Strong Enough 2

Chapter 8

One month.

It's been one month since I've spoken to Tai. One month without seeing his smile or hearing his laugh. One month since he's held me in his arms while I listen to his heartbeat. One month without feeling his warm lips on mine. One month without happiness...

I miss him...a lot and it hurts so much. He hasn't stopped calling or texting, in fact, he hasn't gone a day without calling and texting me telling me how much I mean to him and how sorry he is. I want to give in. I want to forgive him, but I'm still not over this.

I know that I should try to be, but I'm not. It may not even be that I can't forgive him, I just don't want to be hurt again, and I don't know if I can trust him again. I hear a knock on my bedroom door and get up to open it.

When I open the door, I see my two best friends. A part of me is happy to see them, but another part is slightly disappointed that it's not Tai.

"Hey," they both say simultaneously. They step closer, hold me tight, and give me a hug that I so desperately needed.

"So how you feeling?" Gabby asks as we all sit in a small circle on the floor. "I feel like crap," I tell her. She gives me a sympathetic smile.

"It's gonna be okay," Marlon says, rubbing my back. "But I think you two should make-up already."

"Yeah, you two belong together," Gabby chimes in. "And Ronnie told me that he's literally been dying without you."

I know that he's been miserable without me. I've been miserable too. Maybe we should make-up, or I should at least talk to him.

I hang out with Gabby and Marlon for a few hours until it gets late and they have to leave. After they're gone, I find myself pacing back and forth across my room. Should I go talk to him? We kinda need to talk and I miss him. I grab my phone and stare at his name on my screen, debating whether or not I should ask him to come over. I receive a text from him, like I have every day, but this time I decide to read it.

*Mya I just want to tell that I'm an idiot. I'm an idiot for hurting you and I've lost the best thing that's ever happened to me. I screwed up but I hope that you can forgive me. This message is gonna be corny as hell but its the only way I can tell you how I feel right now. I love you Mya. No other girl on this earth can make me feel the way you do. I'm sorry for overreacting about the Rico thing. I should have never went back to that place and I shouldn't have been with that girl. I didn't sleep with her, but I'll be honest, I did kiss her. I don't fully remember it but I know it could never compare to the feeling I get when I kiss you. And when she touched me, I couldn't help but get sick to my stomach. She and any other girl out there will never be you. All I want is you Mya. All I'll ever want is you. Just know that you mean the world to me and I love you with all my heart and I know I probably don't deserve it, but I need your forgiveness. I need to be with you again. I need you so my life can be complete again.*