel valued and it really did help me so thank you for that, also seeing that response from talking about my mental health made me feel as though getting help would be beneficial, but that it really difficult for me because my dad doesn't understand depression and anxiety and my mum cares to much an I don't want to make her feel as though she's failed in some way.
I have a friend a school who always says that I shouldn't say I'm depressed because I haven't been told by a doctor I have depression but I don't feel as though I need someone who doesn't know me to say I'm depressed because I know that I am, I'm the only one who truly know how I feel and it's the same with anxiety, I know I have anxiety because I know what anxiety is and that is how I feel, I get panic attacks, I feel like throwing up every time I have to do something even remotely important or social, so why do I need some stranger to tell me these things?  However, I'm starting to want to reach out and get help but it's such a strange thing to me because I've always been really independent and keep to myself because I feel like no one understands, which is stupid I know, I just wanted to talk about things that are happening in my head to people who don't know who I am and who I don't know and so that is what this is, again I'm sorry for this not being a new chapter, there will be one soon.
Thank you if you read all of this, thank you for reading this book, it means a lot to me,
See you soon.