TORN//Derek Luh

Chapter 22

-Nivea's POV-

I am shook awake by Madison. "Hey we are about to land. Put your seat belt on." She says. I nod and sit up. I quickly put it on.

"Where's JJ?" I ask.

"He went to the bathroom." She says. I nod. About 5 minutes later JJ sits back in his seat and puts his seat belt on.

We land about 20 minutes later. We get off the plane, go through the baggage claim then get in an Uber.

"Hey Princess, the company said that both of your cars should be here in a couple days." JJ says. I nod tiredly.

"You've never been on a plane before have you?"

"Yeah once besides today but I am jet lagged like crazy." I say laying my head on his shoulder.

"Don't pass out on me yet love. We are about to the house." He says.

"Okay." I yawn. I have never been this tired before in my life, and the crazy thing is I slept the whole flight here. Which was like 7 hours. I feel like I could sleep another 2 days.

Felix squeezes my shoulder. "You're going to love New York Nivea. I promise you that. I'm from here and I sure missed it. It's nice to be here again." He says.

"Well you could give us all a tour." I suggest.

"I would love to do that. How about this weekend?"

"Yes please." Jack says.

-11 months later-

-Ana's POV-

It's been 11 months since the Jacks, Madison and Nivea have left. 11 whole months. They facetime us once a week but its just not the same.

Skate and Derek are not the same people. Skate was right when he said that if Nivea left all of us would fall, because she was the foundation that held us together.

Skate and Derek are never wanting to party, get high, drink, go to the beach or anything. They are both losing weight because they don't eat right now, and they are either in their rooms or in the studio.

It's killing us to see them like this. They really miss Nivea and she is out doing her thing. I'm sure she can tell they aren't well but she wants to stop living in their shadows. I get that but maybe she should have stayed.

I know she loves JJ but I don't think that it was a good idea to leave home. These boys need her and I know when it comes to them she'll choose them over everyone including her career if it means they have beating hearts at the end of the day.

I roll over to see Skate still sleeping. He's at peace this way.

I sigh, and quietly remove myself from the bed. I take a quick shower then go check on Derek. Lele left to NY also to visit her family 6 months ago because her mom got sick. So I have been taking on the role of making sure these boys are okay.

I can see the stress that Nivea had because both of these guys are a handful after awhile but I love them unconditionally like she does.

I walk inside his room to see his face covered in tears. "Derek what's wrong?"

"I can't take it anymore. I can't take the fact she is there with JJ. God dammit Ana I love Nivea and I was so stupid for not telling her how I felt before she left. Maybe, just maybe if I would've told her she'd still be here. Skate and I are falling into a deep hole because our best friend isn't here to pull us out. I'm so depressed by her absence I did this to myself to feel better!!" He screams pulling his sleeves up.

Fresh bloody cuts line his wrists. My hand covers my mouth as I feel tears.

"I need her now Ana." He says crying.