Life as a Secret *lesbian Story*

19

*Spencer's POV*

"Hanna, we can't" I sighed, removing my hands from her jeans.

I heard her groan as I stepped away from her. 

"You're a bitch" Hanna grumbled, buttoning her jeans back up. 

"Why? Because I wouldn't make you moan?" I asked, scrunching my face up in confusion, running my hand through my hair.

"Because you made me wet then left me to suffer" She grumbled and I started to feel bad, not because I made her wet and left her hanging, but because  I wasn't wet at all. 

She went to stay something, but instead she just started walking away.

I ran my fingers through my hair, fixing my shirt before walking back over towards Lexi, seeing her trying to roast a marshmallow.

"Working well?" I questioned, crouching down next to her.

"They keep falling off" She frowned and I giggled, grabbing a stick and a marshmallow before sticking it into the fire.  

"Well maybe if you don't stick the stick down so it melts off, you'd be able to eat one" I giggled, tilting her stick up more. 

"Why you gotta be so good at this?" She grumbled, seeing that what I said was working.

"22 years of practice" I winked making her roll her eyes.

I saw Hanna and she sat down next to Porter, not making eye contact.

I just sighed.

I stuck next to the 9 year old the rest of the night, knowing no one else here that was around me. 

On our way Home, Hanna sat up front, clearly to not be next to me. 

We arrived at Adriana's house and she wanted me to stay over but Hanna clearly didn't.

I sighed before telling her goodbye. 

I made it home, checking my messages. 

I saw the breeder sent me a photo and I smiled immediately

[Got his last checkup before you pick him up!]

A week passed and it came to the day I get to go pick up my puppy. 

A/N: If you wanna see his (puppy) insta, its under casting :) 

*THIS IS NOT MY DOG!* 

I haven't heard from Hanna since that night and to be honest, it was slightly annoying me.

I saw a message from Demi and my stomach got the butterfly feelings. 

[Hey, I'm in cali. I have to go see my parents tonight, but do you want to hang out tomorrow?]

[uh . . . this is really bad timing]

[oh]

[I'd love to hang out with you, Just I am picking up my new puppy today and it'll be first full day tomorrow with him]

[Oh. Okay]

[You seem upset]

[I've been upset all month. Nothing new :) ]

[Wanna come get my new puppy with me? I could use some company on the drive :) ]

[Don't pitty me]

[I'm not pitting you, I'm just being friendly]

[Oh, friendly]

[Yup!]

[I'll pass] 

[YOU ARE COMING BECAUSE I NEED COMPENY AND YOU'RE ALL SAD AND SHIT!]

[I got my puppies i'm good]

[You frustrate me]

[I get that a lot]

I sighed.

First she wants to hang out and now she doesn't.

Maybe she doesn't like me . . .

Maybe I'm just way to into my head.

She clearly wants nothing to do with me, so obviously I'm just being my silly self.

I turned down Hanna because I felt nothing and I got rejected by Demi, because I felt everything.

@ddlovato: It's okay to take a break, when you physically break down. 

I read her caption and immediately felt sad. 

I shoved that sadness down as I got into the car to go get my new puppy.

Hopefully this puppy will love me, unlike everyone else. 

I made the three hour drive that morning to the breeder's house and when I made it, I was shaking.

I was so excided yet nervous.

I knocked on the door and I heard all the barks and a smile came to my face. 

She opened the door and let me into her home.

We talked for a while, since the Puppy was eating.

When she brought him out I about cried.

"My baby boy" I smiled, seeing his small little wobbly body.

I sat on the ground and the he attacked me playfully, making me giggle.

I left two hours later with Oliver, and I felt content.

I'd feel perfect if Demi was by me, but that didn't seem to by happening anytime soon, so I was content. 

Oliver did good in the car, which I was glad about seeing how a lot of puppies don't of the best at long care rides for the first time. 

Oliver used the potty outside, making me feel like a proud mom.

I walked into my apartment with Oliver and that proud mom moment was over when he walked onto my carpet and piddled right in the middle of it.

"So it begins" I sighed, running after Oliver to correct his potty behavior, before cleaning up his puppy piddle.

(I mean piddle, not puddle!)

Written on: 11 / 13 -  14 / 17 

Published on: 11 / 15 / 17

Word Count: 859

Those who are curious, they officially talk in chapter 21 so please stop pming me about it, thank you (: