Not Just Perfect

But I Thought You Loved Me

When I got home that day I ran upstairs to my room. I thought about texting Cameron, until I started to get a call from "Noah💕😍😘😋" I slid my finger across the screen.

"Hey Noah!"

"Hey Alex...."

"What's wrong you sound down. Are

you okay babe?"

"Yeah I'm okay, but I don't know if you'll be.."

"What is it?"

"I have bad news."

"What's the news? I'll always be here for you Noah."

"Yeah I know you will but, I won't always be there for you. At least not any more."

I felt the pit of my stomach drop. A tear tried to escape my eye but, I held it in. I sniffed a little and started to talk again. My voice sounded raspy and dry, because I was trying so hard to keep my sobs in.

"W-what is that supposed to mean Noah?!" I sounded angry.

"Shhhh. It means I'm breaking up with you Alex."

"Y-your w-what?.."

"Alex, I'm breaking up with you! Get it through you beautiful head! I love you and always will think your perfect but, it's time to part."

"After all we've been through, Noah. Three years... Three years."

"Alex I found someone else. I apologize. You can find someone too. Don't get too mad. I still love you. My feelings for Amber are stronger. Stronger than our love. Stronger than all those three years combined. That let's me know that she's the one for me Alex. I promise you'll find someone else."

"But, I.. Thought you loved me?"

The phone hung up. Not by me. By Noah. I started to cry all the tears came out at once. I wanted to die. I thought about Cam and how happy he makes me but then my mind kept zooming back in on Noah and all our wonderful memories. All those fun beach days, school days, lazy days, vacation days, sick days, cuddle days, food days, smile days, youtube days, T.V. days, all those love days.

And now they were gone forever, because I wouldn't be returning to Hawaii any time soon, ever... Never.

I got a message from "Cam Dall✌️🙊"

"Hey Alex, how are things?" I didn't text back I was way to depressed. Noah was the only reason I wanted to live. Now there was no reason to live. No I wasn't going to kill myself, but I was going to just lay here all night on the cold floor. Thinking about how much I wanted to die. Maybe looking at some of Cameron's vines or youtube videos would make me feel better.

I looked up "Cameron Dallas" a Chanel popped up. I clicked the subscribe button. "One million subscribers?!" I whispered to myself. I watched his most recent. "Getting stitches freak out" it was really intense! I liked it though. He mentions so much about how much he loves/adores his fans. It was so cute. I was starting to really like the fact that Cam and I were friends. I got another message from Cameron saying. "Thanks for the subscribe bae😘😂😂" why did Cam say "Bae" and why did he put a "😘"? Not that I didn't like it, but does he like me?

At this point I was kind of hopping he did. Except I only wanted to be friends. Surprisingly. I don't want to get hurt ever again that badly. This is the kind of depression that will stay with you for the rest of your life. Noah has officially left one big scar on me for ever. Maybe I need stitches. I was still crying a little bit just at thought of what had happened only 3 hours ago. My mascara was starting to burn. I went to the restroom and decided to take a shower.

After my shower I got into some pajamas and started to actually text back Cameron. "Hey, sorry I wasn't replying Cameron. I just got dumped and am having really severe depression. We had been dating for three year and a couple months and when I moved he just decided that he had feelings for another girl. I decided I should text you because your the only one who can make me wanna stay on this planet for now. I really wanna die Cameron, I just wanna die right now." I started to ball again and threw my phone across my room. Cameron immediately started typing as I retrieved my phone.

"Alex if you ever killed your self I would kill my self. You know leaving earth isn't ever going to be the solution. You are one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen in my life. You mean so much to me all ready. I wanna be best friends with you. You aren't like the other girls. You don't fan girl. You don't scream at me when I do something wrong. You stand out to me Alex. I've never said this to any girl before, but I love you as a friend, as a sister, as family. You are really special to me all ready and you are the most gorgeous human being. You deserve way better than that chump. Usually long distance relationships never work out, so it's good to get this out of the way. Alex your perfect. Don't let anyone tell you different."

"Cameron not even Noah has ever said anything that long, sweet, and meaningful to me. I love you too. You are perfect. I wanna be best friends too. That cheered me up a lot. Thanks cam. By the way I love you videos. Lol."

"Haha thanks. Goodnight Alex. Can't wait to see you at school tomorrow!"

"You to Cameron! Goodnight."

I was still really sad, but Cam made it so much better than before. I don't wanna die. I wanna see Cameron. I drifted off to sleep. This time my last thoughts were about Cameron.