DJ's POV
1 month. 4 weeks. 28 days.
Ganyan na katagal simula nung nawala si Kath..
Simula ng mawalang saysay ang buhay ko..
Simula ng sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon..
Kathryn, kung nasan ka man.. Mahal na mahal kita..
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Kath's POV
I'm not that dumb to end up my life.. I just needed time and space.
Away from all of them, the problems, the bullshits.
Hey, I didn't change. Ako pa rin si Kathryn
na nanay ni Drake..
na kaibigan nina Jules..
na mahal si DJ.
4 weeks ago, I decided to fly back here in US. So much memories pero wala ng makakatalo pa sa ginawa ni DJ.
Yes, I have forgiven them. All of them. Mahal ko sila e..
Now, I'm just having a hard time forgetting what they've done.
Easy to forgive but very hard to forget.
They knew that I'm here. I'm with my son.. Repeat scenario isn't it?
Bago ako umalis, kinuha ko si Drake nung gabing yon. He's so happy that finally I'm with him. Pero, syempre hahanapin nya rin ang tatay nya..
Explain, excuses, explain.. Ganun lang ang ginawa ko.
Pero never kong siniraan si DJ sa kanya. I just said that may ginagawa lang siyang importante.
Naintindihan nila lahat ang ginawa ko. They say sorry through social, phone, messages..
Guess what? DJ never asked for my forgiveness..
I don't know.
Yung status ko ngayon? Tanga-tangahan ba.
Hindi yung dating Kathryn na maldita, bitter, walang pakielam..
Let's just say na nakakamanhid yung saket.
Yung tipong ayaw mo ng lumaban dyan sa pag-ibig na yan.
Yung ayaw mo ng masaktan.
Yung pagod ka ng umintinde.
Yung wala ka naman palang ipaglalaban..
Kaya nga nagpatawad nako e, para kahit papano mabawasan yung sakit na nararamdaman ko..
All I want was to get that pain away.
Ni hindi ko nga alam kung babalik ako ng Pilipinas e..
Iniisip ko lang yung anak ko, kailangan nya rin ng tatay..
"Mama!"
"Anak, be careful.."
Tumatakbo kasi siya pababa ng hagdanan. Nasa garden ako..
Wala ako sa bahay ni Albie.
Tanda nyo nung umalis ako after iniwan ako ni DJ? Yung bahay kung saan ako umiyak kay Ate Roanna?
Andito ako.
"Mama, are you okay?"
"Yes, baby. You hungry na?"
Ganyan sya. Kusang lumalapit saken pag gutom na siya.
"Yea, and I kinda like McDo for dinner."
"Oh sure.. Let's go.."
Ang baby ko.. Laki na. 5 years old na siya..
Unti-unti niya ng malalaman ang mga bagay-bagay.. Hay.
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Andito na kami sa McDo. Di naman masyadong malayo..
Si Drake nasa playground, ako kasi mago'order pa. Ang haba pa naman ng pila tsk.
Nahagip naman ng mata ko yung couples dun sa sulok. Yea they're Filipinos.
Ang sweet nila. Parang kami ni DJ dati. Ang hilig kasi naming mag'date sa McDo nun e.
Sa wakas, naka'order na rin ako. Tinawag ko si Drake and we started to eat.
"Mama, when will I see Papa again?"
Di ko alam san nya nakuha yung Papa pero pagkabalik ko, yun na yung tawag nya kay DJ.
"Don't worry Baby, soon you will see him again okay?"
"Okay.."
"Uhm anak? Can I ask?"
"Po?"
"Bakit Papa na ang tawag mo kay Daddy?"
"Cause I call you Mama.. So Dad should be Papa."
"But you call us Mommy and Daddy right?"
"I just thought that Mommy & Daddy are just for babies or for girls. And I'm not one of them. And my Titos & Titas said that it is more cool because I'm a boy.."
Hay, ang anak koo..
"Drake, even when you grow up.. You're still my one and only baby.."
"No Mama. I can be your baby all the time but I'm not the one and only.. You still have baby girl in your tummy."
Okay.. I'm pregnant. About the gender, Drake was expecting it's a girl so he's calling the baby, baby girl.
6 weeks. Made in the USA pa to. Tsk. Syempre, I just knew it nung andito na kami ni Drake. Morning sickness, foods, the way I smell..
Now tell me, can I raise this two kids of ours without their father?
Sheez, Drake is just only 5. Tapos ako lang mag-isa dito and I'm pregnant. Hay..
"Mama? Aren't you happy that were gonna have another baby?"
"Of course I'm happy. Super happy that I'm with my two angels.."
"Do you miss Papa? I miss him.."
"Yes I do.. But baby, konti nalang okay? We'll see your Papa again.."
I kissed his forehead and continue eating..
I can do this for my children.. They deserve a complete family.
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Kahit makumpleto lang kame, gagawin ko lahat.. basta mabuo lang ulet ang pamilya namen..
