Not Just Perfect

We Can Win This Fight. Together.

I cleared my throat before I let my self react. "Why is Kalin here...?" I asked softly even though my expression was harsh. He looked back at me and smiled. "Your still beautiful...not many girls can pull that off." He gave me a genuine smile. I shook my head. "Who told you?" I was wearing a hoodie and even without one it would take you about 10 minutes to figure out I was pregnant. He smiled again which began to annoy me. "Your mom." He responded, fixing the collar of his shirt. My mom responded the only way any mom would. When I had first told her she thought I was kidding. She knew I was a virgin. I knew I was a virgin. Well so we thought. The night that me and Cam had gotten drunk and the condom was still in his phone case, so we knew we were safe.... Turns out we didn't need a condom. It sucks that I can't remember my first time... But there has been and will be many more. Yes. Cameron and I have had sex a lot. We wanted to make the best of it before he would be to weak...my eyes began to water at the thought of when he won't even be strong enough to get out of that bed. But once my mom realized I wasn't kidding about being pregnant she yelled and she lectured but after that, we sat on the couch with brownies and discussed names for the baby. I found out only a couple weeks ago that it was a girl.

I knew it would change my life, but now it's all I wanted. I stared down Kalin. "So can you tell me why you're here...?" attitude and anger rose with my tone. Kalin looked at me like I was a lion who was about to rip open his flesh. "Well Alex I just--" my mother immediately cut him off "He hadn't seen you sense some party and he was really worried about what had happened to you, so he called me and I told him to come over so I could tell him how your doing." She finished. "Well I'm fine." I ran upstairs and shut my door. Even just the word "party" made me think of Cameron kissing some other girl. I hope she catches his cancer. I chuckled at my snobby remark. I wanted to talk to Cam about that kiss... It still upset me but then again, I did the same thing by running off and kissing Mr.'I just wanted to make sure you're okay!'.

Plus he had A LOT going on all ready. I've screwed up so many times, and this is his first.... Well his first time messing around with some other person while I've almost done it three times. Wow that sure made me feel great. I began to go on my laptop and look up more Christmas gifts for Cam. It was only august but I had to find the PERFECT gift. I've been looking at least an hour a day if not two sense July! School was finally over, except for all the college kids. I guess my online classes got annoying but I was 21 and an official adult. I was fixing on getting my own place, but with everything going on it didn't seem like the best idea. As I kept scrolling through etsy, something caught my eye. It was a humongous wall of photos. It was cool. Really cool. It was the whole entire wall. THATS IT! Something lit up in my head. What if I printed out every single photo of Cameron and I and covered his main wall in them. And then when he finally got to come home on Christmas....BAM every single picture of us. He could look at them before he falls asleep or when he feels down.

Maybe that would only have to be part of it. I could cover his wall and do something else big. Then I got an other light bulb. I could make a gap in all of the pictures and have a quote that says something like "we can win this fight. together." I smiled. But I have to do even more! I could do the wall and the quote andddd take him toooooo SEAWORLD! Cam loves dolphins! Cam loves whales! Perfect. I'll do the wall and give him tickets to seaworld and we can go together. On Christmas. I smiled and began to look through photos to put on the wall. I'd probably needed 200 or so to cover the whole wall even with the hole for the quote.

*One hour later*

I had come up with about 100 photos so far. All I need is 100 more. Cam and I have about 500 photos of us, but I'm picking out the ones I truly love. I began to get a FaceTime call. Seeing it was Cameron, I smiled and immediately answered.

Cameron: *smiles* hey baby girl.

Alex: *smiles back* hey strong boy.

Cameron: *chuckles* I just got a little bit of anxiety again and I wanted to talk to you...

Alex: okay! I'll be over in five!

Cameron: No! Alex.. Your not my baby sitter. You don't need to rush over here every time I get uncomfortable.

Alex: To bad! I'm coming. Bye baby. See you in five. Keep tight!

I saved the file of photos I had gathered and grabbed my keys off my desk. I headed down stairs. As I walked to the door I completely ignored Kalin and my mother. I hoped in my car and headed to the hospital.

*5-7 minutes later (arives to the hospital)*

As I walked off of the elevator to Cam's floor, paramedics, doctors, and nurses rushed passed me to room 2217. It didn't bother me until I realized 2217 is Cameron's room. Air caught in my throat until I forced my self to cough. I sprinted down the hall to Cam's room and busted in. Everybody was hovering around him. All I could hear was obnoxious choking coming from Cameron's throat. I felt tears burn my cheeks. "HE'S HAVING A SEIZURE!" A doctor screamed out before throwing him onto a gurney. They rushed him out of the room, right passed me. I began to yell, hoping he could hear me. "CAMERON! CAMERON! BREATH!" I screamed down the hall, heaving while I tried to catch up. I could see his body bouncing up and down with every eardrum-busting cough that escaped his throat. They scurried him into a room that read "deadly emergencies" next to a room that read "miner emergencies" the fact that they rushed him into the deadly room, made my heart skip beats. I had never witnessed a seizure before. I wasn't happy that the first one I did, was on my boyfriend. I couldn't breath right and I felt like I might be having one of my own. "HE MIGHT NOT MAKE IT!" A voice echoed through out the hospital, before I passed out.