positive • jenzie

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❝The reality is some people mess up. Don't let one mistake ruin a beautiful thing.❞
- Unknown

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Dedicated to WitheringMoonlight because her book scarred is amazing. I've said this before, but i think it's the best book I've ever read on wattpad. The author really has a beautiful way with words and the plot line is so original– I've never read about a mute girl before! I started crying in chapter 6, and throughout the whole book I was a blubbering mess as I felt incredibly bad for the main character, Kenzie, and I really wanted her to get better. I can't relate to Kenzie because of the fact that she was physically abused but I get verbally abused at home and I can only imagine the pain she went through. This was also one of those books that makes you think twice about what you do and say to people.
So like I've said, this book is beautiful, and deserves 100,000 reads because of it's amazingness. If you would like a book to read in between my chapters, read scarred by WitheringMoonlight , you won't regret it xoxox

Edit: The books gone, but that doesn't mean I don't love it. Forever proud of you Ash WitheringMoonlight . You won't see this but I thought I'd let you know I still love you <3

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Mackenzie Ziegler

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You know how sometimes your mind just blesses you with random thoughts? Like hey, that guy is really hot, or today, I'm going to wear a lacy bra, or maybe even something along the lines of man, my best friend looks extremely cute today?

Well this morning, I had one of those thoughts.

While in the shower, I got around to thinking about how unfair it is that girls get periods, and boys don't. Weird right?

Well the next part was weirder.

I realised consequently, and all at the same time, that I haven't had my period in months, that I have a stomach that looks distinctly like a baby bump, and that I've had unprotected sex before.

Freaking myself out, I rinsed out my hair and shut the shower door behind me. Cold air bit at my skin, but I didn't notice with the thoughts that were racing through my mind. Scared of what I'd see in our mirror, I looked– and I did have a round stomach.

Throwing on a shirt, I ran into my room and flung open my calendar. With my heart beating wildly in my chest, I notice that the last time I had my period was months ago.

I put my head in my hands and collapse onto the floor, wet hair straggling around my face. How could I have been so careless?

I'll need to take a test– definitely.

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I sit on the cool tiles of my bathroom floor and sigh nervously. My hands begin to shake, many different things are plaguing my thoughts.

What if I am pregnant?

What if there is a baby growing inside of me?

Closing my eyes with a sigh and whispering to myself, I finally gain the courage to stand and pick up the box which is resting on our gleaming white counter.

Pregnancy test It reads.

My denim skirt dropping onto the floor echoes throughout the bathroom, and I pick up the box in one hand, slipping my panties down with the other.

Biting my lip, I take the test and sit carefully on the toilet seat, following the direction exactly. My hands shake again as I place the test back onto the counter.

Two minutes.

Two minutes until my life could change forever.

My heartbeat begins to race.

Hastily, I reach for my skirt from my position and fasten the buttons and zipper. I tie my hair in a messy bun, breathing in and out through my mouth.

I'm desperate for the test to be negative, but after the two minutes of torture I take a peek and realise that's not the result.

It's positive.

I can't be pregnant, I'm only seventeen!

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Qotd: has anyone in your family had a baby that you remember?
Aotd: not really hehe, i'm like the oldest 😂

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