"Good morning Princess!" I hear Baby J say. I smile at his nickname he gave me. I have been out of the hospital for about 2 months now. Things are going pretty well. I have been singing alot. I actually got signed by Epitaph Records last week so I can start making music.
Derek told me a week after I was released that he knew I was in love with him. He said he heard me talking to my mom that night.
He told me he didn't feel the same because he loves Lele. I learned to accept it though. I didn't really worry that much because JJ has been a pretty good distraction. We hang out 24/7 now and we stay at each others houses.
Nothing is awkward between us though so that's a bonus.
"Good morning Baby J." I smile. He hugs me. His hair is sticking up all over the place, and his blue eyes are bright this morning.
I hug him back then he hands me a plate of bacon, eggs, and toast.
"Eat up. Derek wants us to come into the studio. He wanted to talk to me and Jack about a new song. You're coming too." He says grabbing a plate for himself. He gives me a glass of orange juice.
We eat and talk about whatever comes to mind. I haven't really seen much of the others because they are always in the studio, or they are with their ladies so to say that I am excited is an understatement.
I miss my boys especially Derek and Skate. I throw on a pair of Buckle jeans, my black Vans, A Jack Johnson jersey and Derek's favorite hoodie I wore when I left the hospital. I have been wearing it alot lately because I miss hanging out with him.
I think JJ has noticed because he asking me to go to the studio with him. I throw my hair up in a ponytail then grab my phone and keys.
"Let's take my car." I say smiling.
"Okay but I drive." He says.
"Okay." I agree. JJ opens my door for me then we head off to the studio. I have only been to Derek's recording studio once.
"You look really pretty today Princess." JJ says as he parks the car. I smile.
"Thanks Baby J." I smile.
"I mean you always look gorgeous though. Just thought I would remind you." He says.
For the past 2 months JJ constantly reminds me how beautiful I am because of the incident. I won't lie though, I do enjoy it. Derek and Skate constantly used to do that too after it happened 3 years ago.
I suppose I should explain that story to you sometime too but for now I want to be happy. That story will be a sad one.
Anywho, JJ opens my door for me. I get out and politely thank him. He is such a gentlemen. Whoever he gets with will be the luckiest girl in the world. He will take care of her as long as she returns the favor.
We walk into the studio. "Hello, may I help you?" A secretary asks.
"We are here to see Mr. Luh." JJ says.
"Your name?"
"JJ." He says.
She gets on the phone.
"Mr. Luh will see you now." The lady says.
"Baby J. Does he know that I am coming?"
"No. It's a surprise actually. None of them know."
"Why?"
"Because him and Skate are complaining 24/7 that you are never around. I told them maybe because their heads are up Lele and Ana's asses or in the studio 24/7 so you can't ever come see them."
"Oh."
"I know all of you miss each other. You miss them more than anyone understands. Here's how I know, You wear Derek's hoodie all the time because it smells like him. I know you're in love with him. I can see it when we speak about him or when you see him your whole world just lights up."
I sigh. "Yeah, well he is the only one that knows. Besides you. He knows but he loves Lele not me. I can't make him love me, and I won't ever attempt it either. We haven't spoken since the day he confronted me about it. He's been drowning himself in work, or his relationship. I have accepted the fact that he is happy. As long as he's happy, I am too. To be completely honest with you though, since they are moving onto greater things in life I should be too, in which I actually am." I smile.
"He loves you, everybody knows that. You're just too blind to see it." He says. We arrive at the top floor. He leads me to the end of the hall.
I hear talking and laughing as well as music in the room.
"This is the studio, don't worry they will be really happy to see you." He says squeezing my hand. He puts my hood up over my head. "Keep your head down. I will sit at the table and when I cough you take the hood off." I nod.
I take a deep breath and follow him inside. They all greet JJ.
"Who's this bro? You finally get a girl?" Derek asks. God his voice I missed it so much.
"She's just a friend." He says. "She's kind of shy though." He sits at the table.
He then coughs. I lift my head and take off my hood smiling at them.
"Holy fuck, Nivea?" Jack asks. I chuckle.
"In the flesh Gilinsky." I smile.
"Babygirl!" Derek says getting back up from the table and hugging me tightly.
"You look different. You've got a glow?" Skate says hugging me too.
"Eh, life's just getting better." I say.
"How so? JJ told us you have been singing alot lately. You get signed by anyone yet? Work any better for you?" Sammy asks. I look at JJ who doesn't know what I'm about to say.
"I got signed by Epitaph Records last week."
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