Earth 90 - Supercorp

Wasn't Expecting That

"J'onn, come back here now!" I ordered, trying to sound tough but I was actually scared. J'onn had just scolded me and then tried to walk away without letting me have any input. He turned and stared at me.

"What?" He yelled.

"J'onn, I am sorry. I really am. I was too held up in the moment that I forgot to let you know. I am honestly really and truly sorry." I said in the most sincere way possible.

"You kept a massive secret from me, I look at you two as daughters. When I found out that you two had been keeping the fact that Alex was alive from me..." He glared at me, turning and walking off. I heard him mumble "I wasn't expecting that!"

Back at my apartment, Lena was waiting for me. I gasped as I opened the door to a room full of flowers and a Lena Luthor standing in lingerie. 

"What is this?" I said, slowly making my way to Lena.

"Just a welcome back, or happy earth birthday, or I love you, or..."

"Or what?"

"Or just me wanting to surprise you!" She lurched at me, kissing me more passionately than ever. Since Mon-El and my breakup right after coming home from Earth 38, Lena was there for me. It wasn't long before we became a... thing. Alex and I often spoke about our girlfriends at sister night, about what we loved about them or if they were getting on our nerves. It was a nice bonding thing, we weren't as close as we used to be.

"Kara, what's up?" Lena pulled away, I should my head and mouthed the words 'nothing'. She kissed me again, putting enough force into it to push me to the floor. Luckily I had my powers and I pushed back, making her the one on the bottom.

I woke to the sound of Lena screaming. I opened my eyes immediately and saw my girlfriend thrashing around in her sleep. "Nightmare!' I thought.

"Lena, wake up." I tried every method I could think of and after about 4 minutes of trying, I finally got her to open her eyes.

"Kara, what's going on?"

"You were thrashing around and screaming as if you were having a nightmare."

"It's okay, it was just a bad dream."

"Aren't I supposed to be the one saying that to you?"

Lena POV

I was sitting at my desk, thinking about last night. I'd had... a really nice time... with Kara, then had a night terror in my sleep. If Kara wasn't indestructible I probably would have hurt her, scary to think about.

"Miss Luthor?" I looked up at my assistant.

"Yes?"

"You have a visitor..." She walked forward slightly, revealing my mother holding a gun to her head.

"Mother..." I could barely speak. How in the world is Lillian alive? Probably the same way Alex is, science mixed with fate.

"Looks like Kara is going to have to try a lot harder to kill me."

"What? You killed yourself, Kara had nothing to do with it."

"Well, on this earth she didn't..." She smiled and let my secretary go, who ran into the hallway immediately, probably calling 911.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"Kara went to Earth 38 and took out her revenge on me there. Supergirl hit me until I was almost dead and then left me alone, thinking I was."

"She tried to kill you?"

"Yeah, I thought she..." Supergirl crashed through the window and disarmed Lillian, cuffing her and throwing her to the ground.

"Are you okay?" She looked at me innocently.

"Physically, yes." I paused to see if she would get my drift. I saw something click behind her cold eyes, the ones I had previously longed for. I didn't know whether I still felt the same way after finding this out.

"She told you..." A tear fell on Kara's left cheek. 

(At the DEO)

I was breathing heavily, anger was boiling up inside of me. I was about to crack, I could feel it. Kara followed me around, trying to explain but I couldn't hear it. All I could hear was the rage in my heart and the strong beating as I burst into the room that held my mother.

"Lena!" I turned just before I went through the doors.

"What? Are you going to lie to me again? What is with you and keeping secrets? I understood the thing about Supergirl, that made sense. But with Alex, the Arakmuraya, killing my mother!" I had raised my voice to the top of my lungs, not caring if anyone heard.

"Lena, I had very good reasons with all of those things and you know it." Her voice at the start of the sentence was her usual self. By the end of it though, it was filled with anger and defeat.

"You had no right to hide Alex from us for the first two weeks, you had no right not to tell me about your cancer and you had no right to kill my mother!" I stormed off, ignoring her yelling behind me. I couldn't bear to look back so I left before I could change my mind.

Kara POV

It was official. Everyone in my life I hurt. Alex had died because of me. Mon-El got permanently injured because I wasn't on this Earth to stop it. I had lied to everyone about so many things, J'onn and Lena the most. The only person I could trust at this time was Cat Grant. I made my way to her office and broke down into tears the moment I saw her.

"Kara, what is going on?" I looked at her with a blank expression, trying to figure out why she had called me Kara while I was wearing my Supergirl costume. "Oh, c'mon. You really thought you could hide your identity from me?"

"That's true!" I said through tears and forced out a giggle, which made me feel worse because I thought of when Lena from Earth 38 had told me that Kara and my giggle was one of the cutest things she had heard.

"So tell me, why is the girl of steel crying on my balcony?"

"I hurt everyone I get close to. Being invulnerable physically leaves me and no-one else left in the world that I trust. You are literally the only person on this planet that doesn't hate me right now."

"What about all of those people out there that love Supergirl? All those people you spread hope to?"

"I am talking about Kara Danvers. People obviously love Supergirl, she is a Superhero. She saves people and spreads love and positivity. But right now, Kara Danvers is broken and I can't help people if I am broken." Another few tears fell from my eyes and down onto the streets below.

"Look, you don't get to give up. You have to get up and continue fighting, as Supergirl and Kara Danvers! You aren't broken, Kara, you are strong. If you were broken, you wouldn't recognise that you are broken." I laughed, it made me think of how crazy people don't know they are crazy.

"Miss Grant, you give the absolute best advice."

"I try," she gave me a hug, "haven't you got people to help?"

"Up, up and away!" I flew into the air and used my hearing to search for anyone in trouble. I saved about three dozen people by the time it was time for me to go back to my apartment. Until now I hadn't remembered what had Lena left there, I broke down again when I flew through the window and saw Lena's lingerie on the ground surrounded by the flowers.