Howell (danxreader)

Chapter 19

I heard a voice around me as I began to open my eyes, slowly my eyes opened and I saw the white room around me.
(I got to here before leaving for over an hour to listen to spooky scary skeletons on repeat because IM READY FOR HALLOWEEN)
"Y/n. Thank god I'll go get a nurse" it was Dan, why is Dan here? Why am I in hospital?
(It's been a full day since I wrote this, my god I'm terrible)
Dan came back into my room with a nurse
"Hello y/n, I'm nurse Clarke, I'm just going to ask you some questions about what happened and then once we've checked up on you, you will be free to go"
After the nurse had asked me all the questions she had, she left me and Dan alone.
"I tried phoning your parents but they said they were busy"  too busy for their daughter whose in hospital? Of course, I'm not as important as the jobs and their divorce arguments
"Why are you here?"
"What?"
"Why are you here Dan? You hate me, you were just pretending to like me, I'm an annoying princess with a crush on you. Isn't that what you said? Why are you here?" I could feel my eyes filling with tears as I spoke to Dan
"I'm sorry y/n"
"Your sorry?" All Dan did was nod "your sorry? That's it, you really hurt me Dan, you took everything that I have told you about my life that makes me feel so alone and you used that to make me feel more alone than I've ever felt in my life, you made me feel so worthless and made me question why I was still living. And all you say is your sorry? The worst part about what you said is that it's all true, please just leave, I don't want to annoy you anymore" the tears had started to fall down my cheeks
"No"
"Excuse me?"
"Your wrong y/n, what I said, it's not true, I don't hate you, you don't annoy me, y/n, none of that is true, I can't hate you, you aren't the only one with a crush"
"What? Why would you do that if none of it was true?"
"Chris, he threatened to hurt you and I thought I'd be protecting you but I just ended up hurting you more and I've never felt so guilty about anything, after I saw how what I said affected you I stood up to Chris, which didn't work very well, but he doesn't matter anymore"
"He hurt you, didn't he?"
"Yes, but it's okay, I deserved it for what I did to you"
"You don't deserve to get hurt Dan"
"I do, because I made the one person in my life feel like she had no one and possibly caused her to end up laying in a hospital bed thinking that I hate her, that means I deserved to get punched in the face"
My mind was racing, full of different thoughts, all muddled up and confusing, I just needed sleep
"Dan, I cant keep talking about this right now, I just need to sleep, I'll call you when I get home"
"Call me when your told you can leave here, I'll drive you home. Please" I just nodded and watched as Dan walked out of the room, tears filling my eyes again.

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