TORN//Derek Luh

Chapter 8

Song for this chapter. 

-Derek's POV-

Her voice was beautiful. None of us had ever heard her sing before. It was angelic. It was sweet, and something about it made me feel some type of way.

It had me all giddy inside. A feeling that I have never felt from her before, it was so foreign yet something I took a liking to. It had been a magical feeling.

You see, for about a year now I have had feelings for Nivea but I know for a fact that she doesn't feel the same way. Nivea had always had this effect on me, but I know that she would never feel the same for me.

So I got with LeLe to try and move on from her. I will always see her as the love of my life that I will never get to have, yet I want her so bad. I'm afraid of loving her.

I don't want to hurt her. My biggest fear is seeing her hurt. After we applaud her singing she looks at us weird then disappears upstairs. I could see the pain in her eyes.

I decide to wave it off although she has been acting strange lately. 

"Well that was weird. Guys she is acting really weird." Taylor points out. 

"Ya think. I'm becoming really worried. She keeps telling us that she is fine but I know better. She is not the Nivea we love and know. She is changing. Clearly work is taking a toll on her." I say. 

"She hasn't showed up to work in like 3 days." Stassie says. 

"What. Why?"

"There's been some things going on." Ana says. 

"Like what. Talk to us, this could be bad." Skate pleads. Soon we hear music blasting. 

"Some of our coworkers have been really rude to her and calling her names. We have stood up for her over and over again. She claims she's okay but I don't think she is." Lele says.

"I'll be right back." I say running upstairs. I barge through Nivea's door but she isn't in her room. I open her bathroom door to see her out cold on the floor. Blood is pouring from her wrists. I shut off the music and scream for Skate. 

"SKATE!!!! HELP!!!" I scream. I hear a stampede of footsteps up the stairs. 

"Bro what's up?" He asks. I scoop her up into my arms. 

"We gotta get her to the hospital right now. Let's go!" I say. We rush downstairs to the car and get her to the hospital. 

"Help please. My friend is hurt. She is unconscious and lost a lot of blood." I cry out. A couple nurses get her on a stretcher and rush her to a room. 

We wait in the waiting room. 

"She never does that. She has really hit her point Skate. I feel like we have something to do with it." I say. 

"Hey man, it's not our fault. It's those bitches from the modeling academy." He says pulling me in for a hug. 

"No bro. Last night when ya'll came back from wherever, she went out on the balcony I heard her talking to her mom. She said that she fell in love with me and that she was jealous of Lele because she will see sides of me that Nivea will never see. She talked about how much she loved me and I really feel like this is my fault because she loves me but she's afraid it would be awkward. And the worst part is she put herself down. She said Lele was this perfect girl with perky boobs and ass. She said that Lele had a model ready body but compared to Lele, she looked like a potato. Dude she is hurting all because of me and Colby. She said that she was scared I'd hurt her like Colby did, but she thinks that I wouldn't even look at her the way she looks at me, and-" 

"Mr. Luh? Mr. Maloley? Your friend Ms. William's is awake." The Doctor says. 

"Can we see her?" 

"Yes." He says walking away. I barge into the room. Skate and I are at her side tightly squeezing her hands. She looks exhausted. 

Her eyes are red and puffy. Her face is pale. She looks lifeless even though she isn't.

"Why?" Is all I can manage to croak out. I begin to cry like a baby because I know she is hurting. 

"I was being stupid, I guess I had just hit my breaking point. I was afraid to talk to you because you have just recently gotten girlfriends and I didn't want to pull you away to talk about my issues. You guys looked so happy, and I wanted you to stay that way." She says a tear rolling from her eye. 

I quickly wipe it away. 

"Priorities first lil mama. That means you come first no matter what." Skate says. 

"I don't know I guess I thought I could deal with my problems going on, by myself. Clearly, that backfired. I don't want to depend on people to listen to me all day, because what happens when you aren't there, then what? I could die." She cries. 

"Hey, we have been there for you since we were all little. It won't stop now. If you are hurting, tell us babygirl. Don't do this. You haven't done it for 3 years. Don't let the same thing happened 3 years ago happen again. We almost lost you ma. It's not okay."

"Okay."