Not Just Perfect

Pills

I grabbed the pills and slid against the wall. My dog looked at me, as if he actually knew what was going on. He began to bark. "I-I m-meant it... When I-I said I-I couldn't l-live witho-out h-her." I stuttered. He just barked again. I looked down at the pill bottle. I sucked up my tears for a moment. "Alex, I can't live without you... Your the reason I'm here today. You know how my fans say, 'I save their lives'? Well that's how I feel towards you... I'm ganna miss the boys. Matt, you were hilarious and you always had a smile on your face. Taylor, you are obnoxious, but hey man I love you. Aaron your so sweet and always think about others. Carter, your so funny and so is your mom! I love your vines, they always put me in a good mood! Shawn, you have the voice of an angle, and your one of the sweetest people I know. Jack's, you can be a pain but overall I love you guys and you always make me laugh. Jacob, bro we never grew really close, but your an amazing singer. Hayes, your like a little brother to me.

Best for last. Nash, your my favorite by far, buddy. You except me for who I am and I wouldn't be where I am today without you...but now I have to end it. I have to end where I am today, because Alex is the only person I've ever truly loved...I'll miss my fans too.." I laughed at myself, for being so stupid. Why was I talking to myself?

I started to poor the pills into my hand. I then began to sob again. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do this. I can't live without her though. I cried even harder.

{ Alex's perspective }

As I arrived at my house I sat on my bed. I felt bad about what I had done, but I couldn't help it. I looked across my room to see a pair of shorts on the floor, but something was in the pocket. It was a note. I opened it. It was from me, to Cameron. I began to read it out loud. "Dear Cam, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. You are absolutely perfect. I will never really know why you picked me, but I'm so glad you did. These last two months have been the best months of my life. I can't describe how much I love you... It's weird because I don't like to share my feelings or cry, but I've cried and spilled out my emotions to you plenty of times. I guess that's how I can tell I'm in love with you. I never share my feelings with people... Not even closest friends or family, it's strange how I feel so comfortable sharing my feelings around you. When I'm with you, every moment feels like forever, but one day all of those moments are just going to be memories. What if you won't be around to make more memories, what would I do? I'm in love with you. Okay,okay enough feelings! Let's go get some Taco Bell babe<3"

As I read the last sentence my head began to ache terribly. I doubled over in pain and fell to the floor.

*flash backs*

"Oh and, you don't have to call me Cameron Dallas. You can call me Cameron or just Cam." He chuckled.

***

"I just wish I could be your Noah..."

"Cameron Dallas! Are you asking me out?" I had never felt so many butterfly's.

***

He looked me deep in the eyes. His milky brown eyes glimmered in the reflection of the slight sun. He pulled me in closer to the point where I could hear his breaths. I could here his heart beat. "I love you Alex Rose." "I love you more than you could ever imagine Cameron Dallas, I'm so lucky to have you. Out of all your beautiful fans you picked me, and I barley even knew what you did, but now I'm your number one fan." "I'm your number one fan too Alex." Were the last words that came out of his mouth before his tender lips crashed into mine. He stroked my hair, as I returned the favor. His soft, warm lips tasted like mint. He let out small breaths making me want more. His lips smiled against mine. Time stood still as our lips moved sweetly, making me forget about the harsh rain pouring down on us.

***

Texts

Cameron: so there's this thing...called magcon.

Alex: Cameron, I've heard all about it and I've always wanted to go!

***

"Sorry I just wanted everybody to know." I pulled him in close by his shirt. He bit his lip as if I were about to kiss him. He closed his eyes, but instead I dodged his lips and went to his ear. "And I'm glad you did." I whispered then walked out of the room.

***

I screamed in Noah's face, only to feel two big, warm hands grab my waist. "He's not worth it Alex!" Cameron yelled. I struggled to get out of his tight grip, but he wouldn't let go.

***

Cameron removed his sweatshirt, and wrapped it around my shivering body, which left him shirtless. I tried to return it but he gripped it to my shoulders. Carter threw him an extra sweatshirt from his backpack.

***

Cameron walked right in, on us kissing, and smiling, and holding each other. I quickly pulled away and looked at his expression. It was worse. The pain on his face was worse. Worse than Noah. It really was. My heart was beating out of my chest. I expected him to punch me, even though he wouldn't do that, I really convinced myself in the moment that he really was going to, and I was terrified. Jack flinched as Cameron came at him. I ran in front of Jack, protecting him. Shit,shit,shit,shit. I thought. What had I gotten myself into!? "MOVE ALEX!! MOVE!" He started to burst out into yelling and sobbing. "CAMERON PLEASE, DONT! DONT HURT HIM!!" I screamed. Jacks face was blank, in terror. "I CANT BELIEVE YOU! I LOVED YOU SO MUCH. HELL, I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH, BUT OBVIOUSLY YOU DONT FEEL THE SAME ALEX!!" He hollered into my face. Tears streamed down my face as he yelled at me. "I'm sorry..." I managed to croak out.

***

"Cameron!! You know how ticklish I am!! Stop it!!!!" I couldn't stop laughing. "Under one condition." He whispered in my ear. "What?" I giggled, as he stopped tickling for a second. "Say as loud as you can...." He thought for a second. "Cameron Dallas is the best at making out!" He laughed. "Hell no!" I laughed. He began to tickle me again. "Cameron stop!!!" I started to laugh loudly again. "Than do it." He chuckled. "No!" "Okayyyy..." He began to tickle me more. I couldn't take it. "CAMERON DALLAS IS THE BEST AT MAKING OUT!!!" I shouted at the top of my lounges.

***

He held out a hand to help me up, but I pulled him right in with me. "Alex!!" He laughed. We both had outfits over 100 dollars on and decided to ruin them with mud. I then got up and so did he. "We are screwed." Cam laughed. "Ehhh...." "Huh?" I splattered mud all over his white tux. He gasped. "Oh yeah!?" He chuckled. He then threw a huge pile of mud onto my face. "CAM!!!" I laughed/yelled. I then grabbed some and smeared it across his face.

***

I realized that these may be my last moments of life, as I saw the huge truck coming right towards us. "CAM!!" "ALEX!!" We both screamed. The truck rammed right into the side of us hitting me the hardest. "ALEX!! NO!! I LOVE YOU!" Cameron screamed.

*blacks out*

I took a huge breath as if I had just been held under water. "No,no,no! What have I done!" It had all come back to me. I had remembered it all, and I had just told the person I love most in my life to forget about me. I can't live without Cameron. I need him. I ran down stairs and out the door. I sprinted to Cameron's house.

{ Cam's perspective }

I still had the pills in my hand, but I made my decision. I couldn't live with out her. All my life would be, is one big blur of confusion, I wouldn't know what to do with out her. I looked down at the pills. "I love you Alex.... I really do. More than myself.. So this is my only option. I. Can't. Live. Without. You." I finished my sentence and began to move the pills closer to my mouth. "This is it..." They were centimeters away from my mouth. I just smiled as they touched my lips.