Wishing for Sunshine [the sequel]

Chapter 10

Danny POV

I'm standing at the nurse's station kicking myself for letting that man go back there and see Emily.

Why? Why did I let his words get to me? Why did I let him get in my head? Why did I let him walk into that room knowing how emotionally fragile she is right now.

"I'm so stupid!" I mentally shout at myself.

No matter how much I'm trying to keep her safe and happy, I just keep messing up. I don't deserve her and everyone knows this, yet she still keeps me around and tells me that I'm the only one she loves.

As I'm standing at there Jacob comes up to me. "You didn't have to let him go and see her Daniel." He said and by his tone he was upset and disappointed.

Yeah well who isn't upset and disappointed in me?

I shake my head and just rub my face trying to figure out what emotion I'm feeling and want to experience and express right now.

"Jacob, I might have lost her to him right now but I had to give him the okay to go and see Emily." I tell him and I hate myself for letting it happen but I just had too.

"What? Why?"

"Jacob, Mark is right about how I can't keep people from seeing her just because I'm her husband. I just know that he does care about Emily and he knows so much about her that I will never be able to connect with her on those levels. Maybe seeing Mark can help her or ruin me, who knows? I just won't stand in the way of true happiness." I said and turned my attention back to the nurse that was waiting on me.

I was about to ask the nurse about the paperwork when a felt my self turning around.

"You are wanting him to sweep her of her feet and fall back in love with him. You want Mark to be her hero." He said to me and for once Jacob had a backbone.

"Why would I want that?" I snapped at him.

Who in the world would want that? He's crazy! He doesn't understand and I hope that he never has to go through what I'm facing right now.

"You can't handle that Emily got hurt and nearly died. You are pushing her and everyone you love away from yourself so no more harm comes to anyone else." He said and before I could speak he held up his hand and finished his little speech. "You are going to lose her by being distant and trying to save her from everything instead of telling her everything." Then he left and went back to where Ava and Collin were siting.

Jacob is wrong! I'm not pushing anyone away from me. I'm not trying to be the martyr and lose everything I love and now living for in this life. Who the hell does he think he is to speak to me like that!

Just then I feel a tapping on my shoulder. I quickly turn back around and it's the nurse that's been patiently waiting on me.

"Mr. Rhiner, you needed something?"

"Um yeah, I dropped off some paperwork about transferring rooms for my wife earlier today."

I she looks through a pile of papers till she pulls out some forms. "Ah yes here it is! Was there something wrong or you had questions about?" She questioned me while looking over the paperwork.

"Um yeah I had a questioned."

"Yes?"

"I just wanted to know if I filled it out right. And if there was any way I could know now if she will be transferred and when it will take place."

She looked over the paperwork again reading it top to bottom and hell maybe even backwards and forwards before looking back at me. "Yes, you did fill it out properly and fully. But the actual granting of this request is up to her primary doctor here in the hospital. Then if it's granted I can put a note to notified you on which room it will be and what day and time it will happen so you can be here, that is if you would like me too."